\\_tell mii da truth.. euu hypocrites killed mii_//

2007-03-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

:*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:
nice one xuan-chan..
you forgot the livejorunal..
http://xiaoxuan99.livejournal.com/
=) you can find EVERYTHING there..
if you look at it CAREFULLY~ =)

P.S. if you cant view some of the wordings.. that's because either they are special symbols or japanese.. =) please change your internet explorer to Unicode (UTF-8)
to do this, go to view then to encoding.. =)
hope my memories will not be mistreaten..
ありがとう｡ (｡-人-｡)

EDIT::

I also created another Jap Blog.. XDD
http://naniimowakaranai.blogspot.com/
^^ ^^ Ryo is the blog skin!! I just love him too much.. X333
よろしくね！！

2007-03-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

hohoho.. =)

I'm now announcing that I will be locking this blog up.. =)

just no longer using this coz I'm super getting sick of the new formation of blogger.. =""=..

what the hell ma... = =... people just enjoy using the old one then the new one ok... =""=...

so I'm going to close it until it left with 5 post? ^^

if you are clever and trying to dig out my past memories, go ahead..
I'm not stopping anyone.. = =.. (but I also doubt no one will be reading too.. = =.. who is soooo that boring 473 posts? XDD)

well... hmmm~~ I just wanna say.. what's over is over ya? ^^

I have a new blog.. it's at LIVEJOURNAL.. (for some reason LJ seems better coz I can grab some scans there at com.. XP)

also~~~ I have a new AMEBA WEBBY~~ X333

what's AMEBA?? it's some sort of.. hmmm blog that Alice Nine, Kagrra and Kra is using..
I'm not sure about Meev and the GazettE.. but I think staffs are helping GazettE to post... XPP
oh~ Aoi grew old already.. = = his bday is over.. TwT...

his wish is to get married before 30... is it going to be Uruha?~ XDDDD

ok.. so naggy.. XP...

mia~~~ for just some of them who are soooooooooooo curious about my blogy password last time.. XDDDD

it's actually uruha~~ X333 yup~~ I got jealous of uruha for liking aoi?
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD probably~? X333333

anyway.. it's my last entry here so.. =)
m(_ _ )m arigatou~

2006-12-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

lol~ hey wenqian girl~ XDDD
by the time you see this post I will be gone.. TwT
jk~ XDDDD
that dear girl wants me to entertain her with something..
so here I am~ XDDDDDDDD
hmm~~~~~ I thought of something to write.. but I forgot it later.. LOL~

Kagrra no su is out!! XDDD the last episode before new year~ XD
wow.. so fast new year le.. LOL
omg I remember what to say liao.. LOL~
WEN QIAN!! LOL~
I've send you letter or card today~ XDDD
hope you recieve it soon~ ^^ ^^ ^^
(^_^)/

2006-11-22T04:31:00.000+08:00

I got my FOOL'S MATE!! XDDD
Meev hairstyle changed a lot,
GazettE are getting cooler (^ ^)b
Alice is starting lives soon.. (>X<)bb
Kagrra Shin is sooooo looking good!! XDD d(>o<)b
anyway.. I saw Misaki today..
his hair is in horible colour.. =_=...
white+pink..
where do I see this person before.. *thinks*
=∀= YASUNO!!!
he's a drummer anyway so that's ok.. XDDD pinky!! X333333
anyway.. he is with his girlfriend..
what a flirt!! I thought he said he isnt going to find one? XD (I think so)
whatever.. I just saw him at the MRT station at bugis..
he was cuddling his girlfriend so tight like she is going to get missing anytime..
in big public.. tsk tsk tsk...

2006-11-20T04:40:00.000+08:00

ZZzzzz I really love to stay up late dont I? XDDDDD
anyway nonsense.. X3333333333

I finally finished my ALICE NINE 150 WALLPAPERS!!! <3333333333333333
*clapss*
and also I've added them up on webby..
I named it Shoipon..
because I love Shin, Aoi, and Hiropon!!! XD
http://www.freewebs.com/xiaoxuan99/
anyway.. the pervious webby.. I dont know why it didnt work.. tsk tsk..
and also X33333
KAGRRA GOT THEIR OWN BLOG!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I should link everyone.. Kra too even if I dont really know them.. XD
now it's only left with the GazettE and Meev~ XDDD
I seriously hope they will release any albums and get their blog soon!! XDDDDD
well this is the rule! you dont release ablum? no blog!! X3333
I wanna see Aoi spam his blog.. it will sure look so cute~ XDD

2006-11-04T19:53:00.000+08:00

X33333333 I now then realise how long I didnt touch my blogger le..
even though here contains much much more of my memories,
junjie and melvin,
and a lot more rubbish, fun and sadness..
but I yet still chose to had my blog in livejournal.. ^^
I'm actually much more comfortable using LJ then Blogger..
not blogger is not good.. but it needs google account.. =_=~~~
I'm lazy to login and out unlike LJ..
well it has much more advantage then that.. XP
I also know more friends there,
and meeting those Occult Proposal friends..
Maryllin-chan (currently my nee-chan), Melka-chan (who is away due to studying), Surreal-chan~(a taiwanese~ and cute girl), Myranthe-chan (more of like a mother to me~~ ^^ ^^ ^^) and communities like xalicenicex, alice9_daily, alice9_diares.. I love every little bit of them~ ^^
also I feel more safe posting there then here.. at least no one knows what I'm writing coz I've locked all my post only to friends.. =)
though I enjoy making skins for blogger.. but LJ is now more important to me~ ^^
I'll make more soon.. soon as in before the end of this year~ ^^

I also wonder if this year the PSC have Christmas special like last year~ ^^ ^^ ^^
I just cant wait to see them again!! X333
Alice has been hard writing songs..
Gazette is resting and having interviews..
Kagrra is busying with new songs and PVs..
Miyavi.. I've totally no idea.. same for Kra...
Isshi got sick this recently..
now it's spring.. no wonder he got sick.. XD
and Shin is wearing thicker then usual..
Akiya got more and more restless.. too much PV...
Nao and Izumi's eyebag is getting bigger.. T_T
Shou is lazy to wear thick clothing..
Nao is totally in his Gundam stuff.. =_=...
Tora and Saga forgot to rest due to composing too much songs..
Saga FINALLY said that he has a SISTER... =_=... (I bet is younger sister)
Aoi is posting a little bit too much on his blog.. =_______=
that's totally nonsese my Aoi.. =_=..
Uru-baby totally went missing.. O_O...
Kai, Ruki and Reita are busying with songs again...
same for Uru-baby with Kai and Ruki.. busy with interviews.. XD

everyone is doing a little too hard.. ^^
becareful not to get sick!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I wish everyone just do well!!
dont get sick again!!! X33333333333333333
I'm going to post here again sometimes.. ^^;;;;
I'm posting coz stupid LJ is down.. I'm still waiting for it to be ok again..
ja~ matta ne~ ^^

ALICE NINE
NEW ALBUM:: [NUMBER SIX]
[NUMBER SIX] MOVIE

KAGRRA
NEW SINGLE:: UTAKATA
IZUMI SPECIAL

GAZETTE
DVD:: [NAMLESS LIBRETY] STANDING TOUR 2006
SINGLE:: REGRET
SINGLE:: FILTH IN BEAUTY

well I think I've list what they currently produced~ XD
I really love the number six moive..
nevertheless the standing tour for gazette~ ^^
I cried like crazy when I watch it..
used almost 2 to 3 packets of tissues.. XDDDDD
ja really~ going~ bai bai~~

2006-09-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

awww.. so long never update le.. XDDD
I guess blogger is like back to my oldself of writing all the li li lor lor XDD XDDD
ok.. first of all.. I wanna wish
my DEARLY Shin!~~~ ^^

SHIN HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY!!!! XDDDDDD

NIJUU NANA TOSHI TANBOUBI OMEDETO!!!!!
*clapssss*
11/9

then follow by
MIYAVI-KUN!!!! XDDDD

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!~~~ X3

NIJUU GO TOSHI TANJOUBI OMEDETO!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDD
*clapsss*
14/9

and last but not least.. our Tora-kun!!! XDD

TORA-KUN!!!!!!!!!!! TT_TT
GOMEN NASAI!!!! FOR FORGETTING YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! TT_TT

but I'm still going to wish you

NIJUU ROKU TOSHI TANJOUBI OMEDETO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just cant forget you coz you sued to be one of my darling before Shin comes in..
now I have to hand you to linny-chan, Melka-chan and Chari-chan to take care of you.. ;_; take care my sweet Tora~~ ^^ ^^ ^^ wish you all the best in everything.. *hugs*
I'll miss you every now and then..

to my beloved
Tora-kun <3

2006-09-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

argh.. so long never upload le.. x3
my kagrra finally download finish.. xD *happy*
anyway.. she got her new blog.. i guess if continues like that my blog will be discovered..
anyway.. I had been put aside.. I dun like this.. if you dun wan me already then dun talk to me la..
treat me so nice for wad.. I'm not as good as you think I'm...
how I wish I know no one except Malka-chan, Linny-chan and Chari-chan...
everyone from Batsu.. from Occult Proposal..
they just don't know me..
perhaps I had been issolated to another world..
or is it I'm the one who is isolating myself?
but cant they come and know me well instead I go and know them well?
there are so many of them and there is only one me..
I HATE THIS!!!!

things just arent the same way as we said years ago..
we will NEVER go to poly together..
you know it..
we will NEVER take the same course..
you noticed it..
all of us werent be only knowing this bunch of friends only..
you understood this...
everyone just dont have a straight way...
I guess if this continues..
I would have to confess my dreams..
I wanna go Japan..
I'm serious..
I dont think this sounds like a joke cause I really wanna play bass..
I love music..
even though if I cant earn anything from it..
at least I wont regret...
I wan step into the music world.. I wanna find my true bandmates who willing to stay with me and play music with me..
this IS my dream..
and I'm not going to let it ruin just like this..
cause' this is what music world is all about..
...

moreover..
I dont think that DANCING is a music..
IT'S AN ART.. not music..
so make it CLEAR.....

*********************************************************
I bought my SHOXX today..
Miyavi is JUST GORGEOUS
URUHA is FEMINE!!! XDD
KISAKI IS KAKOIII!!!! <3
I just love this one most XDDDDD
everyone jus look so nice~~~ *faints*
after me and my mother went to Taka
we went to spotlight XD and i saw a tall guy who reminds me of Junjie.. x3
ok.. i think i'll end here.. x3

2006-08-30T16:03:00.000+08:00

today was horrible.... really horri-g-ble... i can believe johnathan is this kind of person... he made mrs leow cried.. how could he? i mean he slept in class is his wrong.. wad the hell.. i cant understand why on earth did he wans to argue with her? moreover she walked out of the class that makes me quite upset too.. wad was the worst is that when melvin tried to tell where johnathan is wrong cheehoe asked them to shutup and he juz shouted fuck RITE into his face.. i dunno wad iszzit.. but it seems so hurting to see melvin scolding this.. he is a christian... he shouldnt do that... i guess he juz hate cheehoe for beening together with lijun... haix.. forget it...

and to the fact cheehoe was too xl.. he thought that only HIS things and ZHIYAO's things are wet.. he juz dun have the brain to take a look how OUR row tables got wet.. it was like flooding there.. and that idiot came BANGING into the classroom and shouted fuckyouall and kick the tables take his things and scolded us for not closing the windows.. i was like sooooooooooooooo freak off by him and scolded him in my hear coz i'm MORE worried about my books then my repritution.. i was like FREAK! we arent weather forecast rite? how on EARTH do we know it will rain?!!! moreover it's not like the STUPID rain wets only YOUR table.. sooooo angry with him... he spoil my moods the most.. sooo he juz stamp out of the classroom like this.. then later melvin helped me carried my files and he went home.. i KNEW something isnt going to be GOOD if i saw allen.. he was like accusing me and melvin stead.. and he said something like i smell fish~.. i still smell pig!!!!! argh... this juz isnt my day...

and i wanna appologoies to Gordon.. XDD first~ i forgot he has sun burns.. x3 and he made me angry.. he was like shouting(playing) at me.. and act those gangster face.. i was soooo angry that i scolded him.. and he still scold me back!!! so i grab on to his collar and i keaded on the floor.. XDDDD and begged me to let go.. but i didnt.. so i gave him 2 hard slams on his back.. XDDD and the worst is that i accidently tore his shirt.. x3~ gomen ne~
and melvin too.. he know he was wrong (he's my neko~ ^^) and he take out his hand to me.. i gave him a hard slap too.. i know that was pain coz my hand hurts too.. XDDDDD

ok.. so nothing much already~~ gotta take my afternoon nap~ x3 ja matta ne~~ <3

2006-08-29T17:45:00.000+08:00

haiz~~ this few days are sooooooooooooo packed.. ;_;.. i dun have enough time for my poor Shin-kun~~~~ *hugs Shin* see he wans me again dun he? XDDDDD

anyway.. talking about serious things in life.. haix.. pretty sad that my mistake is played over and over again... please someone let me forget him.. ;_;.. i'm already badly hurt by gordon.. i dun wanna hurt by him anymore...
he shouldnt have went orchard with me that day.. he shouldnt have let me go his house that day... he shouldnt have let me fight over him with gordon that day.. ALL the shouldnt happens.. now i'm all in deep trouble.. i dun wanna cried for him like i use to before.. dun be nice to me if you dun love me.. i dun like the feeling of being left out by you.. SAY if you dun wan me to stay.. i can leave.. even if you hurt me it doesnt matter.. at least i wont take the risk to hurt myself again.. i dun like the way you talk to other girls.. i'm just very jealous of wad you are doing.. if i'm not the one.. please tell me... so i wont have special feelings on you.. so i could change myself to suit others then you.. tell me that you dun wan me to stay by your side and control you.. tell me all those natsy things you could think of me... if not.. i feel so hurt bearing the pain watching you from far.. i dun wish to end up like Nancy and Sid.. i dun wan that to happen to anyone...
tell me: why iszzit always so hurting to love someone?

私はそれをもう取ることができない, が間違っているどこに私に言いなさい

2006-08-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

ahhh~~ today i went to TM with qianhui, lloyd, gordon, jiao and choaik.. lolx.. choaik and jiao keep on disappearing and reappearing again and again.. LOL.. but they seems to know where we are going ne.. STRANGE.. LOL... anyway.. i think i'm pretty pretty pretty or SUPER stupid.. ah~ call me love-sick if you wan.. i juz couldnt leave gordon like this.. ;_; ok~~~ here goes all my effort crying for the pass few nites... LOL

ok.. so.. today we went there.. and we walk and walk.. i finally got my forth piercing.. ^^ 3 ON THE LEFT!!! ^^ ^^ ^^ juz like Toshiya, Aoi and Shin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3~~~~ lol~~~~ i'm supper happy now~ hope my mother doesnt know~~ ^^ it's my ear after all~~ but i wont pierce belly.. mouth maybe.. LOL... anyway.. gordon promised me to go yamaha.. he is so damn idiot.. lolx.. he went in and went out again.. and choaik came to tell me that kelvin was playing on the paino.. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ then there's a lady beside him.. *angry* nvm.. i had gordon with me.. hmph~ ^^ ^^ ^^ then i was clinging on to gordon for the rest of the day~~ ^^ ^^ ok~ i'm super love sick now.. XP...

anyway.. lloyd juz like ask why am i cling on to gordon.. and gordon replied that "aiya, she likes me ma~" and i was pretty shock with the answer.. and mayb i thought he was kidding.. so i join the the fun and say "yar lor~ i like him ma~" lolx~~~ i cling on to gordon until we were at traffic light.. i dunno why.. but we 2 juz let go.. then.. we saw diana xinyi and yuanzhi.. xDDDD lucky we didnt cling on anymore.. *sweat* anyway... it was quite a nice day lar.. lazy to blog lo.. zzzzzz

2006-08-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
linny-chan told me Gazette may come to Singapore for a TOUR!!!! XDDDDD
SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY about it~~~~ *floats away*
i wanna talk to AOI!!! XDD
i wan take photo with Reita!!~~ ^^
i wanna shake hand with Uruha and Kai!!!! <3
nevertheless~~~~ RUKI!!!! XDDDDDDD
(i still haven think of wad i'm going to do to him.. XD)
i guess i will faint.. and also
Fool's mate have Dir en grey too~~ XDD
awww.. all of them alighten up my day~~ ^^
i should say this few days i'm getting more and more restless..
and also hurt..

haix.. i should say.. i shouldnt have like gordon earlier.. why am i so stupid? knowing that i will get hurt juz for nth.. and i still go and like him.. i'm really stupid you know.. haix.. even now.. it's like soooo hurting to see her and gordon together.. though not stead.. but i got a feeling that whenever i'm with whom.. she will come and interfer.. i dun like it.. really.. i dun.. i hate the feeling of jealousy.. i dunno why i had that.. perhaps i'm angry over both myself and the fact that she is much more better then me.. guys dun like tall and boylish girl.. i know that.. i should be juz like yu.. waiting for our beloved idols.. well.. her 20+ laogongs and mine 42 darlings+laogongs.. =)) i should juz do that.. it's sooo hurting to see gordon doing everything for her.. when gordon talk to me sometimes i could feel that "fine.. i'm juz a subsistution when she isnt around.." like today.. when i'm talking to yu.. about the shoxx.. she asked him to do geo.. so he did.. and he also asked her if she had finish.. and she said no.. then he came to ask me.. if i had done.. and i makes me feel that way.. i'm always wondering.. if she is not there.. will ou ask me? will you a not? i'm juz super angry with what i'm thinking... and during maths remedia.. she was like talking to gordon and asking him to do things like "have you done your work? still dont faster do?" and gordon was like ok ok.. i do i do... i am sooo frausted... i keep killing myself from thinking of him by doing my work, talking to neko, joking with kai as much as i can.. i still feel hurt.. very and it's a deep cut.. i dunno why i cant like jj anymore.. i juz dunno why... jj is much better then him.. clever, tall, good in basketball, good in maths, rich... i dunno why i like gordon that much.. he isnt very bright, Shin's height, not so good in basketball, not good in studies, always sleeps in class, dont work hard for the sake of himself.. but i guess there's 1 thing jj dun have and it's the only thing that makes me like him.. it's his care.. i dunno jj.. that's why i cant feel his care.. gordon has done much more thing.. he accompany me home.. wanting me to go home.. and there's one day.. he wanted me to take bus home.. but i insisted on walking home because my ez-link card has no money.. and when he insisted me on taking bus home.. i shouted at him at said i wanna walk home.. he keep slience.. and choaik was pretty shock too.. and i juz walked away like that.. and when i reached home.. i cried that nite.. i felt regret of rejecting it.. and from that day he didnt really talked to me already... sometimes i feel like bitting someone.. i always wanted to talk to neko.. but i'm afraid he will juz "hmm hmm.. orh orh.." i dun like that kinda answer.. i'm afraid i may not be able to be so strong.. i can cry too.. i juz hope it wont happen infront of you...

2006-08-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

ahh~~ i went ORCHARD AGAIN!! X3
anyway.. i bought my shoxx.. X3~~ but it's only the front page very disgusting.. i suppose that was Pumkin Head.. if i'm wrong gomen...

soo.. ALICE NINE WAS INSIDE~~ *hugs shoxx* ^^ ^^ ^^
i when to cine to order my arena 37.. X3.. i hope they will get for me.. ONEGAI!!!!

i love this Jolin song a lot.. XDDDD i'm posting here.. hope yu dun scold me.. XDDD
(she knows wad i mean... mayb? XDDD)

Mr.Q
歌手:蔡依林所属专辑:舞娘

数一数每天你撞见我的次数
赌一睹你的神情中有爱慕
与其辛苦又要耍酷又要埋伏
那么何不让爱快一点倾巢而出
(一窝蜂都装酷不醒目)

HEY U,Mr.Q 爱你耍Q的指数
电流向瀑布好像重力加速度
你又杀又无辜与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署

说你愿意为了我幸福开始吃素
放弃森林好好只照顾一棵树木
我的付出一辈子都不会辜负
所有害怕从此有你拔刀相助
(我爱你的赌注不怕输)

HEY U,Mr.Q 爱你耍Q的指数
电流像瀑布好像重力加速度
你又杀又无辜与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署

So Q(hey u,Mr.Q hey u)just because of U
So Q(hey u,Mr.Q hey u)just because of U

(Rap)
I can see in your eyes Baby Give it up and come here for me
Don't be so cool shout out sweetie Make your dreams come true
Your love gonna stop my heartbeat Come kill me with your
hot kiss
Life would be so cute Honey Be my Mr.Q

2006-08-10T18:38:00.000+08:00

ano ne~ X3.. i went to qianhui house juz now.. the moment my father reached there.. i saw ben.. XDD ah~~ he is in love with stella.. haha~ poor xiujuan.. haix.. ANYWAY.. i was talking to him and realised gordon asked him to go qianhui house too.. so we waited and realise it was already 1.30 and gordon haven come yet.. so we went qianhui house first.. and we saw LILO!! ^^ ^^ ^^ *hug lilo* lilo is growing BIGGER and BIGGER.. =_=.. so we waited for a while and gordon came.. then we played at qianhui house.. they dun let me sleep.. so tired sia.. then we went down stairs to play basketball for a while and we end up playing monkey.. then we rest for quite sometimes.. and we decided to go 7-11.. everyone changed the slippers and i end up wearing left gordon right qianhui.. and qianhui end up wearing the same as me.. or should i say only my leg could fit hers.. coz guys' leg are a bit too wide.. so they can go in.. and ben end up wearing mine and his.. same for gordon.. and we went to 7-11 like tat.. XDDD we bought yako(sp?) and 3 can of nesscafe.. 1 jelly icecream(ben's) and i bought sweet for melvin too.. XP... (for him to stop smoking..) so we again end up standing outside the 7-11.. sharing drinks.. qianhui's yako tasted sour.. so everyone tried abit and we all ask her not to drink anymore.. so we 4 shared the nesscafe.. XP.. we all passed around the drink commenting on the cafe.. and i realised a obasan is looking at us.. LOL!!! XDDDD so later we sent qianhui home.. then we accompany ben to coffee shop to meet his family members.. then gordon walked home with me.. well i should say.. i should stop trying already.. i guess i should stop breaking my heart.. liking him is way too much.. coz i already felt the feeling was gone.. i dunno since when... but i know.. it's gone.. though a little sad.. heartbroken.. but loving my jrockers are better then him.. like i say.. at least my jrockers wont hurt me.. so he accompany me home.. and LUCKY.. my father didnt see him.. XDDD and i went into the house.. haha~~

and further more.. before i went to qianhui house.. i went to my grandmother's house.. i should say... i troubled her a lot.. the dog ran away juz now.. it was bubble.. but her maid brought him back later.. ご免ね。。ほんどうにご免なさい。。 haix.. and i was cut by the branches.. wad a pain.. XP.. today was really fun.. i love the changing of slippers and the sharing of drinks!! XDDD more over.. today everyone's slippers were black!! XDD and the 4 of us wore black except gordon.. XP 余分！！！！ XDDD ok.. write until here.. じゃ～～～待ったね！！！！＼(^∇^)／

2006-08-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

ano.. the freaking com went to close my post juz now.. ok.. i'm rewriting.. =) so.. wad i was saying was about her.. she kinda like.. dun let me be with tat guy i like? some kind of.. this is wad i felt.. i may not be real.. anyway.. i'm in super bad mood for both ytd and today.. ytd.. we had dnt.. she juz left me alone at the dnt room.. ok i was like fine.. she is juz taking me as a subsistution.. forget it... one day we might end up quarelling with each other.. i dunno when.. but i think it might be soon... anyway.. zhengzhong talked to me during the dnt photo taking of our artefact.. then later we went for social studies..
(sorry.. i'm not in a mood to blog.. many things happened in between.. i dun like it.. so i'm juz writing in summary..)

so later we went to the social studies remedia.. she came in with her friend and sat right infront of gordon.. gordon complaint to me that she anyhow drew his paper.. and i was like "so? you are blamming me?" then i cont to do my work.. then xinyi and diana, they noisiest among all.. they when to bully gordon.. the wrote something like gordon likes me on his arm.. then i was like hur hur.. let them play as they like.. i'm no one infront of her... and they were like playing and playing and then i dunno is it xinyi or diana said that gordon like me gordon like me... and i was trying to concentrate on my work so i said yar yar.. then they ask wad you going to do or something.. and i said kill him lor.. "hit is dote scold is love wad" *directly translated from chinese* so he was like pissed off and ignored me.. and after social studies remedial he went home really fast.. i tried to talk to melvin about gordon.. but he was like.. argh.. forget it.. i dun think he will understand...

anyway.. today was worst.. gordon came into the class.. seeing me there.. he walked away.. and until i left the class, he then came in again.. we barely talked today.. tat's wad i meant when i said that "the moment you are devoted to him, he can be the coldest person to you." and today she even like talked to gordon even though she knows something about it.. argh.. i dunno wad i'm talking but later we went to the hawker centre and they KNOW there are so many of us, but they still sat at a 6 person table.. so end up i had to join another.. i was pretty freaked off.. but thanks to xiujuan, mrs kuek, neko (not really) and my beloved Gazette for being there by my side.. i'm really very numb already.. i dun wanna think anymore.. say me crazy if you like.. i juz dun wan to think about ppl who oppose me...

anyway.. mrs kuek called me and said she saw awi.. XDD.. that was nice.. but i prefer seeing Andy.. X3... then later jiao talked to me.. i thought it was really him.. then when i looked at the msn.. the first thing said was "hi.. gordon here.." and i remember gordon went o his house.. so i didnt question much.. since he wanna be alone.. i juz said yo.. and tat's it.. then the conversation juz ended.. haix.. i feel that i'm at such a lost.. stupid me for liking him.. stupid me for hurting myself again and again..

further more.. i went to look on Gazette OHP.. X3.. Aoi has blond hair!! XD.. it looks JUZ perfect for him.. =) i still love my dearest Aoi the most.. anyway.. pic here of everyone~ dousou~ =)

2006-08-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

haix.. i have been sleeping whole day..
this kinda event goes one enough.. i dun wan a second time..
i have been aching ever since last nite..
my heart too..
everytime i remember Vics,
he always reminds me of his girlfriend..
it really hurts to recall their memories..
all i can say is that..
i really cried reading it...
i'm always thinking.. why be so famous and hurt the person you love?
i dun really understand that well..
Vics maybe happy on the outside..
but i'm betting that he is shattering inside..
both of them are so perfect together..

6 dec 04
her
he took 77 mrt stops to accompany me =)
him
sorry let u wait min.. sent her home and came home... there you go 77 stops...

10 dec 04
her
i went amk later then to accompany him. he ate his dinner. watched tv and played comp.
him
At night she come my house... nothing much just to accomany me.. XD thank you!

14 Jun 05
her
anyway. i went overseas to sentosa with vics yesterday (((:
him
Jia Min and I went oversea to Sentosa island.
her
22may05. my birthday~ had a very wonderful day :D i spent it with vics anyway. haha... maybe tt explained it.

04june05. D'J party. had so much fun that day. great performance by the bands~ vics played so well :D enjoyed so much. cosplayers did great too. liked that toshiya closplayer ((:

05june05. happie half a year. life cannot be any better~ im so glad to have u by my side. thankthank!

02 sep 05
him
this is the 1st time we're going through this i hope this can be solved... i want those days... i'v learnt to cherish...

Pls believe me once more... i'll change..
her
i do not want to affect his life which he still has to carry on.
no matter what, i should not be so inconsiderate.
i still want the best for him.

03 sep 05
her
i do not want to affect his life which he still has to carry on.
no matter what, i should not be so inconsiderate.
i still want the best for him.

04 sep 05
him
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back some day

10 sep 05
her
im glad that fate brought us together.
for he had given me so much... so so much.
really thank you (:

love is especially sweet
cos of you
him
maybe all she need is time.
i'll wait for her.
I will never let it go.

12 sep 05
her
i have not forgotten u at all.
im still wondering what u r doing most of the time.
i will be so glad to know u r fine and doing well.

10 oct 05
her
it is my dearest's birthday.
whee XD

happy 'new' year to him.
him
nvm. i still love her present!!! ( don't care it's belated ) Love you!

29 nov 05
her
went out with dearest for movie.
it feels really good to have his hands
and him beside me.

i went all weak when i heard ur voice again

it is really amazing how a simple call from you
can spur me up again

i cant remember the words you spoke
all i heard was your voice
which i hold so close to my heart

05 dec 05
her
i tried to paint a beautiful picture of you and me,
but my tears failed me.

i know what i want.
i know what i need.
but things are beyond my control.

i have tried so hard to hold on.
hold on to the memories we shared.
hold on to the moments i cherish.
hold on to you, the one i love so.

i have tried to be my best for you,
but it never seemed to be enough.

whenever you are so beaten and down,
i tried my best to listen
and cheer you up.
whenever you are so troubled by problems,
i tried my best to understand
and think of means and ways to solve them.

you never know how much i love to see the smile on your face.

i put everything else and myself
aside just for you.

it hurts so much to know im losing you.

tears never stop.
im really not fond of crying.
it is useless, pointless
and doesnt bring me to anywhere.

but i cried out of desperation.
'cos i simply do not know what more i can do,
to let you know that
how much i want and need you by my side.

baby, i have tried so hard.
do you know that i really love you alot?

but i will just play my part,
and pray you will have a change of heart...

im aware of things you are doing.
yet i chose to ignore everything,
and still feel the faint warmth from you.
'cos i know i can never let you go.

once
twice
thrice
fourth
i dont wish to count on.

my heart sank whenever i dont hear you speaking the truth.
yet i smile,
for you make the effort to assure me in your way.

suddenly,
i was made to believe that
perhaps somethings are never meant to be.

i wish too hard.
i wish too long.

when you say goodbye, remember me once in a while
promise me that you'll try
...at least.

it was a sleepless night one year ago.
due to immense excitment.

it is the same for tonight.
but just for a completely different reason.

5thdec. how much i love and hate this date.
him
I stayed at home today just to recall and reflect.

Recall what happen 1 year ago till now. Remembered that today was suppose to go sentosa again. recalled that today suppose to be a tiring day.

Reflected on how i acted. how i reacted. how i treated.

Sometimes, somethings are really so in the wrong path when I recalled today.

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well.. things can be hurting at times..
but story last.. another will begin..

無用の事があなたの方法に入らないために注意してはいけない
強いがありなさい、叫んではいけない
物語に端がまだあっていない

so ganbatte to everyone!!.. i'm juz emotionly sick.. ignore me.. XP

2006-08-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

kya~~ went to superband yesterday.. X3 it was great.. more lively then i could think of when the special guest from taipei came.. =) he voice rocks the WHOLE place!!! XD XD XD but i dunno who he is.. so i dun care much.. XD anyway.. me, alicia, yu and hui went there a little too early.. but better then nothing.. XD so.. we went around seeing wad's in side the plastic bags and took some from others home.. XP then went it starts.. there's SOUL, J3, MiLuBing and Lucify there behind and the other groups infront dancing.. XD.. so went we heard the moto bike sound.. me and yu went to the TOP of the VIP sit.. (actually everyone at the sits are VIP.. it's juz.. it's sits.. XD) so we saw SOUL and J3 came out.. both of us were quite DISAPPOINTED.. coz lucy is on the other side.. awwww~~~~ never mind.. we like SOUL too!! ^^ and perhaps i might be falling for them already~~~ XDD anyway.. they were getting ready to get on the bike.. and when they are standing there.. i couldnt find my Alex.. and went he came.. i shouted for his name!! but he couldnt hear me... ;_; *sits in a corner growing mushroom* then yu was like looking at Andy from SOUL.. he is the one that both of us likes a lot (in SOUL) XDD so we shouted and shouted at his name.. and he finally noticed us~~ XDDDD he smiled and wave at us~~ *melts~~~~~* and here comes the fangirl dieases.. XD XD cant blame us.. who ask him to be sooooo charming when he smile.. XDDD and made both of us faint.. X3 anyway.. i later tried a cople of time on Alex.. but he still didnt hear it.. *arghhhhh* so the concert starts... =) yu and i were happy to wish Andy good luck once more before he goes.. and i was like thinking.. "hey!! arent i'm here to support Lucify?!!!!" but too late.. Andy's smile caught my soul and i have been LOOKING at him for the WHOLE performance.. and lucy too.. XD their clothes were NICE!!! *thumbs UP!* and kuek's hair, kel's and misaki's one were like KYAAAA~~~~~ i love them a lot~~~!!!! ^^ ^^ ^^ <3 so we were high there.. and later gordon smsed me.. (i will say wad happen in the afternoon later) and we talked for a while i bet heslept after my last message to him.. XDD

so later after the whole concert.. XD milubing won.. it's expected.. but i still love Kel, Shinya, Vics, Alex and Andy~~ X3 they are forever my superband~~ ^^ ^^ ^^ so we went out to the backstage waiting for Andy.. (alicia went home..) and hui was like waiting for Ishi and telling me that Ishi smiled at her.. XD XD then yu was waiting for gu ni... so sad of her.. ;_;.. she must have waited VERY long for him.. but when she wanna take photo with him, he is going back to his country le.. i bet among EVERYTHING in superband.. she loves gu ni the most.. i took some photos of him.. but it's in my sis lappy now.. i have to transfer them on monday.. XD so the 3 of us went home later.. thanking hui's laoba~ ^^ arigatou ne~~ ^^ we were like sooo crazy over SOUL.. Andy for me and yu and Ishi for hui.. XD.. sooo melted.. but so hurt to see them go.. cried last nite for Lucy, SOUL and Alex.. TT_TT...

anyway.. yesterday in the afternoon.. i was preparing to go to alicia's house.. and i went to bathe.. so i didnt bring along my handphone.. and when i came out.. i saw that i have 3 missed call and 1 message.. all from gordon.. so i thought it was important so i looked at the message without calling him back.. but the message REALLY freaks me a lot... he asked.. "you miss me a not?" and i was like hur hur.. straight away i know.. it wasnt gordon write one...

1st: Gordon isnt very good at sweet talks over message..
2nd: Althought we are together, but I had DEEPLY declared that we are brother and sister..
3rd: Gordon told me that he is going to Xinyi house to study..
S O
Conclusion: tat's Xinyi wrote one...

haix.. yu told me about Xinyi thing lor.. she has 2-timed WeeXiong before leh.. i didnt know she is this type of person.. and yu and told me that WeeXiong's sister also hear her calling diana bitch.. i cant believe it lor.. they are like soooo good friends.. how can Xinyi be like tat?!! haix.. i'm more worried about Gordon.. u_u.. he ask me try to accept Xinyi.. but hui told me she wont if she was me.. i had enough of her trying to order people doing things for her lor.. when the person doesnt do her good, she will scold the person until like he is not even worth a cent.. haix.. forget it.. perhaps it's stupid to think over it..so i'm writing until here.. ja matta ne~

2006-08-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

haix.. so today.. hmm actually say it straight.. i dun have anything to say.. XD.. ok.. or i should say about wad really happen today? X3

ano ne.. today after school.. me, hui, lloyd, gordon and alicia, we went to 85 toeat.. and surprisingly, i saw my mother there!! XD actually she called me.. =S haha.. so then i knew later they came here to buy some fish food for my father fish.. =) IT WAS SOOO LUCKY that i was pretty upset with gordon just now so we didnt like talk on the way.. XD XD
so later i went to find my mother alone.. leaving hui and gang alone.. i was talking to my mother when hui they all came.. then followed by lloyd and gordon from the other side.. XD so i talk to my mother for a while then we left.. XD
so later we went to the 85 market.. and hui and alicia saw cat.. XD XD and they went by another side.. X3.. so we went there.. after a while went everyone has settled down.. we went to buy something to eat.. in the end.. everyone bought chicken rice except alicia.. XD.. later jiao came and slicia went home.. so we went to the saucer to play.. but saucer has already been taken by someone.. so we sat there and chat for a while before leaving for dnt.. then i took gordon's handphone and played some kagrra and gazette songs.. =) i sang 3 i think.. then later we were about to leave tat time, gordon complain that it's very hot.. so i fan him with my dnt folio and he nearly fell asleep.. XD

dnt.. was quite fun.. i was like chit chating all the way.. XD coz zhengzhong was like making me laugh!! XD XD he talk to me about the kenneth thing.. XD XD scary.. yet it was funny.. haha! kenneth used a chopping knife and threw at someone and nearly hit that person.. KOWAII!!! XD anyway.. later after Dnt, hui and gordon was at the hall waiting for us.. =) jiao went home coz he was tired.. then we stayed there for a while and walked home..

choaik left, lloyd too.. zhengzhong mo.. then only left with me, chenyu, gordon and hui.. but before that because i ask gordon to help me take dnt file, and i took his wallet!! XD XD so later i was like hooked his hand and walked together!! X3 and i heard wad zhengzhong said.. "wah~ couples~" and i was like not happy and said "no leh! is sister and brother!! brother should take care of sister!!" XD XD and i really said it.. but i know it's not true.. XP.. sux.. anwyayafter we reached qianhui and chenyu house, we went to the bus stop, and i still hooked on to gordon arm.. i was like.. i wasnt thinking of anything.. i'm happy that he is there.. =) yokata ne.. and later my bus came and i'm so sorry that he had to change bus to go home!! gomen nasai.. ;_;.. demo ne.. i feel that the more i'm getting close to gordon.. i hurt more then ever.. coz i know the very moment he can be nice to you and when you are really devote, he will be the one who is the coolest to you.. i hate that.. but i still stupidly for in love for that... doushite?

and today.. there's a art teacher whom i dunno came to talk to me and lianne.. lianne wish is to becom a journalist.. mine is musician.. when he heard that.. he was surprise.. and he ask further more.. "classic or rock?" and i answered "rock" and he was more like WOW.. a girl? playing rock? and he told me some of the english rock band.. and i said i'm not playing english song.. then he ask "hmm? chinese rock band?" "not really chinese.. anyway chinese doesnt have much rock band.. i prefer japan style." and he's eye's GREW BIGGER.. XD and he share with me this band call Lost(or something like that) from japan.. i dunno who is them and i told him the ones i prefered most visual kei.. and he was asking "those tat has loudness?" "sort of but some they still play sad songs" and i gave him a smile~ =) and he STRAIGHT away knew that, my parents doesnt allow me to learn music.. coz if only i joined some company and make money for my own.. they mayb will agree, but i have to be consistant.. i cannot give up my dream.. tat's why sometimes i feel hurt of having some one i love over here.. i hate to leave.. i hate to cry.. and he told me mayb i can be a sound producer or something.. =) but in my heart i knew it 'NO.. i'm not going to do simple stuff. I wanna play music. That's my dream. and I'm not going to give up'.. and tat teacher say he is leaving to somewhere.. i'm happy that i shared.. =) he really wakes me up.. arigatou.. ^^

anyway.. i was thinking of having my 3rd and 4th ear piercing.. hmm and i'm thinking.. should i get 4 or 5 on my right?? i know Toshiya, Aoi and Shin has 3 on the left.. so i'm taking tat.. (i have 2 on my left already!! X3) so i'm seeking for advise!! XD XD

and someting xiaoyin told me yesterday.. but i forgot to say it.. she asked me in chinese.. but i'm translating it in english.. X3

If you have a chance
to choose will you choose
a knight that be your
guardian and protects you
or a prince that will keep
all the promise he made for you?

i chose knight.. i wan someone to be there for me then only juz keep his promise.. =) like this.. i feel more safter!! XD ok.. i'm writing tooooo long.. XD ja matta ne!! ^^

2006-07-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

Ha.. today was rather tried.. =3=.. still listening to Aya's God knows =) today nothing really happened.. except for one thing.. lloyd's clothes.. XD XD i cannot bear it but to say it out loud.. i yesterday saw that shirt on sale and it was for 1 piece S$1.50.. XD XD XD XD and when i said it.. the teacher looked at me.. XD XD.. and all my friend laughed... anyway.. after school.. we had remedia.. Add maths was hard.. i cant answer the first and the last.. T_T... and after tat we went for remedia AGAIN.. XD i was walking and walking with nuannuan.. (we juz came out of air-con room and it's a rainy weather.. so rather cold) i was like clinging on to her when gordon walked beside me.. and i was like i think pointing to him something.. but he helped me to take the dnt instead.. XD XD and i half cling on nuannuan and half cling on gordon.. and i was like "wah!! i have 2 warmer!!" XD XD but i dun dare to hug him again.. he is another person infront of hui.. haix.. forget it.. mayb he isnt the person i wish for.. but indeed.. hui is a better person then me.. =)

then i had an unpleasent journey home.. i was reading and listen to my DEAREST Gazette song.. and coz i went to hui's house juz now and i went home later.. so the bus stop is earlier then the school's bus stop.. but later i didnt realise simin on board too.. i was quite "surprise" to see her.. but i tried my best not to look at her.. (actually i dun quite like her.. you will know wad i mean later) luckily i had my dnt folio the sit beside me.. and i blast loudly the music and therefore i cant hear wad she is trying to say.. but later when the person behind me left.. she was like looking and looking towards my direction.. (i know it cos the way she turns her head is sooooo obvious tat sometimes when i doesnt wanna see it.. i see saw it.. =_=) so she moved behind me.. and touched my shoulder.. and i was like.. "freak.. wad on earth she wans for me?!!!" it's like.. i'm READING.. and i'm LISTENING to song.. means i dun wan people to disturb me.. wad on earth is she trying to do?!!! ah.. anyway.. she talk to me about her gu zhen thing.. i was sooo freak off... she is soooooo noisy and the way she talk is like "awww man.. i dun wish to know her.. coz her voice is soooo loud.. and she has a deep voice" type.. i cant CONCENTRATE reading!!! coz i was SIMPLY SUPER FREAK OFF!!!! argh.. i wish i dun have to see her in the future on the bus.. wad a unmemorable thing... URGH......

and some more happier new!!!
KYOWA!!!
NAO-SAN!!!!
TANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!!!!! <3 i simpliy lurve him the BEST OF THE BEST!!! **hugs and kisses** congrates and you rox the durm forever!!! XD

2006-07-30T19:05:00.000+08:00

XD okok.. here i am again.. getting on a FAST update here.. =)
today i went to kinokuniya with my mother..
was planning to get a ARENA37℃☆ demo ne..
I WAS SOLD OUT!!! XE XE
VERY ANGRY!!!!!!! and upset.. T_T..
anyway.. i went to buy Shou's and Ruki's A4 size picture.. =)
and there is this guy in the shop.. looks rather kawaii..
XD he was like looking at Shou and giving tat..
huh-who-on-earth-is-that look.. XD XD
then me and my mother went to buy some stuff and went home.. =)

and i wanna share this too.. XD
my sis bought this story book of 1 Litre of Tear (Ichi Ritoru no Namida)
haha.. it didnt came out to be the same as the show..
on the bus i told my mother the story.. XD
and i told her that me and my sis used the WHOLE roll of toilet roll
XD mayb my sis dont use that much.. but i did.. XD
coz during that time i'm always so bored..
so while watching it again.. i always cried.. XD
so cant blame me.. XP

ok.. i think i will end here.. XD XD
i still have my DnT to finish.. XD (for people who dunno wad's dnt.. it's Design and Technology)
XD ja~ matta ne!! <3

2006-07-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

haix.. today mood swing is SUPERLY big.. when i first reached school.. i was already too tired to talk.. somemore people are even asking me things.. i hate it lor.. and i was pretty pissed off by then.. some more.. some of them was because of wad happend yesterday...

then assembly.. a crow flew passed.. and made a "gwa" sound.. so loud tat every heard it and laughed.. XD XD XD

Dnt was boring.. luckily mr kuah didnt scold me.. haha! i'm nervous when i see him.. and shock when i gave him the work.. XD XD.. i helped choaik to do his dnt.. and mr kuah prasied me for my effort put in.. XP... chinese was another suxy one.. ms cheng made us do so many things.. T_T.. her expectation for me is getting higher and higher.. T_T.. kowai desu.. i'm scare tat i couldnt get a A for her.. and she will come balming me again.. >.< **squats in a corner and hold the head** DAME!!!!!!

and later.. me, qianhui, gordon and choaik accompany gordon to go cut hair.. this is the most painful part.. i dunno how to say.. but i didnt utter a single words on the way there.. they all thought it was Sk fault for not keeping his promise.. (i will deal with him for not giving me bday present.. **take knife**) but it was not.. anyway.. we went to this salon.. he sat on the chair and we went other places in the shop to sit.. and me and qianhui were looking at mag.. =) i found some one looks like Ueda and Tackey.. but qianhui say tat person who looks like Tackey is ugly.. hurts me so much.. T^T... anyway when the hairdesser went away for a while gordon just woke up from his sleep, and i was the one who happen to saw it.. he turned and smiled at me.. you tell me.. HOW COULD I POSSIBLE TO HATE HIM?? T_T... anyway.. we walk out ot the salon.. he opened the door for me.. grateful yet very upset...

later we all went to qianhui house.. we played and cooked maggie to eat.. =) i cooked for everyone's except qianhui's haha.. she insisted to cook it herself.. =) so i cooked mine and i washed by the dishes for them.. then qianhui brought lilo up.. and no one seems to playing with her... then i was tried.. i admit.. i was.. my back HURTS a lot.. no place to lie down.. so i lied on gordon's legs.. (his leg support my back) VERY UNCOMFORTABLE i should say.. later he went to another side to play with lilo.. i slept on the floor.. =_=... then we went home and choaik bus came first.. then his bus came later.. he was about to go then he looked at me and asked " you alone can right?" of coz i didnt answer.. what if my answer is yes and you expected a no? i didnt answer him.. but he shouted back at me which really hurts me a lot.. coz he said "I wait for your bus! wait for your bus then go!" and tat tone was like so unwilling.. superly unlike ben.. i kept thinking if you are not happy why dont you leave me there alone? isnt tat better? but he didnt.. he continue to play his handphone.. the game tat qianhui played just now.. i couldnt hide it.. i was very jealous.. very.. i dun think i wanna talk to him anymore.. and until his bus came i pulled his shirt and asked him to leave.. coz my bus came.. and i left and really feel like crying.. coz the way he treats me hurts me REALLY a lot.. forget it...

anywa.. today Charitine and Guanping brighten my day a lot.. =)) <3 love them for lifes!!! XD
and i will miss a lot of people when i'm going for my N lvl.. =)
Chairtine, Linny, Melkarie, Kuroniji.. and of coz more of them at Batsu and Occult Proposal.. =) ja matta ne!! wasure naide!!! <3

2006-07-27T20:06:00.000+08:00

haix.. today i totally didnt really talk to gordon.. he was way too tired for accompany to walk for 2 days home.. (not really but almost reached my home) demo ne.. and today.. i totally dunno what he was think about.. i dun even dare to think.. he wasnt talking to me.. neither do i know wad to say.. i dunno why.. but it's breaking my heart to see you acting like this.. you are even tired of me being by your side.. itai mo...

it hurst me so much juz to see you go.. i juz wish you could be by my side when jj is there.. i dun wish to see him.. i dun wish to think of him.. let me juz follow where you were go until i'm able to stand up on my own again.. dun leave me.. it hurts me so juz to see you go...

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枫 - 周杰伦

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就
像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想
唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

Han Yu
Jay Chou - Feng
wu yun zai wo men xin li ge xia yi kuai yin ying
wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing
qing xi tou ming
jiu xiang mei li de feng jing
zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing

bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
guo wang wen rou yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
wo dian ran zhu huo wen nuan sui mo de qiu tian
ji guang lüe duo tian bian
bei feng lüe guo xiang ni de rong yan
wo ba ai shao cheng le luo ye
que huan bu hui shu xi de na zhang lian

huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
wei he wan hui yao gan zai dong tian lai zhi qian
ai ni chuan yue shi jian
liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei
rang ai shen tou le di mian
wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian

bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
guo wang wen rou yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

zai shan yao jian piao yi de hong yu
sui zhe bei feng diao ling
wo qing qing yao ye feng ling
xiang
huan xing bei yi qi de ai qing
xue hua yi pu man le di
shen pa chuang wai feng ye yi jie cheng bing

Translation
Jay Chou - Maple
The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts
I listen respectfully to my mood, which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It’s always only clear when seeing it in my memory

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The northern lights plunder the edge of the sky
The northern wind brushes past the expressions of missing you
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can’t get back that familiar face

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before winter comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away

The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimes
I want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

2006-07-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

XD ok.. today.. i had my chemistry remedia.. was rather lonely.. i should have study harder.. shit.. XP.. anyway.. i was rather consentrating REAL hard during the chem lesson.. XD.. i'm lagging so behind.. so later after tat.. me and martin went to find qianhui.. and gordon was there too!! ^^ was rather happy and yet confues... X3.. i dunno what i should do.. (i will expain later) anyway.. we went to buy some drinks and gordon treat me and qianhui ice cream.. =) and we were waiting for qianhui to blutooth some songs.. i saw jj.. and i was like.. HUR~~~ i wanna see where he goes.. XE then by the time qianhui sent finished i dunno where he has gone.. argh.. then later me and gordon went to qianhui house.. =)

so went we reached.. qianhui said she wanna go toilet.. so me and gordon stood in her room and watch through the windows.. XD.. and becoz her window has the window grill.. so i was trying to ask him for the handphone but our hand wasnt able to reach.. so i went my hand through his and took the handphone from his hand and tangled our arms together.. X3.. (okok... i know i'm being aggressive but it's.. juz.. erm.. >////<) anyway.. we stood there until qianhui came back.. and she joined us.. XD.. she later suggested tat we play cards.. so the three of us play play play until qianting came in and told us that Lulu (qianting's friend's dog) is gone.. and i think her friend came her house.. and qianhui told me she cried.. T.T... gomen ne Lulu.. sorry to scared you last time.. GOMEN NE!!! T^T... and so.. went i was in the room with him.. auntie came in and said something i forgot.. and i told her that "auntie you see my new boyfriend!" and i cuddled his arm and put my head on his shoulder!! >v<>////< ok.. so later he waited for my bus to come and he went to the opposite to talk another bus to interchange and home.. =)

today during the change of periods.. many people wanna go refill water.. so me and xiaoyin actually wanna go.. but mr teo is next class and we dun dare to walk by there.. so we had no choice but to go 3rd level.. X3.. the water cooler is near 4/3.. which is jj class.. so when i was refilling.. marcus threw something out.. =_= and it hit me.. i was like.. wth.. and i pick up and thre back to him.. XD.. then coz marcus was sitting the nearest to the door.. XD... so aiya they play thiers we refill ours.. but jj was like looking lor.. X3... and today fire drill also.. XD he looked up to the 4th floor.. hahaha.. ok..

then today!! mrs kuek showed me the SUPERBAND INTERVIEW!!! XD XD XD it was on TODAY!! so happy.. i juz found it.. it was 24th of july de.. =) i tore it down.. but stupid sia.. coz me, yu, qianhui and alicia are the four most crazy over superband de lor.. and hor when qianhui wanna make fun of alica's mi lu bing by trying to tear off mi lu bing.. alicia was sooooooo anxious by crushing the newspaper.. and mrs kuek was upset.. =( i shouldnt have call her come lor.. haix... wad a waste... T_T....

ok.. i shall stop here... ja matta ne!!! <3

2006-07-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

okok.. starting with my blogging now.. XD.. today.. WE HAD OUR CLASS PHOTOTAKING SECTION!!!! XD XD XD I SAT DOWN AGAIN!!! =_=... somemore in the middle behind xiujuan infron of mr lee.. =_=... diaox... so stupid lor... wad the hell.. =_=.. anyway.. we had fun shoot.. 2 i guess.. 1 with qiuyu.. making the yamapi de kon kon and 2nd one i was with lijun.. hugging xiujuan(sort of hugging) and making sunny!!! XD XD then we went back to class.. XP.. and today was a lucky lucky day for me..!! ^^ must thanks Lucify de Shinya's blessing bday!! XD anyway.. OMEDETOU.. =) wow!! Shinya growing big le!! wish you the best of ALL luck in the final!! **good luck hugs**

anyway.. i went to qianhui house after the DnT.. I DIDNT GET TO PAINT HER ROOM!!! NOT FAIR!!!.. demo ne.. when i reached tat time.. wad was the MOST funnest one was.. when i reach tat time.. i OPENED the door.. and the first thing i saw was LILO!!! tat's not the important one.. but then later i saw jianbin sleeping on the floor.. i was like.. HUH?? wth.. LOL.. then qianhui opened door for me.. and she told me tat martin, jianbin and kengyong scare of dog.. and I CANT BELIEVE IT LOR.. jianbin scare of dogs still can sleep down there.. POWER... XD so.. i played with lilo for a while and they decided to go.. (stupid lor.. i go awhile only.. XP) but later i beg gordon to stay.. and he stayed for a while coz jianbin haven wake up yet.. then later lilo keep bitting my left hand and it's full of siliva.. =_=.. so i make gordon by holding him with tat left hand and he was like EEEeee.. and took it off me.. XD.. then everyone decided to go.. we called jianbin wake up.. and he keep on saying.. 5 mins.. 10.. 15.. XD XD then i blew his face a few times.. until he is awake.. XD XD XD.. so later we played for a while.. we scared martin (with lilo) by ask lilo to go to him.. he was soo scare tat he hide behind the BIG door and the metal door.. then later it was kengyong.. he was like wa here wa there.. XD XD XD then jianbin was the worst.. XD he was like.. "I not scare lor" and when qianhui ask lilo to go to jianbin, he was hiding behind me.. =_=... then behind jiao and turning me and jiao in circles.. XD XD XD so cute.. then we dun let jianbin go off.. and when we went off tat time.. kengyong say this is the last time he going to go to qianhui house le.. XD..

later me, gordon and martin when to accompany martin to cut hair.. we walk and walk.. then it was like soo hot.. and i ask gordon to help me take my folio.. i was cmplaining about the hotness.. and gordon took my folio and provide me shade.. ^^ then went we reached there.. martin went to cut hair.. and both of us went to see the comic shop near by.. i remembered tat was the comic tat me, jz, jj, kenny, shawn and adurey went.. XD... yup yup.. and jj was like.. hur~~ looking at me watching those anime models.. and waiting for me.. XD.. gomen ne.. **back to story..** ok so later.. i ask gordon accompany me walk.. coz i'm walking home since i reach there le.. we walk and talk and walk and talk.. well i should say the FIRST time we talked so much.. XD... i was like floating away le.. XP.. then we were like so far from the salon le.. =.=.. so i ask gordon if he wanna go back a not he say he dun wan and he smsed martin to tell him to wait at iterchange.. but martin say nvm.. he can go home himself.. so we were half walking and talking again.. =) until he reached a bus stop and we walked our own.. XD **melts**

ok.. write until here.. XP.. tired.. logging off.. ja matta ne!! ^^ oyasumi nasai!! <3

2006-07-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

ano neh.. watching superband now.. XD.. aww.. Lucify was the first.. T^T awww.. i did cried when i saw tat Kel cried too.. they had their revial round.. =) awwww.. really wanna say KEL DUN CRY!!! T^T... anyway.. they had this jamming section.. and i think they played jap song ba.. i cant figure out wad iszzit.. larku or something i forgot.. DEMO!!! they had Dir en grey POSTER!!!!!!! XE XE XE i wanna buy TOO!!!!!! anyway.. they also got the jun shoxx.. tat really makes me very very angry!!! XE coz i wan them too!!!! XD XD XD (my shoxx!! SHOXX!!!) argh.. still can get over the POSTER.. when i saw Shinya and Toshiya.. **squeak!!!!*** XD XD gome.. XP.. ok continue.. then they went one talking about who's appitite(sp) is the largest.. everyone said Vics except Misaki.. (he worte Kel.. XD) then the host ask Shinya why and he say he can eat non stop!! XD XD and he can quarrell with ppl over food!! O_o XD.. also.. they ask who likes to see girls.. XD everyone said Misaki and Misaki even dragged Kuek in.. XD.. and they ask Kel's favoutive vocalist.. tat's Kyo!! XD from Dir en grey!! XD XD v^^

ok.. so today i had my photo shoot.. XP.. i always hate sitting infront.. XD.. i hate to close my legs together.. they will tends to shake.. XD.. ok.. then wad was the MOST suai one was.. me, xiaoyin, nuan and xiujuan we went up the stairs.. ok the first i saw was Mr Lee.. XP.. then i saw jj.. =_=.. i was like.. HOLY SHIT... XP.. then walk.. also walk with them to the AVA.. then open door.. also open for them.. =_=.. go down to canteen also go down with them.. wtf.. suai ga ai si ar.. XP.. anyway.. tat's my day.. for photo taking..

then in class.. oh ya.. i broke that stupid curse of mine.. i TALKED TO MELVIN... HOW COULD I!!?? i'm suppose to be angry with him for not returning the guitar.. ok.. he sat behind me for the whole day.. XP.. i feel no privacy.. coz if qianhui is behind me.. she will tends to sleep.. and ignore wad i am doing.. XD..

then talking more worst.. my mother keep on stressing me with the bag tat my bro gave me.. wtf.. i say i dun like means i dun like la!! freako.. i can go buy 1 myself ok.. i dun need tat stupid money of his.. fuck.. idiot.. i hate ppl to force me to bring the things i hate or i dun like HOW ON EARTH do i know he is giving me tat bag.. freak lor.. i hate it.. anyway my parents are bias.. they like my bro and sis cox they got better grades then me.. freak.. i hate tis lor.. go away if you dun like me.. i dun need you too!!!

ok.. enough of words.. i wanna go now.. ja matta ne!

2006-07-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

today was a crazy day.. haha.. let's tok about happy thing first.. =) today we didnt have walk.. but we had chinese remedia.. after that.. me, qian, alicia, lloyd, gordon, choaik, zhengzhong and timothy.. we went to the 85 to play deck.. and later lloyd and alicia went home and jiao came.. we played for a while and zhengzhong fought using gordon's deck with qianhui.. XD.. but to qianhui is tat.. no matter you win or lose.. you still have to go to the saucer with her.. XD.. so in the end everyone did.. but timothy when home.. XD.. and left the 6 of us.. we went to the saucer there and we spin and spin and spin... XD.. later we were all tired already.. so gordon jiao and choaik stayed at one side.. but me, zhengzhong and qianhui.. we still lay on the saucer to look at the sky.. XD.. then later after all the spinning and screaming.. =_=... we all went qianhui house.. juz for a shelter for rain.. and we saw tat bitch.. XP...

when we reached her house... everyone was like playing with her luohan.. XD so later we went into her room.. (actually we went to the shop and save and bought tibbits home) then we all opened the tibbits and played daidi.. but i didnt play.. coz not so interested.. XD but later we played stressed.. ^^ and we all were like screaming all away.. XD XD XD XD there's a queen there and everyone were like playing shouting until auntie come in and tell us tat qianting is still having her tuition.. XP... so later we went home.. he ps us again.. XP.. i dunno weather to like or to hate... forget it...

so.. my bro finally fixed the com!! XD XD yup yup yup.. now we have 2 coms.. using wireless one lar.. soon we will have 3.. XD.. and this oldly com will be erm.. mostly mine? XD i dunno let's wait and see then.. it will be hard to connect the third wireless when the new lappy is home.. ^^'' ja.. matta ne~~

2006-07-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

wa~~ today it's quite a pleasent day.. =) badmition was fun.. XD but xiujuan accidently hit my eye.. **ITAI DESU!!!** but thanks to gordon who ask me if i'm ok.. =) daijoubu desu!! ^^ anyway.. lesson continues.. XD.. i have do my compo.. doing later.. XD okok.. cont.. then later after sch.. me jiao and cho aik actually wanna play deck de.. XD but later jy call us to the mac.. (HE SNATCH GORDON WITH ME!!! XE) anyway.. we went there.. and sat there for a LONG time.. and we met chengxuan's gf!!! XD.. we ate first.. then when jy left.. we played cards.. XD.. then qianhui came and find us.. i guess she is VERY scare of her oral.. XD.. then.. we went to the scauser(sp?) to play.. XD.. then we saw cy they all.. angry with him.. VERY!! XE... anyway.. we played the scauser for a while.. then we left le.. send qianhui home.. and gordon went home again... then left jiao and me.. jiao was nice.. he waited for my bus to come then go home.. thanks jiao!! ^^

ah.. then i should say.. I SAW BENJAMINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T.. demo nande he somke?? not i dun like la.. but.. haix.. AND AND AND!!! qianhui say she saw him with other girl.. **PING PING PANG PANG** my heart break liao.. T_T.. he is also another guy i like quite much.. but is later i dun really see him that often le then forgot him.. if not i will SQUEAK my way through.. XD.. why didnt he join superband!!?? XD XD XD.. anyway.. i have a small small secret to share.. but i dunno if it's me or my heart.. XD.. people juz thinking that i have been with him too often le.. well i still dunno i like him a not.. but i always jealous when he plays so "friendly" with xy.. well.. sometimes i juz wan him to stay by my side.. and sometimes i juz feels scare if losing him if i'm too close to him.. he is more of tat caring type.. but he is like aoi.. (infact they shares the same bday.. T-T) he is like wan care dun wan care.. but if he wans to care.. he will not do half way things.. well.. this is not the first time i like him already la.. XP.. sec 2 also got once.. but it's because of chunyang and junjie then like tat de.. T-T anyway.. all of it.. the person i have been talking for so long.. is none other then.. .. ..... ..... him... [gordon]

2006-07-19T20:01:00.000+08:00

ano neh.. i think i hasnt been updating for SUPER LONG le.. ok. i dunno excatly how many days.. but the last i upload was on the hokkaido fair.. XD.. anyway.. sum up all my pass 3 days...

firstly.. monday.. gordon choaik lloyd and jiao gave me bday present.. chuu to everyone who bought me the keychain and the beannie.. XD
then superband was great.. brods were out.. **hugs** i will remember them forever.. lucify were in.. XD
alicia qianhui me and yu 's favourite all were in... demo ne.. lucy are getting more and more fans.. haix.. so a little jealous here and there.. but i still have my shin..
linny and i talked for a whole day ytd.. se tried to comfort me talking about AOI again.. tat was sad nor... HAHAHA
Charitine watched the priates already!!! >.< i wan go watch too..
cho aik helped me scan in the gaze and my dearly shin too!! chuuu~~~~ i love my shin.. even if i'm at the last stage.. i dun mind!! XD
lucky to found out.. Aki didnt smoke.. sweet aki!! XD
i made 5 wallies of gaze.. posted at batsu already.. =)
i have forgotten junjie now a days.. =))
i'm not toking to jonathan, jy and melvin anymore... i hate them.. coz 2 of them bluffed me and 1 is a betrayer...
I'm getting to love Shin more and more everyday!! i dun like to call him Mr Shin.. it's sounds awful.. Shin will do.. =)
he is the type tat is more of getting ppl to love him rather than the type tat ppl want him to love.. XD XD XD
so i will love my Shin forever!!! **melts**

i guess that's all... ja.. matta ne!!

2006-07-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

AHHH.. today i went to the hokkiado fair.. way too many peeps.. too noisy... my head too pain.. XD.. anyway.. i went to buy FOOL'S MATE already.. XD... but Charitine said they have a better one.. come out 4 times in one yr.. XD... but i'm happy with shoxx and fool's mate.. XD.. i was trying to figure out which is tara one fool's mate.. oh well.. he added another nose piercing.. XD.. linny said tat;s bad of him.. XD.. anyway.. i will upload more once choaik done the scanning for me.. !!! JA~~ matta ne!! ^^

2006-07-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

Hirano Aya
God knows

渇いた心で駆け抜ける
ごめんね何もできなくて
痛みを分かち合うことさえ
あなたは許してくれない

無垢に生きるため振り向かず
背中向けて　去ってしまう
on the lonely rail

私ついていくよ
どんな辛い世界の闇の中でさえ
きっとあなたは輝いて
越える未来の果て
弱さ故に魂こわされぬように
my way 重なるよ
いまふたりに God bless...

届けて熱くなる想いは
現実溶かしてさまよう
会いたい気持ちに理由はない
あなたへあふれだす Lovin' you

せめて美しい夢だけを
描きながら　追いかけよう
for your lonely heart

やめて嘘はあなたらしくないよ
目を見てこれからのことを話そう
私覚悟してる
暗い未来だって
強くなって運命変えられるかもね
my wish かなえたいのに
すべては God knows...

あなたがいて　私がいて
ほかの人は消えてしまった
淡い夢の美しさを描きながら
傷跡なぞる

だから私ついていくよ
どんな辛い世界の闇の中でさえ
きっとあなたは輝いて
越える未来の果て
弱さ故に魂壊されぬように
my way 重なるよ
いまふたりに God bless...

Romaji
Kawaita, kokoro de kakenukeru
Gomen ne, nani mo dekinakute
Itami wo wakachiau koto sae
Anata wa yurushite kurenai

Muku ni ikiru tame furimukazu
Senaka nukete satte shimau
on the lonely rail

Watashi, tsuiteiku yo donna tsurai
Sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate yowasa yue ni
Tamashii kowasareru you ni
My way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...

Todokete atsukunaru omoi wa
Genjitsu tokashite samayou
Aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
Anata e afuredasu Lovin' you

Semete utsukushii yume dake wo
Egakinagara Oikakeyou
For your lonely heart

Yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo
Me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou
Watashi, kakugoshiteru
Kurai mirai datte
Tsuyoku natte unmei kaerareru kamo ne
My wish kanaetai no ni
Subete wa God knows...

Anata ga ite, watashi ga ite
Hoka no hito wa kiete shimatta
Awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara
Kizuato nazoru

Dakara! Watashi, tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasareru you ni
My way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...

Translation
I dash with a parched heart
Sorry, I couldn't do anything
You won't even let me
Share pain together with you

To live purely, I turn my back
Without looking back and leave
on the lonely rail

I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...

Thoughts that grow hot when delivered
Melt into reality and wander
There's no reason to feeling like seeing you
It overflows to you, Lovin' you

At the very least, while I only draw
A beautiful dream, I'll chase you
for your lonely heart

Stop it, telling lies isn't like you
Look at my eyes and let's talk about things from now on
I'm ready
Even in a dark future
I'll become strong and my destiny just might be changeable
Even though I want to fulfill my wish
God knows everything...

You exist, I exist
And other people disappeared
While I draw the beauty of a faint dream
I trace my scars

So I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...

2006-07-15T10:03:00.000+08:00

alrite.. i'm starting to recover from my shock.. haha.. even though it's a bit scary.. i think i had a little too shock from it.. all because of that story to name Tora as a rapist.. =_='' ANYWAY.. ytd was my bday.. dun intend to celebrate also.. yup.. indeed we didnt.. how i should say it neh? i dun wan it simply is because i dun wan to let jj knows.. i think he knew it already.. XP... XD hai.. so ytd.. no one bought neither guitar nor bass for me.. **hides in a corner and cry** but yu say she going to buy shin for me.. XD.. ok.. ytd i got a bday give from qianhui.. that's very nice of her.. she gave me a photofame.. XD.. anyway.. i went to put kagrra de photo there.. coz it's all BULE!! XD okok.. then i saw laogong.. =) she wans a kiss from me.. i guess a lot of ppl saw it.. XD XD erm.. still got really touch for qianhui and martin to sent me sms at nite.. XD mid nite i mean.. and yanling and huiwen da jie send me sms in the morning.. XD.. then gordon they all wish me too.. =) my daddy timo and mummy jasmine each gave me hits on my hand and lianne wans to tickle me.. but still FAILED.. XD haha.. then after sch.. i went to the viod deck with gordon, cho aik, timothy and jiao.. must really thanks gordon for letting me sit coz the table only got 4 sits and there is 5 of us.. XD.. **hugss** anyway.. qianhui came to find me and i went to her house.. we went to buy a lot of things.. XD.. and i had a lot of fun at her house.. i also slept there for 15 mins.. XD then went home.. ^^

i also must thanks those batsu ppl =) and chartitne for listening to me how jj treats me.. XD XD XD linny too.. i guess she has something to say to me tat's why she add me in msn.. ^^'' anyway i want to thanks linny and charitine for guilding me all this way through jrock world.. =) more like big sisters to me.. dome arigatou.. =) thanks linny for guilding me through those wallies making part.. suggest and comment.. =) and charitine be there to support me.. =) thnaks to everyone and happy birthday to me!! i grow old le.. =_=''

2006-07-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

hai.. i'm here to write again.. XP.. anyway.. i juz finsihed a yaoi story on livejournal posted by xtatoeba.. i should say.. after reading her story.. i cant take yaoi for a moment.. the lastest part was like.. erm.. killing me? anyway.. if you are under 16 or you can take boyXboy things.. DUN EVER READ IT... i think i regret for reading the latest esp on "Human Capacity".. argh.. i almost puke.. as in not the story was horrible.. that writer was good.. but it's juz the content tat is OVER RATED... Dun ever rate something as NC-17 when it suppose to be R-21.. ;_;.. now i still have a scary image of tat scene in my head.. I dun think yu will like to read.. neither do i wan to read it again.. i'm really scare now.. haix.. anyway.. tat story contains dirty things.. blood etc. and boyXboy like kissing sence like tat.. touching here and there.. anyway.. toking about miyavi.. myv was a bad guy in the story who raped shou.. i was like NANDE SHOU-KUN????? anyway.. Kagrra de Isshi appeared in a scene luckily my belove Shin didnt appear.. i dun wan him to be so stanned with dirts... XE.. i dunno how to say it.. but gomen ne for those who knows it author.. ;_;.. it was really scary.. those who wanna read.. ownself go live journal and see.. i cant stand it anymore... ;_;....

anyway.. now a days.. the bitch has been toking to me.. but i'm still the same.. i hate her.. i hate her to the core.. can anyone ask her stop toking to me?! i dun like you!! i dun like him either.. (you know who you are) you beteryed me and tok to her.. further more.. i hate tat guy to tok to melvin.. causing melvin to hanging with him.. i hate melvin too.. i dun like johnathan too.. i hate them for bluffing me.. not keeping their promise.. i dun like them.. if tml johnathan and melvin doesnt bring the guitar back.. i'm not going to tok to them anymore...

2006-07-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

ano ne.. XD.. i juz rmb something i forgot to post.. XD.. my MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE!!!!!!! XD anyway... here they are.. doushou.. XD

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ano ne.. sorry for Daisuke, Tora, Hiropon, and Uruha for no pics.. XP.. i haven done finish yet.. i will soon.. XD
anyway.. i found one song very nice.. Guang liang de.. Yue ding.. =)

光良-约定

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了
[even if fate doesnt want us tuu meet, i'll still wait fer euu forever]

and also.. a Kagrra song.. =)

在りし日の微笑

哀しみは　今もまだ　心から　消えなくて

光注ぐこの　季節になると　何故か
笑顔を　浮かべてる　あなたの声　思い出して

この麗らかな青空　見上げればあなたが
舞い降りて来そうで　立ち尽くす
華やいだあの頃　変わらない二人に
戻れそうな気がして　ふと瞳を閉じて

夕日見つめ　唯　溜め息ついた　あの日に
帰って　もう一度　あなたの声　聞きたいだけ

この麗らかな青空　見上げればあなたが
舞い降りて来そうで　立ち尽くす
華やいだあの頃　変わらない二人に
戻れそうな気がして　ふと瞳を閉じて

哀しみは　今もまだ　心から　消えなくて

遠くであの頃の　あなたが今私を呼ぶ　そんな気がして

色褪せた想い出さえ　捨てられぬまま　泣いている私が居る

この麗らかな青空　見上げればあなたが
舞い降りて来そうで　立ち尽くす
華やいだあの頃　変わらない二人に
戻れそうな気がして　ふと瞳を閉じて

Romaji
arishi hi no bishou

kanashimi wa, ima mo mada, kokoro kara, kienakute

hikari sosogu kono, kisetsu ni naru to, naze ka
egao o, ukabeteru, anata no koe, omoidashite

kono urarakana aozora, miagereba anata ga
mai orite kisou de, tachi tsukusu
hanayaida ano koro, kawaranai futari ni
modoresou na ki ga shite, futo me o tojite

yuuhi mitsume, tada, tameiki tsuita, ano hi ni
kaette, mou ichido, anata no koe, kikitai dake

kono urarakana aozora, miagereba anata ga
mai orite kisou de, tachi tsukusu
hanayaida ano koro, kawaranai futari ni
modoresou na ki ga shite, futo me o tojite

kanashimi wa, ima mo mada, kokoro kara, kienakute

tooku de ano koro no, anata ga ima watashi o yobu, sonna ki ga shite

iroaseta omoide sae, suterarenu mama, naiteiru watashi ga iru

kono urarakana aozora, miagereba anata ga
mai orite kisou de, tachi tsukusu
hanayaida ano koro, kawaranai futari ni
modoresou na ki ga shite, futo me o tojite

Translation
The wounds from my distant past

The sadness, even now, from my heart, will not disappear

Light pours in, and becomes the season, somehow
Smiling, I remember your voice

This beautiful blue sky, you looked up at it
As if it would swoop down upon you, you stood still
That time was so brilliant, the two of us unchanging
I feel as if I could go back, if I just close my eyes

Gazing at the evening sun, simply, sighing, on that day
If I returned, once again, I would just want to hear your voice

This beautiful blue sky, you looked up at it
As if it would swoop down upon you, you stood still
That time was so brilliant, the two of us unchanging
I feel as if I could go back, if I just close my eyes

The sadness, even now, from my heart, will not disappear

From that time far away, you are calling me, that's how I feel

If only these fading memories, could never be tossed aside, I'm still here crying

This beautiful blue sky, you looked up at it
As if it would swoop down upon you, you stood still
That time was so brilliant, the two of us unchanging
I feel as if I could go back, if I just close my eyes
[i'm still not changed..]

translation and lyrics from [irohanihoheto]

2006-07-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

argh.. ok.. let's see.. i shall upload wad i saved ytd on my com.. XD... KAGRRA NO SU 28 is OUT!! XD XD XD ok.. here's the pics!!!! ^^

ok.. they are having a festival of 7th July.. i dunno wad tat is.. but it's something about writing wish one.. and so.. this' Izumi or Isshi... XD

Nao.. hahaha...

Shin-to.. awww.. i wonder wad he wish for? if i were there.. i would wish for him.. =)

that's Izumi.. oh.. to the first one is Isshi.. XD

that's Aki.. ^^ i love his ring a lot.. where did he bought it?!!!

so their wishes.. almost is like wish for Kagrra de.. =)

shin's one.. hmm i think he wrote he wan peace.. =)

the whole thing.. i was touched by it.. kagrra is growing everyday!! T_T i cant believe i'm watching them growing up.. T_T...

and the phototaking i should say.. it's Spring already!! sakura..

my dear ladies and my hubby!! XD XD

tat's Aki and Shin.. can you see the differnt of their height? imagine i stand with Shin.. O_O

i love Izumi this hairstyle.. he look soooo femine!! ^^

Shin.. he found something he like!! XD

that's a dog Isshi found on the street..

doggy again.. i took tis coz shin is behind.. XD

Shin is playing alone with the slides at the playground...

there he goes... down.. XD XD XD

that's Aki and Nao.. they playing the swing..

but Aki too tall.. XD.. he need to bend down a little!! XD

anywa.. tat's all about ytd i should say... today mar.. still ok la.. hmm maths shuang.. 4 periods without teacher.. XD XD no relief teacher lor!! SHUANG NE!!!! XD.. then chinese also nth.. then recess when to tok to ah bu.. XD.. ok.. then back to class.. from phy onwards was a nice one.. XD XD anyway.. mr lim played with us a game.. we were seperated into 3 groups.. then he idiot lor.. last question ask me go do.. then i heard they all ask me write faster.. then my head also very pain.. XD alicia wanna beat me some more coz she say she forgot.. IDIOT... XD.. nvm la.. but later i write finish.. i look at it.. the units.. it's m/s.. then they ask me write a square there.. then i was like huh? dunno wad they mean.. then i went back to the whiteboard.. mr lim said correct liao la.. anyway cannot write le.. XD.. then i took the marker tat time.. my WHOLE row shouted to me.. DUN WRITE!!! NO!!! DUN ADD!!! then i turned to them then i can see tat my whole row was doing the same actions!! XD XD i was like laughing like hell lor... XD.. then later chem worst... i fall aslp in class.. i think the test i got a lot dunno how to do.. XP... then later went to playground.. then to qianhui house... i saw lulu.. =) he is so cute.. demo y he?? XD... then i went to see kengyong they all play soccer for a while then go home le.. anyway... i juz wanna say... me now a days mood not very rite.. i will tends to have mood swing.. so forgive me or pardon me.. i'm really very stress... haha.. i even scolded my mother ytd.. still feel quite bad lar... haix.. gome ne okaasan.. hondou ni gomen ne.. T_T... haix.. N lvl is sooooo stress.. hiak.. i'm going to fall apart soon.. ;_;

2006-07-09T19:25:00.000+08:00

wa haha.. friday that time.. my sis gave me my early bday present.. coz she juz got her pay!! XD XD i rmb once i watched that [tian.. shi wo ai ni] that drama.. then i saw sly.. he spoiled his guitar.. and his sis bought him back for him.. my sis was beside me that time and i told her.. "wa.. jie.. i also wan.." XD.. in the end.. she didnt buy one guitar for me.. ( **disapointed** Ｏ厂l＿ ) but instead she bought a tuner for me... XD.. though not exactly wad i wanted.. but i still wanna thanks her for buying it for me.. and the guitar string mo.. ^^ all together it's almost $30+ going to $40 le.. ^^ arigatou!!

and.. ytd i when out with my mother and sis.. i could say it was an unpleasent outing.. i dun like to go out with my mother when my sis is there.. my mother will care more abt my sis then me.. then whenever my sis says me.. my mother always backup for her.. haix.. forget it.. and somemore ytd i saw a bio teacher with her kids at MaC.. and that time.. i was ordering food.. i didnt mean to mix up the order lor.. it's like i saw a couple quing up to.. and it's like both of them are mute.. so they were like trying so hard to tell the person wad they wan.. and i was sort of distracted by them and i forgot the things i wanna order.. FREAK... anyway.. i didnt bought any of my things... that's the worst... i wouldnt go out with my mother anymore.. haix... that was a worst outing...

anyway.. i download Kagrra no Su 17.. that was a lame one.. XD they were asked to draw something.. the first is giffrafe(sp?) Shin... i dunno wth he is drawing la.. XD.. demo.. Akiya's drawing is ok lar.. nicest among all.. XD.. and when i saw Shin drawing.. he's like sooo cute.. ^^ juz like a chlid drawing!! XD he gave me that feel that i wanna hug him rite away!! STRAIGHT AWAY!!! ^^ Shin motto motto kawaii!! ^^

and edit.. XD i saw this pic at kuek's dp.. freaks me out a lot.. XD

hmm i think yaoi.. my jrockers are better.. i dun like singaporeans be like that.. i will tend to call them gay.. i dunno why.. XP actually i wanna tell yu.. but i was tooo tired waiting for her and i went to slp.. XD in the end she came and tell me.. XP but... that was a real kiss isnt it? XD

2006-07-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. last nite too many ppl are using.. XD so i retype wad i wanna say..!!!!!! ^^ Gazette's Standing Live tour 2006「Nameless Liberty.Six Guns...」TOUR FINAL LIVE DVD is FINALLY OUT!!!!! but i'm SERIOUSLY out of money.. this week.. i only spen $1 for 4 days.. tat's why i wanted to go home everytime if i got no where to go.. *P.S. I'm going to drag my mother to orchard tis Sunday NO MATTER WAD!!!! XD XD XD* anyway.. tat stupid DVD got 2 different type.. XD the normal one is this.. http://global.yesasia.com/en/PrdDept.aspx/code-j/section-videos/pid-1004352686/
the First press limited edition one is this
http://global.yesasia.com/en/PrdDept.aspx/code-j/section-videos/pid-1004308957/
anyone interested to buy for me? XD XD yeah!! tml is boon boon bday.. XD wish him happy bday!! XD didnt see him in sch today.. but sure dreamt of him last nite.. hmm.. he only appeared in my dream walking here and there tat's all XD XD XD XD... ok.. today had a GREAT headache.. haix.. i dun like a guy lar.. (i think yu knows who iszzit..) and juz now when chinese was over.. me, siying and noko were left in class.. then audrey came in.. noko promised to wait for me de lor.. in the end he idiot... i'm not here saying ppl bad things.. i'm serious here.. anyway.. he came into our class.. and ask noko to leave.. noko said he got something else to do.. and instead of leaving, he stayed and tok to us.. i was like wa rao.. didnt noko said dunneed wait for him? he is juz trying to force noko to leave with him lor.. haix.. anyway.. he and tat bitch is getting closer and closer.. dun blame me for not toking to you.. coz i know you know why i dun wan tok to you.. as for yu case.. i know she is trying to hide from that bitch.. so it's ok for me.. but you know that i hate her so much.. and you still wanna be friend with her when you yourself hate her so much in the past.. then well go ahead! you are no one to me ok.. if you think that my words are too strong then forget it.. this is MY BLOG tis is how I FEEL.. so you have NO RIGHT to complain me.. so freak off..

and.. today i toked to ah bu.. =) and lianne too.. at first i didnt went in the class.. coz jj sort of "best friend" and marcus were inside.. i wanna tok to ah bu coz i'm having a break earlier then them.. =) haha.. and lianne wrote on my hand when i was drawing.. "I *heart* yellow".. XD

hai!! lolx.. lianne's artwork.. ^^ i dun think i will earse it.. XD unless i went for a bath.. XD XD ok.. i shall end here.. ^^ tis is wad friends are for.. friends are there to bring you smile.. =)

2006-07-05T17:13:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY ORAL!!! IT'S SOOOOOOOO EMBARRASSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **faint..** at frist i wasnt scare when i went in.. but later i got flam in my throat LOR!!!!!!!!! I WAS LIKE OMG!!!!.. and i said sorry to the examiners and cont and i cannot speak properly already.. FREAK!!!!!!!!!!! T^T... anyway.. the picture one i was ok.. and conversation i should say i did VERY well.. =) at least i made the examiners laughed.. XD XD XD demo... the worst part came.. when i leave tat time.. i was a little nervous.. like.. I'm getting out of here already!!!! and i accidently kicked the TABLE!!!!!!!!! >/////////< DOUSHITE?!!!!!!!!! and i was like saying sorry and sorry to them.. HAIK!!!!!!!!!!!! and when i came out tat time i the whole person become soften and sat outside the labby.. LOL.. and i told the time keeper (actually one of the teacher..) tat i accidently kicked the table.. and i was like softened on the floor.. and i told her let me take a rest b4 i go.. I CAN FEEL TAT MY WHOLE FACE TURNED RED LOR!!! BURNING LIKE HELL!!!!! xS and EVEN i cross the string (a string tie not to let students enter..) i nearly fall down the stairs.. XD.. scary... tat was soooooo embarrassing lor.. sorry if you dunno wad on earth i'm toking.. i'm juz not back to sense yet.. XD

and today in sch.. hmm nth much la.. XD.. i'm toking abt tat superband thingy again.. my sprit is still at saturday.. it still dun wanna come back.. XD XD XD and i think jj heard tat i when superband too.. XD coz i was toking so loud to ling hui and squeking away.. i didnt notcie him infront until he turned around.. XD XD demo.. i really say tat this stupid hp cannot upload video lor.. HAIX... nvm... i watch it before i slp also can.. XD XD and hor.. after recess.. i saw sk when up the stairs and i was calling him.. hmm i dunno how to say it but siying seems to hate him a lot.. XD.. i dunno.. but i have no reason to hate him ba? moreover he still owe me a b'day present.. XD XD XD hey!! at least i gave him ok.. hmm reminds me of the note... XD.. i really really didnt know he still keeps it lor.. really touch.. XD.. and during e maths lesson, mr lee is bullying nuan again.. XD.. then later chem.. hmm.. stupid arif la.. XD he hide noko de bag and he still dunno.. but still happy tat noko still wan me this type of unreasonable master.. =) gomen ne.. hondou ni gomen ne... and hor.. tat stupid sunny call my surename again.. i turned around and scolded him shut up la.. i guess tat was loud ba? XD.. anyway.. GROW UP LA... how old liao still wanna make fun of ppl.. retribution come then you all knows.. dun be so childish to call ppl names la.. their names got meaning de ok?! play with father name for wad? you think it's funny? i dun think so.. later.. we went up to the oral place.. XD... then we were helping each other to massage.. but i dun wan.. XD.. i dun like ppl to touch my neck area.. SUPER SENSITIVE!!!!! XD... i will be very angry... then one giantic sound will be heard.. XD XD XD not so serious la.. i will shout nia.. XP.. and martin lie on the beach and i help him massage.. XD is guang ming zhen da de normal massage ok!! yup.. i guess the second part is up there.. XD lazy to bring it down.. XP.. anyway.. i'm still very gong.. XP

anyway.. today is Shou bday!!! 二十四歳の誕生日おめでと＼（^▽^）／！！！！！！ CHU~~~<3<3<3 wish him forever happy!! sweet and pretty!! lurve him forever!!!

2006-07-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

AHHH!! i cant believe it!! XE XE i heard rumors again.. thing time is Aoi's TT_TT... I dunno how should i put it.. well Batsu ppl said.. Aoi was once married.. had a SON.. then divorced... Aoi!! how could you!!! anyway.. i'm not feeling sad for myself(a bit.. i could hear heart shattering).. but the son.. well i'm proud of him.. ^^ Great Guitarist Aoi's Son!! ^^ de~~mo.. wont Aoi miss his son? moreover, it's his SON!! a son that carries his BLOOD!!! TT_TT i dunno how should i say it.. but i'm crying now.. dunno for who.. Aoi? son? wife? me?... i dunno....

anyway.. i cried a lot since ytd.. i watched a show call guardian angel or something.. it was soooo sad.. well not as sad as 1 litre of tear... tat one i cried more until siao... i really feel like crying now a days.. hmm i feel tat i already lost someone totally.. well i once promised i wont let history repeat... but in the end.. it was me tat couldnt keep it as a promise.. i made that promise and i was the one who break it.. but i was really tired already... am i in a wrong too? haix.. life is juz so unfair.. why letting the same horoscope to get together and when it was the time for them to leave they be came a distaser?!! i hate myself for letting this happen... forget it.....

2006-07-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

「愁」－ Kagrra

嗚呼･･･
風に抱かれて
愛は彼方へと吹く
ふいに仰いだ昊は
眩しすぎて

静かに漂えば
懐かしさ
この心揺らめきます

天に星地には華
私には貴女がいて

抱き寄せて接吻けて
微笑み交わして

嗚呼･･･
風に抱かれて
愛は彼方へと吹く
ふいに仰いだ昊に
包まれて流され

そっと髪を靡かせて
背を向けた貴女からは
あの日々の香りがして
泪頬を伝う

風に抱かれて
愛は彼方へと吹く
ふいに仰いだ昊は
眩しすぎて

もっと傍に居られたなら
もっと早く気付いたなら

指を　絡め
離さないまま
永遠に生きて

風に抱かれ
愛は消えて行く

光る風に抱かれて
愛は彼方へと吹く
ふいに仰いだ昊は
淡色に染められて

夢の吹く頃
薫る華が散る頃
瞳綴じれば今も
貴女が居て

Romaji
Urei － Kagrra

aa... kaze ni dakarete
ai ha kanata he to fuku
fui ni aoida sora ha mabushisugite

shizuka ni tadayoeba
natsukashisa kono kokoro yuramekimasu

ten ni hoshi chi ni ha hana
watashi ni ha anata ga ite
dakiyosete kuchizukete
hohoemi kawashite

aa... kaze ni dakarete
ai ha kanata he to fuku
fui ni aoida sora ni tsutsumarete nagasare

sotto kami wo nabikasete
se wo muketa anata kara ha
ano hibi no kaori ga shite
namida hoho wo tsutau

kaze ni dakarete
ai ha kanata he to fuku
fui ni aoida sora ha mabushisugite

motto soba ni irareta nara
motto hayaku kizuita nara
yubi wo karame hanasanai mama towa ni ikite

kaze ni dakare ai ha kieteyuku
hikaru kaze ni dakarete ai ha kanata he to fuku
fui ni aoida sora ha awairo ni somerarete

yume no fuku koro kaoru hana ga chiru koro
hitomi tojireba ima mo
anata ga ite

Translation
Sorrow － Kagrra

Ah embraced by the wind
love blows into the distance
the sky I took a glance to was too bright

when it drifts slowly,
the nostalgia disturbs my heart

stars for the heavens, flowers for the earth
and for me, you were
pulling you close, for a kiss
we smiled at each other

ah... embraced by the wind
love blows into the distance
the sky I glanced up towards,
closes in, and washes away

I smelled the scent of those days
on you who turned your back on me
gently letting out your hair.
the tears streak down my cheeks.

Ah embraced by the wind
love blows into the distance
the sky I took a glance to was too bright

if I could have been with you longer
if only I had noticed sooner
locking our fingers together,
never to be pulled apart, to live forever

embraced in the wind, love is fading away
embraced in the dazzling wind,
love blows into the distance
the sky I glanced up at is dyed in a pale color

the time when dreams blew
when sweet smelling flowers scattered
when I close my eyes,
even now, there you are.

translation from centigrade-j

2006-07-02T14:19:00.000+08:00

here are some of the superband photos yu took.. XD WA!!!! YU!!!! love you so much!! ^^ ^^ ^^ credits ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL TO YU!!!!! <3<3<3

here is shinya, kel and misaki.. ^^

kel and misaki.. so many heads.. horri-g-ble...

here is vics!! XD XD XD ^^ ^^

omg.. my greeny guy... he stop RITE in front of yu and she juz SNAP it.. XD

shinya!!! ^^

and vics again.. =)

i actually took a video.. aiya.. haha.. but cannot be send leh.. stupid phone.. GEEZ.... anyway.. i hope monday can infrate to gordon hp.. then blutooth to yu.. XD XD thank yu!!! love you soooooo much!! ^^ ^^ ^^

2006-07-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

HAI!!!! LOL!!!! today i went to bugis to see the superband.. me and yu went there late.. coz i went to her house late.. i took the cap of hers.. XD.. i dun wan ppl to regconise me there.. and when we reached there.. we saw J3.. and yu's cappy guy.. XD XD... then at frist we stood together de lor.. the stupid sercurity guard.. PUSHED me away from her... freak him la.. then the J3 the Alex.. when he came down.. he waved at me.. so i smiled at him nor.. ^^ ^^ ^^ and then lucify is up!!! XD XD me and yu so excited.. but i didnt saw them go on stage.. then when they are one stage.. the STUPID speaker blocked someone.. i was thinking.. iszzit kuek or kel.. coz i saw vics.. saw misaki.. heard shinya's voice.. but dunno hu is there so i ask yu.. and she told me he's kel.. so kuek didnt come.. XD yu wore so nice juz to let kuek see leh.. but he not there sad.. then the MC ask them who is their favourtie band.. then the first i thought of KEL!! then DIR EN GREY!! then i shouted "DIR EN GREY!!!" yu hit me.. and misaki saw it and he NOD TO ME!!! but not interested.. haha.. then yu and i was thinking of eating.. then we heard soul!! and we waited there.. then they were abt to go tat time me and yu stood infront.. XD then yu took pics of them.. i took a vid down.. but didnt get to take Bros coz stupid hp la.. XD XD yup... today was a nice day.. then we went to orchard.. and to TAKA.. XD.. my mag isnt out yet.. stupid.. and i hate orchard's KIno... so MESSY!!! i dun like.. then we went to buy Rejoyce de chocolate leh!! XD then we went cine and to the 9th floor!!! XD XD the jap shop... XD then me and yu bought A LOT of things.. XD XD XD XD haha.. the Nao pics and stuff like tat.. anyway.. uploading the pics tml.. ^^ then at first lucy were meeting at the kopi diam de.. but then they change it to ORCHARD MRT STATION!!!! i was sooooo freaking angry lor haix.. forget it la.. wad a day wasted.. lol.. but spending time with yu was rather happy!! seeing superband was even happier!! XD XD so i shall end here.. thanks to Alex whom brighten my day.. i'm still melting away!! XD XD ja.. matta ne!!! ^^

2006-06-30T17:17:00.000+08:00

XD XD XD ytd.. i didnt write so sian.. HAIX.. ppl dun wan to tok to him but he come and tok to me.. anyway.. tat sux ok.. haix.. then today dnt.. mrs hong group was seperated.. XE XE DAME!!!!! T^T I WAN KAI!!!!!!! T^T... but sad.. all different le.. i dun quite like mr kuwa group le.. coz of tat bitch.. XP.. anyway.. i try to bear with it.. disgusting ppl are like tat.. XE XE... then recess i forgot my ICE-CREAM.. lolx.. tat was the youth-day present.. so sad.. mr teo made us stay under the sun.. but later.. we went back to class i got my ice-cream.. XD XD and TODAY!!! must thanks mrs kuek for pei me tis morning.. coz xiujuan nuan and xiaoyin they got st john today.. TODAY IS ST JOHN DAY!! XD XD XD anyway.. tat was rather sad.. today wasnt with nuan nuan for the whole day.. LOL.. i think she is use to me hugging her le.. XD XD she came out of classroom i stright hug her.. XD coz the whole day nv hug nuan nuan i will feel strange de... XP.. and hor.. i also saw someone gana caught by police.. RETRIBUTION AR... say la.. say me more la.. i also dun count you as my brother le lor.. you like tat treat me.. i ask you lar.. i say qianhui change a lot also call bad talks meh? use your pig brain la.. when ppl say bad things rite it mean 'i hate her' and stuff like tat.. and DID i say i hate qianhui? DID i say she got bad attitude? DID i say she sux? NO RITE?!!! then plz lar.. dun anwhow say you got edvidence lor... dun be stupid la hor.. if this continues rite.. i wont wan to tok to you anymore.. i put you under my family list and really treat you as a brother you and you do tis to me? well i think this i dun wanna say le.. i wan you to get away from my life..

anyway.. today i went to TM with qianhui.. say fast de.. XD I SAW KELVIN!!! XD XD coz i brought gordon to ymh to choose my bday present (JIAO IS GOING TO BUY ME A HAT LEH!!) **HAPPY HAPPY** XD XD XD but more happy i saw kelvin.. XD XD he was like toking on the phone when he went back to ymh.. (i think he went to the toilet XD) then i was pestering gordon to buy me a bass.. XD XD XD ppl wan rite.. XP... and he saw me.. then look away le.. XD XD yu tot he really LOOKED at me.. (sorry yu!! bluff you nia.. actually is no.. he glances and walks away le.. XP XP XP coz i tot you will be excited XD XD XD) haha.. so aiya.. i gotta see him can le.. XP.. nvm~~ **hops away** so i end here.. ^^ ja~ matta ne!!!

2006-06-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

some silly thing quiz i found.. XD XD XD i'm bored... i dun wan study today!!! REST!!! ENOUGH!!! I'M EXPLODING!!! XD XD

2006-06-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

やっぱりメグミが好き

君を愛してる、
ずっと愛してる。
今なら素直に言える
「。。。君が好き。」

君の真っすぐな所、惹かれるのは僕がひねくれているかな？
ああ、僕はいつも気が付けばワがママばっかり言っちゃってるね

アニメを見たり、秋葉歩いたり、朝がた帰ってきたり。。。ごめんね？

君を愛してる、
ずっと愛してる。
今なら素直に言える
「。。。君が好き。」

君を守りたいよ、
ずっと離さないよ。
今なら素直に言える
「。。。君が好き、ずっと好き、君が好き。」

romaji
Yappari Megumi ga Suki

Kimi o aishiteru,
Zutto aishiteru.
Ima nara sunao ni ieru
"... Kimi ga suki."

Kimi no massugu na tokoro, hikareru no wa boku ga hinekureteiru kana?
Aa, boku ha itsmo ki ga tsukeba wa ga mama bakkari itchatteru ne

Anime o mitari, akiba aruitari, asa gata kaette kitari... gomen ne?

Kimi o aishiteru,
Zutto aishiteru.
Ima nara sunao ni ieru
"... kimi ga suki."

Kimi o mamoritai yo,
Zutto hanasanai yo.
Ima nara sunao ni ieru
"... kimi ga suki, zutto suki, kimi ga suki."

translation
I Love Megumi After All

I love you,
Always, I love you.
Now I can say it honestly
"... I love you."

Am I twisted for being attracted by your pureness?
Oh, I'm always realizing how all I ever talk about is my selfish feelings

Watching anime, walking in Akiba, coming back the next morning... sorry?

I love you,
Always, I love you.
Now I can say it honestly
"... I love you."

I want to protect you,
Never let you go.
Now I can say it honestly
"... I love you, always I love you, I love you."

Song by: Miyavi
Credits to: blueameko from LJ

anyway.. i juz watch Kagrra no su 16!!! XD... T^T i caught shin SMOKING!!! HOW COULD HE!!! anyway.. here is some of the PV making of Chikai no Tsuki pics.. (i actually started from middle.. it toks abt Nao.. XD)

Nao trying to get a smoke.. but tat place is ban from smoking.. (i dunno why.. but they will smoke later.. XD)

Nao still struggling.. Poor him... lol

then he got one out.. and sniff sniff.. saw tat shoe there? tat's Akiya.. lolx.. Akiya was told to watch over Nao and watch over him for not faint over if he dun smoke.. LOL!!!

yup yup.. so tat's it!! XD XD poor Akiya.. got nth better to do..

and because juz now Isshi was taking the PV.. and Nao laughed at him for the movement he made.. SO BAD!! XD XD but i like it..

Isshi was pissed off i think.. XD XD

and Nao immitate him again.. XD and Isshi pluck his bass guitar string.. XD XD XD

and this.. i know tat's nth.. but wait.. tat a CLOSER LOOK!!!

DOUSHITE?!!!! omg.. i tot he dun smoke.. but he is sure fit.. i guess he know hows to control his smoking.. XD XD XD

tok abt tis pic.. i wont tok abt shin.. Izumi looks like Kai!! XD XD tat EYES.. lolx.. and shin is sure cute.. XD XD

and tis.. a small key chain shin wanna give.. there has writen "Kagrra no Su" in jap..

and Shin make strage noise when he looks at it.. XD XD KAWAII!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD

ok ends here!! JA~~ MATTA NEH!!!! ^^

EDIT:::
some quiz i took.. yu dun jealous!! XD XD

2006-06-28T16:27:00.000+08:00

hai.. today so sian.. (actually it's everyday lor..) it's only the 3rd day of sch.. and i haven been SOOOOO STRESS already.. really.. i'm later saying out all my depression.. i'm not going to care anymore.. i dun wan anything already.. mo yamette kurasai..

anyway.. today so sian in class.. we finally moved back to our own classroom.. well.. i scramble my table with all my DARLING'S name.. there's Kagrra **SHIN!!!**, Gazette **OMG!! AOI!!! XD**, Dir en grey **sexy tochi**, Alice Nine **tall tall de Tora**, and Lucify **^^**... XD and i also writen down Shinji, Aki, Yamapi, Bou, Konon, Yasuno, Ueda.. and i forgot the last 3 is who le.. lol.. i actually got all 35 down.. LOL!!! anyway.. everything was sian sian sian.. we cant go out anymore.. gotta study study study.. 60 more days to N lvl... to be accurate.. it's 68 more days.. >.<.. less then 3 months to prepare!!! omg.. how am i going to live in this 68 days?!!!! and the most cruel part.. the N lvl is 4th of steptember to 10th of OCTOBER!!!! well.. it's Vics bday tat day.. erm.. XD... anyway.. the real one starts at 2nd of october to 10th.. DEMO!!!! WAD ABOUT MY E MATHS!??!?!??!!? WA RAO... i can feel the stress now man... >.<... i need SHIN!!!! i wish i could be 18 now... =_=.....

anyway.. today hui told me about lijun thing.. freaking idiot sia tat gal.. threaten me say i will no be able to pay for it.. USE YOUR BRAIN LA... you think i will not? anyway i'm already use to qian no really sticking to me le.. anyway.. it's her choice to choose.. and she told me b4 lor.. SHE HATES YOU LA... go get your freaking hands off her and mine.. i TOK TO MELVIN so WAD? he IS a human too.. why cant i TOK to him? you think you are big? where big? you say lar!! tell me!! shout into my face!! I may scare until i wet my pants for you to see!!! so wad if you are big?! you know wad is 胸大无脑?!!! if you dunno, my SIS can teach you.. but you have to pay her 1 million dollar to teach you tat.. coz your mind iszzit the same as normal.. and it's really really IRRITATES me SOOOOO much i hope you can stop it.. if really tat's the case.. i WONT tok to YOU or MELVIN... HAPPY?!!! plz la.. FREAK OFF MY LIFE...

2006-06-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

haha.. ytd didnt upload... coz i quarrelled with my bro.. doesnt have the mood to blog too.. anyway.. ytd was a nice match.. though lucify's first.. but still ok la.. XD i watched shinya sing.. =) his voice is getting nicer and nicer.. and i told yu tat he can b a dj next time.. XD i really like shinya voice.. when he dun sing it's even nicer.. juz like ruki's one.. **awwww.. melting away** anyway.. yu look up on Vics' blog on sunday and monday too.. =) i went to.. i did!! XD and i saw the blog when he broke up with his gf.. i was like.. omg.. crying? i dun understand why ppl wan to break when they stead in the first place? **i'm not saying who or who..** well.. mayb should reconsider this lor.. if i were to go to jap.. i wont have one.. =) 'let me go.. and if i'm not married in jap neither you are.. somehow we will be together again rite?' i will say tis!! XD XD sound dramatic rite? XD but even i dun say i wan him to feel tis way too.. XD!!!

anyway toking back.. today coughing stops a lil.. but voice sure sound HORRI-G-BLE!!! OMG!!! today i was taking the pledge.. then i said softly... coz i know my voice isnt very good.. but it when OUT OF TUNE!!! i was like "HOLY GOD MAN!!" sooooo ma lu.. i wonder if jackey and nuan nuan heard it... jacky hasnt been toking to me lately.. wad's with him i wonder.. lolx.. anyway... nth much happens today... more of like i dun wan to tok.. XP.. my voice it sounds so awful!! awfully AWFUL!!!! T^T and later.. me and yu went to 123 there.. yu take food home.. (yup it's take.. XD) and we went strolling to the bus-stop.. and i was actually thinking if i should write kuek a testimonial.. my sis also wan me to say leh how?? XS.. but i dunno wad to write.. really... anyway.. yu dun wan me always call her mrs kuek.. lolx you wan mrs misaki?? XD XD but translate in chinese not very nice le leh... got.. 三崎、三先、御崎、三咲、美咲、見崎、美崎、岬... so you wan which one? tell me and i will call you.. XD XD XD XD XD

2006-06-25T12:24:00.000+08:00

XD last nite the cake was nice.. haha~~ anyway i kinda addictated to Shin le.. XD i now then realized i dl all the Kagrra no su le.. (except some) haha.. i dl juz to see Shin de.. XP anyway.. in my dream i too dreamt of Shin.. XD i'm really jrock siao le.. =P ok first thing first.. last nite Charitine added me in her msn!! XD XD i didnt know she live so near to last time de BG.. LOL.. anyway.. we tok a lot abt jrock last nite (no wonder i had tat shin dream) and i watch the orange juice competition too.. XD.. Shin is so fit again.. haha.. he do 60 push up in one go.. coz he guess 6 wrong.. Isshi got 4... so he had to do 40.. Akiya 2.. so 20.. and Nao got 1 so tat's 10.. XD Isshi is such a lousy person.. smoke some more la... lolx!! he was catching his breath while toking.. Shin hardly make any noisy.. and when it was his turn to tok.. he still can tok like normal.. not human ar Shin.. lol!!

anyway.. abt tat dream of mine.. i dreamt i went out with Shin.. XD XD and bought tat shirt Shinya wore!!!! **angry angry** i wasnt for me actually more of for Shin.. XD XD well many many other things happen in front.. and becoz it's NC-16 i wouldnt write out here!! XD XD XD only i can read.. XD XD anyway.. once dream then forget abt it.. dun be so sturborn.. come back to reality.. XD XD ok.. i guess i'll stop here.. i gotta finish my Diru story.. I WANNA START A PS COMPANY DE STORY!!!! well.. it's hard.. coz got 2 Nao.. XP... anyway.. after i finish my 20 esp of Diru story i will post here.. XD XD ja.. ganbatte!!!!!!!!!! XD XD matta ne..

2006-06-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

yay!! today Saga's birthday rite?? XD i got his photo.. newest hairdyed!! XD kissu to saga!!!~~ chuu~~~

2006-06-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

yay!! XD today is... my sis and my beloved Saga's Birthday!! XD おねえちゃん二十一歳誕生日おめでと！そして沙我さんの、ニ十四歳誕生日おめでと！！！ hai.. XD XD my sis bake her own cake today.. =3 not bake la.. it's sort of frozen.. =) Saga-san to.. LOL.. i dunno how to celebrate fer him sia.. XD demo i wanna wish him pretty forever~~ XD and kissu fer you!! chuu~♥ XD

so.. now to Shin de birthday still long.. T^T i might not be abt to celebrate for him.. T^T.. my N lvl fault.. T^T... anyway.. i downloaded kagrra no su again!! yay \o/!! XD and i finally upload finished the pics le.. XD it took me 1h + to do so.. XD XD XD ok.. back to where i was saying.. today special is Kagrra no su's outing part 2!!! sorry i didnt upload part 1 first.. but becoz i dl part 2 first so..... nvm abt tat.. it doesnt links either.. XD ok.. so it was a trip to Okinawa.. hai! dousou.. =))

they were having their introuduction.. XD XD

then they went to this park.. Akiya taking some photos of flower..

and when they alight, Akiya and Nao bought some fish food..

to feed the fish of coz.. XD XD so many of them!!

then the camera shoot them.. eh? where is Nao? XD

he is at this store.. looking at BUGS!!!

yup.. and he is intending to buy this one.. XD

~~FAST FORWARD>>~~~

then after the whole trip they got this event and game.. XD they are suppose to write down the message tat is being passed down.. LOL.. here is Izumi..

and Nao.. =)

A~ki~ya~~~

and when the MC read out their sentences, Isshi got correct.. Izumi got some wrong...

Shin got A LOT OF WRONG.. XD

and he was very upset.. XD XD i could see 3 stroke there!! XD =_='''

Nao got some wrong.. XD and he say he dunno wad's tat too!! XD

he said he dunno.. trying to deny it.. XD

Akiya too got a lot of wrong.. kya~~ kawaii!! ^^

in the of tat game.. Isshi got first..

Nao got second.. he was so happy over it..

then mentioning 3rd.. Shin is already worrying.. **look at him!!XD**

and 3rd was Izumi.. XD Shin was still like.. O_O...

and 4th is Akiya!! yay \o/ and of coz.. last was Shin.. he is so upset!! XD XD

then they have this guessing game..

i only took some.. coz it's very long.. tat's Nao..

and Isshi.. XD XD XD

then they have to let the auddience guess too!! XD tat's Akiya

Shin!!! XD AHHHH KAWAIIII!!!!! XD XD XD

Izumi... lol i dunno wad he is doing.. haha

Nao.. trying to play peek-ah-boo? LOL

and Isshi.. trying to immitate carrying a baby.. XD

over all.. Isshi got first.. LOL

and Izumi got second.. Nao was so SAD!! XD

and he got 3rd.. so it was ok la.. haha

Akiya and Shin got 4th.. LOL..

but later the 1st get to choose who no need to be punish.. lol.. and Isshi choose Shin.. XD

so Akiya gotta be punished.. LOL.. bitter melon i suppose.. LOL

and look at Isshi face!! XD he cant take the taste..

and Akiya drank it all O_o.....

then they went out to play!! XD XD

tat's Isshi with some fans.. haha..

tat's Akiya..

XD Shin!!! ARGH!!! you fan girls GET AWAY FROM HIM!!!!! XE XE

Nao.. lolx.. he got more fans then the others!! XD

ans Izumi.. lolx.. i didnt know he is so plumb last time.. XD

again.. more fans for Isshi...

Akiya mo..

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!! FAN GIRLS!!! SHOO SHOO!!!!! **snatch Shin**

Nao can happily toking to the fans.. XD

Izumi too..

and the whole event ends at nite.. and tat's the end of their day 2.. =)

ok.. tis is juz an addition.. lol.. Shin was toking over the mic.. and the ppl there didnt knoe Shin is going to tok first.. and they adjust the mic until so high.. LOL..

so Shin lowered it down and the fans all laughed.. XD XD XD

then their ending part.. Nao!! get your hands off Shin!! HE IS SHORT ENOUGH ALREADY!!! **MEOW!!!!!**

and tat's the end of Kagrra no Su esp 12 part 2!!! XD XD

tat was funny.. if i have time tml.. or some other day.. i will upload esp 11 part 1!!! XD XD XD Akiya got snake over him!!! EEEEeeeee but i still lurve Akiya~~ chuu to you too!! ~~♥ じゃ～～待ったね！！！！！

2006-06-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

yeah! since i so free now.. i might as well introduce some of my FAVOURITE (i'm bais i know..) darling!!! **clapssclapssclapss**

ok~~ my Daisuke~~ i claim him to be my laogong.. =3 hmm tall but very talkative.. noisy... horri-g-ble in making Shinya... XD but he is the very caring type, funny.. nv fail to make you laugh.. wad a nice laogong i had!! XD XD XD

second Toshiya (tat one behind is Die and Kaoru XD).. he is much of lustful one.. horny.. i cant stand him.. but he is really very soft-hearted type.. so nv do anything tat break his heart.. coz his heart is claim to be FRAGILE!!! XD

third Aoi.. =) a very cute and nice guy~~ XD XD XD my darling ma.. haha.. he is very shy at things.. the elderest in the group but the most shy one of them all.. XD he sometimes looks fierce.. but he is actually really fierce if ppl dun do things the way he wanted to be.. XD

forth Tora~~~ =D he tends to look like monster coz he is tall and big.. but he is a kind-hearted and soft-hearted monster i should say.. =) he nv is fierce b4 to anyone.. but he is sturborn XP.. once he decides where his route is going to head.. he is not going to turn back until he gets it.. XD

fifth A~ki~ya~~~~ XD he is a gentleman in Kagrra.. =) he is quite childish at times but he always does his work real well.. he seems to be the more mature type of person in Kagrra~~ ^^ ganbatte Akiya!!! ^^

sixth and last.. Shin-to... he is a quiet and shy guy.. doesnt likes to hang around with others other then his own band mates.. XD... a very nice guy who doesnt blame anyone for wrong.. but.. the face he has mayb scary but the innerside of him is always nice **awww** tat juz makes me wanna have him more!! XD

anyway.. end of introduction!! XD XD XD yeah!!~ haha.. hmm if i were to choose.. i will choose Shin.. =) coz others are like hmmm still ok la.. but Shin gives me a feeling like he is so kakoi!! XD i dunno how to explain.. but he is definatly my mr rite type.. =) but plx.. NO TOO SHORT!!! XD XD XD

2006-06-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

XD my picture day!! XD XD XD finally i found the cable to upload my pics into the com.. **phew..** anyway.. lets see wad we have here.. XD

first.. my bro bought this chocolate thingy home..

me and my bro de artistic work.. now i think sore throat le.. **cough cough**

MY EARING!!! I LOST THE OTHER HALF!!! TAT'S MY MOTHER BUY FOR ME DE!!!!!! T^T

ok.. here are the asscescerises(sp?) i bought tat day.. choker mine.. the key necklances for sis de present.. the very nice bracelet is bro ask me buy de.. $16.90.. must remember.. and the last one.. forget it la.. dun say le.. i think i will carve either Shin's name or Akiya name on it.. ^^ or maybe Gazette.. or alice nine.. i dunno.. =)

haha.. and last but not least... the mag yu bought fer me.. YEAH!!! thanks a lot!! ^^ ^^ ^^

anyway... i wanna thanks yu really a lot.. help me advertises my walli to kuek somemore.. but the way he put it... argh.. nvm... XP %$^%^&!@@##$%*^%$% .... my darling daisuke said i cannot say tis kind of lang.. coz he dun understand.. XD so this is the last time i shall say it... XD yup yup and i found a pic tat i wanted SOOOOO MUCH!!!! XD XD XD XD XD
A PHOTO OF ALL PSC PPL!!! XD XD

XD AHHH!!! KAKOII!!!! ^^ ^^ ^^ XD all of them are my darling you know?? ALL except myv.. =) coz is my manager de.. XD
(from left to rite) [like take classphoto!! XD]
4th row: Aoi (Gazette Guitarist) , Yuura (Kra Bassist), Izumi (Kagrra Drummer), Nao (Kagrra Bassist), Nao (Alice Nine Drummer) [lolx! the 2 Nao together!! XD], Reita (Gazette Bassist)
3rd row: Shou (Alice Nine Vocalist), Keiyuu (Kra Vocalist), Miyavi (Vocalist), Ruki (Gazette Vocalist), Isshi (Kagrra Vocalist)
2nd row: Shin (Kagrra Guitarist) [**screams** XD], Mai (Kra Guitarist), Hiroto (Alice Nine Guitarist), Saga (Alice Nine Bassist)
1st row: Yasuno (Kra Drummer), Kai (Gazette Drummer), Tora (Alice Nine Guitarist) [**hugs!!**], Akiya (Alice Nine Guitarist) [y is he standing with Tora-san?!! but i still love Aki!! XD], Uruha (Gazette Guitarist)
XD XD XD XD omg i lurve them so much!! XD XD XD XD anyway.. still got pics... =3.. it's on Gazette.. the things tat are always with them.. XD

Aoi:
iBook: Uses it during tours or going out to create music. Goes walking around, carrying it.

Ring: A present from a fan for his birthday present. There are no other rings with this design. [omg!! i wish i could give him tat ring!! XD]

Makeup goods: Manicure, color contacts, etc. "It's perfect for getting me into the mood and becoming Aoi"
Changing the color of eyes by wearing color contacts. [tat's my Aoi!! X3]

Kai:
Cell phone case: The manager was worried for Kai, who always lost his cellphone. Kai himself likes it. "I've never seen him use it though," (cut off, but probably manager quote).
The strap of course is Gazette! [Leader-sama always lost hp?? XD]

PSP: The PSP he got from a fan is his companion. He challenges himself to any game. When ever he starts talking to Uruha about games he (it's cut off here too, but I think it continues like) might take it out.[Vics and Kel got it too!! XD]

Planner: Writing down schedules. Bad at remembering things (cut off but I think that's it). "I never know what's going on if I don't write it down for a specific day. I always wonder, 'what's going on that day?'"

Ruki:
Wallet: Got the wallet and chain from TheGambler$. Had it for more then half an year! "I like the style, but in truth, it's pretty heavy." (laugh)

Sunglasses: From his big collection, he selected these today. Chooses depending on mood. When choosing, he thinks about how some of them just have to pair with hats and such. "People might look at me oddly, so I try not to wear them though."

Ipod Mini:
Got it from a fan. Listened to during tour. "From until now, it's been walkman this whole time, so I'm happy it's compact." [Ruki iszzit supporting original.. =_=]

Reita:
Hat: Recently, he's been really liking the hat. He bought it when he went shopping with Ruki. "This hat is my first hat that's so rock." (laugh) [omg!! it looks like Shin's hat!! XD]

Wrist band: All of them are of his favorite bands, and he seems to be collecting those. Says that when he doesn't wear them, his wrists feel lonely! "These are my first that are so rock. (laugh) It's so rock, I love it." [so many of them O_O;]

Pick: Got 500 picks from ESP. "I can be rock with these. I like the words 'Ride with the Rockers' on the pick too. I learned the meaning of that recently. That's also rock!" (laugh) [er... i dun think i will bring tat around.. XD]

Uruha:
Game soft[wares]: Got them from this store called T_________A at his birthplace. Apparently goes around carrying a lot. "I love games. Nobody loves games as much as I do." (laugh) [yar yar Uruha LURVES game A LOT!! XD "Game first"]

Set List: A part from the recent tour set list. "I do imetore (abbreviation for something I think, but don't know). If a live is close, I walk around with it." [O_O???]

MD walkman and MD: Using a walkman given from a fan. Apparently listens to music, and goes into happy mood. Listens to all genre. "If people recommend, I'll listen to it no matter what. Always putting in music." [XD Uruha is so Original then Ruki!! XD]

ok... i'll end here.. =3 translation thanks to Bakura_fan1 from Batsu!! XD XD ok.. oyasumi!! ^^

2006-06-22T06:11:00.000+08:00

arh.. now time check... 6.15 am.. =) made 6 wallis all together today.. XD i slpt for 2 hours juz now.. stupid bro... i hate him ar.. snatch com with me.. anyway.. i stay up to make all this walli.. XP dousou

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2006-06-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm today.. it's a total waste of time.. i could have stayed at home and make some wallis for my "shop" XD... anyway.. today... me and yu went to tm.. intend to give mr xu some present.. and in the end.. he didnt come to work.. and we went to eat long john.. then went to yu house.. yu's laogong sounds awful really out of tune.. XD.. and her chees cake was nice.. =) love the oreo on top and the biscults around it.. XD taste really nice.. and later she went to alicia's house and i went to hui's house... went to her house to play the sims.. then go down buy something to eat.. somehow crys called her.. hui said she is crying lor.. haix.. poor thing sia her.. haix.. anyway.. i played until 5.30.. tml also no need go dnt.. life so sian.. i guess soon lucify will be another thing i'm giving up..
anyway.. tat guy replied yu.. and she is so happy now.. haha.. i'm so ill-fated.. all becoz of the monster tat nana has... lolx.. the unlucky 7.. T^T.. ok.. i'm totally sad liao.. i'm going to cry all my hearts out tonite sinces there is nth on tml... and i left the present there.. i was like.. aww shit sia... but nvm.. forget it.. it's mine anyway.. i'm so sian.. so tired.. i wan shin!!! **hugs shin and cry** i wish someone is there for me to hug.. Tora, Aoi, Saga, Shin(but he too short nia!! T^T), Yasuno(actually he is kinda old sia).. anyone.. T^T.....
haix.. yup recently falling in lurve with my beloved shin.. =) i was most worried for shin and the Kagrra no su eps 26 really makes me see another side of shin.. at first i thought he was a bad attituded guy.. i was like hmmm ok la.. but until i watched the Kagrra no su.. i find him very ke lian.. T^T.. demo.. he is always so undefeated.. haha.. i love this kind of guy.. ^^ shin-to suki desu!! ^^

2006-06-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

XD hmmm today on me and cho aik went for dnt.. well still ok lar.. we chat a lot.. coz only the 2 of us.. gordon sick.. jianyu i dunno.. looyd cannot come.. martin also dunno.. well at least i'm finishing soon!! XD XD XD anyway when i got home.. i watched Kagrra, no su.. LOL!!! MY POOR SHIN!!!! ;_; omg.. i watch until i heartbroken sia.. omg.. first they got this game tat need to chage sits de.. and when tat person is Keiyuu.. Kra de vocalist.. when he say something basketball de.. then everyone have to change sits.. then got one part Keiyuu will say those name with 'ah' (in jap) pronounsiation mush change sit.. in the end...

only Akiya stood up.. (coz his name got a A)

he is still looking for sits when isshi pointed at izumi (they are playing real names i think)

then they are also no sure of wad iszzit too!! XD

then Nao stood up and gave sit to izumi.. XD

then Yasuno stood up too.. and Akiya hugged him to prevent him from changing sits

Nao joined in the fun too!!! (i too wanna be hugged!! XE)

then Nao and Akiya sat at the same time..

then Keiyuu looked at Mai and scolded him say 'ah' got "a, ga sa, ta, na, MA" LOL!!

and then the basketball came out.. and everyone changed sits..

STUPID IZUMI!!!! he made my Shin fell!!!!

poor Shin!!! **huggssS**

haha.. but he is still laughing.. XD
later they got a quizy game.. tat was boring so i skip tat.. in the end Kagrra vs Kra, Kagrra lose.. LOL LOL!!!! and they were ask to do 20 squating, 20 sit ups, 20 lie on the floor and do de.. (i dunno wad's tat) and 20 pumping.. LOL so there they goes..

they were squating and squating..

Nao wasnt very happy tat they lost.. but still squat..

then he had enough of it.. so he stoped

and leaving the rest of the band mates squating and where's Akiya?

he squat away too XD XD XD

then sit up.. Nao was the first to answer and look at him...

he is helping Shin... XP.. poor Shin

they all doing and Akiya was very angry abt the punishment and he threw his shoe at Keiyuu

Nao was explaining this is the basic sit up position.. XD

still explaining... XD and he ask Shin to stop half way!! XE

still explaining.. =___= i had enough of him...

and tat wormy thing.. look at Shin!!! XD

he is so fit.. stupid Nao is sooo.. @$^$&%^#$%&^&$%

look at Izumi!!! XD XD he look like a worm!!! XD

i first time see this type of thing..

and he is dead.. LOL.. still moving.. for his last breath.. XD

look at tat.. even Shin is laughing at him.. XD wad a leader-sama he is.. XD

and push up.. Nao is singing for them...

still singing and claping.. XD

and after all the hardwork.. stupid Nao is so happy...

hi-fi with Izumi then Isshi..

then Shin.. my Akiya dunno go where le.. XD

then to end this Shin and Akiya were the MC of the day!! they smile so KAWAII!! XD XD XD
hmmm so tat's the end.. XD my whole day was laughed off juz like tat.. so.. hope you all enjoy it too!! XD XD XD

2006-06-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

XD today went out to but PRESENTSSSS XD XD XD first.. we went to CL.. XD... nth dere de.. really worst sia... XD... the jap shop dunno go where le... haix.. cannot find sia... =_=... anyway.. me and yu shop down the whole of 9 floor.. XD... i dunno why the smell there is sooooo terrible.. XP then we walk to TAKASHIMAYA... XD XD XD wa~~~ yu bought my the fool's mate!!! stupid mag.. why call fool's mate.. sounds like only fool will buy it.. b4 tat we went to the basement to buy thing to eat.. the takoyaki.. XD.. oyishi desu!! then we went to far east.. XD all the present are bought form dere sia... my sis de necklaces.. from 1st floor de 77th street.. then kel's and bro's bracelet from 3rd floor de 77th street.. then i think we went home le ba? XD.. yu today went to guradian 3 times.. bought 6 bottles of water.. went to 7 times of toilet.. XD.. poor yu.. becox of a toothache then becom like tat.. XD then i drank the oreo blended ice infront of her and ate the old chang kee!!!!! XD XD XD ok la.. she today nv come my house.. coz she wanna scream at home.. XD i think tat's for the whole outing.. XD

hmm.. toking abt lucify.. they got the 1st today sia!!! **hugs Vics, hugs Kel, hugs Shinya, hugs Kuek, pat Misaki** XD XD XD !!!!!! okok... jk nia.. hahaha!! then yu asked me to dl the vid on shinya being tricked de.. I DUNNO WHY I CANNOT WATCH!!!!! XE anyway.. i watched in another programme.. but it dun have SOUND!!! WTF!!!! kao lor... and i cannot find the shirt tat shinya wore!!! XE XE XE all shinya faults!!! XE XE XE **hits shinya plushie** XD XD anyway.. the judge said kuek looks like chun li.. =__=.. his eye got prob ar?? i dunno how he looks like chun li.. but he sure looks pretty XD!! then today also Kel de b'day!!! XD wed then give him the present.. sian nor... i scare sia.. T^T.. hope he dun scold me hope he dun scold me hope he dun scold me.. XD XD XD XD and yu baking cake for him.. =3.. dunno edible a not.. XD and lurve Kel forever!! ^^ ^^ Ｋｅｌ－チャン生命の私の夫である！！！！君が好きだよ！！！！そして二十三歳の誕生日おめでと＼（^▽^）／！！！！！！じゃ～～待ったね！！！！！

2006-06-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

XD XD juz now watched Kaggra, no su.. LOL!!!!! AKIYA WENT OUT A DATE WITH TORA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD.. no pic provide.. XP... anyway... i only got two of them coz i post it on the forum.. XD XD tat's the neoprint they 2 took together!!!

XD XD XD XD XD dun they REALLY LOOK LIKE COUPLE?!!!! XD XD =3= **jealous jealous**

lolx.. Akiya is a bit horny.. XD XD XD XD!!!
anyway.. tat was a funny one.. later i dunno wad they were toking already XD.. hmmm.. in tat vid Akiya was driving.. the car seems to be too small for Tora.. coz his leg was like touching the drawer already.. XD XD XD XD.. haha.. tat was a nice one.. thanks to Kuroniji from Occult Proposal for uploading this vid!! XD

anyway.. last nite.. i dreamt of lucify again!!! XD XD XD XD XD XD ok la... this time was a nice one la.. juz an outing with them... hahahaha... =_=.. but i really very sad leh.. after i said the whole story then i tell y i so sad..
hmm.. still rmb the student outfit they wore? lol.. nice one sia.. then it juz started like tat.. we were in a shopping mall.. with mrs kuek too.. LOL.. yu la.. then she was toking to MISAKI!!! (me: HOW COULD YOU??!!! XD) then i was like looking around... i found a turtle.. buying for mr xu's bday present.. XD... then i was looking and looking about.. then Vics came and tok to me.. XD XD XD XD then i totally forgot abt the turtle lor.. and i actually bought a whistle for Vics.. a small one.. very cute.. and it reminds me of FFX.. in a part.. Tidus said to Yuna:
juz whistle, and i will come running to you..
i was like AWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwww i fainted!! LOL.. and it juz finished like tat.. in the end i didnt gave it to Vics.. coz the stupid cashier.. ARGH... forget it... anyway.. why i was so sad is becoz.. I ACTUALLY FORGET ABT THE TURTLE!!!!! T_T i forgot abt mr xu.. T_T how could i.. awwwwwwwwww.......... T_T

2006-06-16T20:37:00.000+08:00

haha.. today was sian la.. maths lesson.. lol.. me and xiujuan after finishing the maths ws.. went mr lee is not around.. both of use were playing with the ants.. XD!!!! IT'S REALLY BORING OK!!!! XD XD then later i skip dnt.. and went to visit lloyd.. me, qianhui, jiao, gordon and martin.. ahah.. then we stayed there and watch the "wo ai jing ling" LOL!!! the milk ping very funny!! XD XD then me went to qianhui de house.. then pei her go CS.. actually wanna go see kel de but suan le.. then go arcade play lo.. then go home le.. really sian.. hope holiday faster end.. XD XD ja.. matta ne!!!!!

2006-06-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

ah~ah~~~ my poor yu was freak off by kuek's gf de pic.. XD anyway.. something freaks me off today too.. thanks to yu and qianhui for believing in me.. i dunno wad tat bitch wans from me.. but if she wanna find me trouble, daring enough one on one face me.. dun go look for your gor gor or wadever shit you have there ok.. dun so humji standing behind your gang behind.. ask them use knife chop me la! i hen bu de juai dian si ar!! you and tat noko are one of the same kind.. break le the whole person totally changed... one becoming more and more stupid, one becoming more and more bitchy.. freaks lor.. anyway.. i wont waste my time toking rubbish abt her.. coz yu cooled me down.. and my mr xu is buy me liang cha to drink later.. (yu siad de!! XD XD)

anyway.. today dnt sux as per normal.. mrs hong tried to bluff herself through.. dun forget cancer six sense are strong.. i gave her a hard laugh.. and she juz walks off.. she says i'm up to O lvl standard.. i dun think it is lor.. my folio sux.. i knew tat.. i shouldnt have take dnt.. it's so stress.. i could feel like i'm back to last time the parents meet section de mood le.. tat time i really nearly cried coz i'm really suffercating... but now it's like i'm not warm or something.. it's the thing i dunno how to do.. when i stress i really can cry.. so truthfuly saying.. i'm not as strong, as good as you all think.. dun give me stress.. coz i cant live up to your standard de... before tat.. we went for lunch.. mrs kuek woke up and smsed me.. =) she told me her dreams and i've saved it for her in my phone.. (dun worry.. sim card not enough space phone got a lot!! XD) then i went to her mommy shop to eat the rice.. lolx.. actually i took away to qianhui house to eat.. with gordon and choaik of coz.. lolx!! then crystal was in too.. she cant contact candy.. coz she was slping.. first time i see ppl slp so long.. she must have woke up last nite.. lolx!! anyway.. everyone tried calling her.. she juz cant wake up.. her sis answered the phone.. we had no idea why her sis is so scare of her.. LOL!! anyway we went back late... but i finished my things la.. XD haha.. ok.. i think nth more to say.. today maths lesson without yu was rather sian.. lucky still got xiujuan.. nuan nuan and xiaoyin also dunno go where le.. ;_;... hmm.. mayb it's a lil mushy to say tis.. but.. i dun wish to lose my friends to anyone anymore....

2006-06-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

kya... last nite the com scared me.. juz now too.. =_=.. stupid mozilla firefox.. hate it hate it hate it!!! XE argh.. i dunno wad to say.. but i dun wan to use com for the time being le.. XE makes me worried and angry.. i dunno wad to say abt it too..

anyway.. i worried for it unril 3++.. then my hp woke me up at 6.30.. lolx.. and i was so tired i woke up and went to slp again.. then my mom come and woke me up.. gwrash... it's so tried lor.. then i went to sch.. lucky simin didnt come.. if not i then dun wan to take the same bus with her leh.. but jj was not around.. AIYA wadever.. then come sch tat time.. saw qianhui they all.. she knew abt tat i cannot hang out well with alicia and crystal.. and she somehow treats me a lil different too.. wadever.. i got yu and nuan pei me can le!! hai.. so e maths was rather sian.. i brought yu the mag.. haha.. she oberserve my laogong so much hmm? lol.. say tat one of the guy looks like kel.. LOL.. okok.. then after then whole thing.. we all went off.. so it's abt the same la.. dnt dnt dnt.. sian de yao ming.. lolx!! i miss sch days.. I MISS BUSY DAYS!!!!! I WAN BACK MY SCH DAYS!!!! **whisper** so i can see jj.. XP jk nia.. lolx!! truthfully i still kinda miss him even though 3 ppl from lucify always over lapping him.. but still cant forget.. XD... okok.. end here now.. ja~~~~ minna!! matta ne!! XD

2006-06-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

ahahhaha~~ i wanna tell yu this!!!

SIAN MU MA??? LOLX!!!! know why my one is at first?? LOL!!! coz he's my XBL MA!!! XD XD jk la.. okok.. serious DE.. tat one is juz for show.. XD XD XD.. me wanna name out all my darling sia... haha.. dunno if i got 1 month le a not.. =) ok.. here it goes.. (sorry.. i'm juz bored)

Daisuke ( <3<3)
Toshiya (kawaii)
Kaoru (my guitar goddess)
Shinya (my quiet type!! XD)
Kyo (I dunno i wanna him a not.. he sure will bite)
Ruki (man man de boy boy!!)
Uruha (my pretty lady)
Aoi (<3<3<3)
Reita (cool type)
Kai (XD my happy type!! super admire him leader-sama!!)
Shou (dunno him well.. but he is tall XD)
Hiropon aka Hiroto (cute cute small small juz like Kyo but not as fierce as him! XD)
Saga (**nosebleed** to sexy to say anything!! XD)
Tora (<3<3<3<3)
Nao [A9] (cute cute de!! ^^)
Shin [Kagrra] (cute small innocent!!!! XD)
Nao [Kagrra] (naughty and shuai! XD)
Akiya [Kagrra] (hmm quiet and shy.. =3)
Yuura [Kra] (wild and cool type)
Yasuno [Kra] (XD XD my drum goddess!!!! XD)
Mai [Kra] (too cute.. too naughty to say anything! LOL)
Bou [An Cafe] (too girly!!! XD XD pretty girl!! **actually is a guy XP**)
Kanon [An Cafe] (juz like Aoi.. almost the same.. Bassist too!! XD)
YamaP (lurve him a lot a lot a lot!!! SHUAI!!!! shuu~ji~kunn~~~)
Ueda (pretty lil boy!! ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^)
Gackt (the sex goddess)
Shinji [Sid] (find him very shuai.. =D)
Aki [Sid] (fierce but MAN! XD)
Vics (tall shuai~~)
Kel (cool Guitar)
Quek~~ =P (shuai~ bassist rox!)
EDIT::Qiuyu (a girl in my class claims to be the person i admire most.. LOL..a crazy girl who is always crazy with me over jap.. XD)

heezheez!! 1 month le!! CONGRATS ME SIAA!! haha.. ok.. not more taking in of ppl.. and yu!! gomene!! no place for you le!!! XP XP XP!!! anyway.. tis post is juz for fun.. they are not really my darlings.. they are juz ppl i admires a LOT!!! LOL ok.. ja.. mattane!!! ^^

2006-06-13T02:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm juz now toked to qianhui.. lol.. we first time toked so many things sia.. from primary sch tok until the person we first crushed on.. LOL.. well we both crushed on 2 different guy at a same age!! XD XD really very mother like rite?? =3 haha.... then we were crazy about the superband.. juz-b went out.. really tat was sad.. lolx.. actually if i tot it was qi:nobi.. i will sms bro and say HAHA they are out.. lolx.. sounds kinda bad.. but.. =P anyway.. lucify went in.. i was screaming over the phone.. LOL anyway.. mel smsed me.. he told me no need help him say good wrods for crys le.. wadever la.. and it seems like i answered him back a little harsh.. like i say.. not tat i dun mind my friend somking.. but if you are underage.. i mind tat a lot.. juz like daisuke, tora, aoi and toshiya.. they are crazy smokers of all.. gackt too.. but the once reach 19(for jap) they smoke i dun mind.. =S but here.. i mind it.. i really do.. dun break laws if you know you can keep them.. anyway.. i was tell qianhui abt my laogong and my xiaobai nian LOL!! i ask her if he looks like jj.. she say no.. should show her last time his photo.. really looks like lor!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD hobbies almost the same except one.. but if say out le very obvious.. LOL... so dun say better.. and.. as i promised.. the Hitomi no Juunin.. by Larku.. =) hai.. doushou.. =)

瞳の住人
hitomi no juunin
The person who stays on in your eyes

Lyrics:　hyde
Composer:　tetsu
Vocals:　L'Arc~en~Ciel

数えきれない�でも少しの歳月は流れ
いったい君の事をどれくらい分かってるのかな?
指先で地図辿るようにはうまく行かないね
気づいているよ不安そうな顔隠してるくらい

急ぎ足の明日へと抵抗するように
駆け回っていても不思議なくらい�この胸は君を描くよ

見上げれば輝きは色褪せず溢れていた
どんな時も照らしてるあの太陽のようになれたなら

もう少しだけ君の匂いに�抱かれていたいな
外の空気に首輪を引かれ僕は背を向けた

白く滲んだ溜め息に知らされる季節を
繰り返しながらふと思うのさ�なぜ僕はここに居るんだろう?

そばにいてずっと君の笑顔を見つめていたい
移り行く瞬間をその瞳に住んでいたい
どこまでも穏やかな色彩に彩られた
一つの風景画の中寄り添うように時を止めて欲しい永遠に

そばにいてずっと君の笑顔を見つめていたい
移り行く瞬間をその瞳に住んでいたい
いつの日か鮮やかな季節へと連れ出せたら
雪のように空に咲く花のもとへ�花のもとへ

Romaji
kazoe kirenai... demo sukoshi no saigetsu wa nagare
ittai kimi no koto o dore gurai wakatteru no ka na?
yubi saki de chizu taodoru you ni wa umaku ikanai ne
kizuiteiru yo fuan sou na kao kakushiteru kurai

isogi ashi no ashita e to teikou suru you ni
kakemawattitemo fushigi na kurai... kono mune wa kimi o egaku yo

miagereba kagayaki wa iro asezu afureteita
donna toki mo terashiteru ano taiyo no you ni nareta nara

mou sukoshi dake kimi no nioi ni... kakarete itai na
soto no kuuki ni kubiwa o hikare boku wa se o muketa

shiroku nijinda tameiki ni shirasareru toki o
kurikaeshi nagara fu to omou no sa.. naze boku wa koko ni irun darou?

soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao o mitsumeteitai
utsuri yuku shunkan o sono hitomi ni sundeitai
doko made mo odayaka na shikisai ni irodorareta
hitotsu no fuukeiga no naka yori sou you ni toki o tomete hoshii
eien ni

soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao o mitsumeteitai
utsuri yuku shunkan o sono hitomi ni sundeitai
itsu no hi ka azayaka na kisetsu e to tsuredasetara
yuki no you ni sora ni saku hana no moto e... hana no moto e

Translation
It's uncountable, really... but just a little bit, the months and years flow on by.
How much of you do I truly understand, I wonder?
It didn't go along as smoothly as us tracing our fingers down the map, did it?
I do notice, you know.
You trying to cover the anxiety over your face.
That much, I notice, if nothing else.

Tomorrow arrives at far too blistering a pace,
and to stand up against it, to resist it,
I work myself up into a hustle.
And even then, it's amazing, really...
Just how much I think about you,
Just how much you're in my heart.

And if you had but looked up,
you'd have found the light,
overflowing in abundance, and never fading away.
If only I could have become like that sun then,
shining down upon you always.

For just a little, just a little more,
I'd like to stay like this, embraced by your sweet scent.
The outside air forms into a clasp around my neck,
and I am pulled away, my back turned away from you.

My sigh blooms forth in clouds of white,
telling me that winter has arrived.
And whilst these seasons cycle onwards,
I suddenly begin to think:
"Why is it that I'm here, exactly?"

Stay by my side
Oh, but to look on upon your smile always,
To stay on in those eyes of yours, past those fleeting moments.
No matter where we go, it's bathed in gentle hues.
To nestle up close to you, inside of a picture of the scenery,
Would that but time could stop,
Forever and ever.

Stay by my side
Oh, but to look on upon your smile always,
To stay on in those eyes of yours, past those fleeting moments.
Someday, if I can bring you away to a season radiant and bedazzling,
To the flowers that bloom in the sky like snow...
To the flowers...

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EDIT::: to yu
hai!! yu!!! haha.. i made this walli for you!! kame de.. hope you like it!! plus 2 more avatar!! ^^

2006-06-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. ;_;... lucify today very ke lian.. T_T... y only 29.5 only? i hope they are in.. i really very scare everytime see them like tat.. haix.. anyway.. toking back abt today... i nearly late for the stupid dnt.. haix.. i set my alarm as 8.. but i woke up at 8.30... =.=... then the stupid bus came late lor!!! IDIOT.. i wait from 9.15 until 9.40++ then COME!!! OMG LOR.. then i reach there was like sit there for 2h then break le.. LOL... then nth much today lar... almost the same nia.. lolx.. anyway.. i'm posting the lyrics later... =D cya~~ ^^

2006-06-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

ahahaha~~ I went ot bugis juz now.. with my mum~~ =3 we went kinokuniya.. lolx.. and bought the saiyuki reload.. =D then we went to orchard.. stupid damn weather.. it rained.. ahhh.. then we went to the herem for shelter... later i tot tat the jap shop is still there.. and when i went to the fifth floor(or forth.. i dun rmb le) the shop is close!!! then i rmb yu told me tat it moved to far east(iszzit like tat sp?) there.. shit sia.. haix.. then we went to takashimaya.. and me and my mother were so gong.. lolx.. we dunno where is kinokuniya.. LOL!! and i went to call yu.. LOL.. thanks to her.. we got to kinokuniya safely.. lol!! anyway.. the stupid shox for june WAS SOLD OUT!!!!!!!! T_T I WAN TAT MAG LA!!!!!!!!!!! but nvm.. mum bought me the july one and yu said she will buy me the aug one.. but it's a little expensive so i will pay a little too!! ^^ moreover it's the mag i wan after all.. HAHA~~ anyway.. the person say still got may de... i was like.. hmmm? may de is who?? LOL... then i dun wanna buy.. so i bought july de instead.. lolx.. and on the bus i was reading.. though all jap de.. at least i understand some of it.. lol.. i found the poster!!! AHHHHHHHHH X3 X3 X3 i nearly fainted on the bus.. and my mother saw me looking at some band (i dunno iszzit D or a new one.. forgot) one of the guy's piercings is like WOW.. SCARY... lolx!! his mouth is full of piercings.. my mother see le is like she is very disgusted by him.. LOL.. then i show her An Cafe de Bou.. lolx.. then i say in chinese, "ta hen cute hor?" lolx.. then my mother nv ans me.. and i told her he's a guy.. LOL and she was like very pissed off~~ LOL funny!!! hahaha~~ anyway.. Anny (means An Cafe.. lazy to write) was advertising for the world cup thingy.. LOL!!! Bou is the cheer leading de!!! XD so kawaii~~~ LOL.. then Kra got a concert... lolx.. Mai (guitarist) and Yuura (bassist) looks ALMOST THE SAME!!! XD XD their hairstyle makes me confuse.. i dunno who is who sia.. and somehow.. Mai was carrying a bass guitar if i'm not wrong.. i was like stun.. who is who?!!!! LOL!!! and alice.. got interview.. but only shou and hiroto is inside.. sad.. where's my Tora?? LOL.. and i think.. that's it!! XD!! anyway.. Vics accept my work le!! ahh~~ domo arigatou!! ^^ ^^ ^^ XD ok.. じゃ～さようなら！！！！！

2006-06-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

ahh haha.. lolx.. juz now went out to eat dinner.. lol.. otousan sohite okasan, they went out to celebrate okasan's uncle de bday.. XD hmm so they didnt bring me along.. and ask my sis and bro bring me out to eat... lolx.. ever since without mom.. it's my first time eating outside together with bro and sis.. XP.. well.. our age gap is very big.. so it's like we dun usally spent time together.. so.. at first we intend to eat at igen.. but stupid bro he wanna eat at pizza hut.. i was like warao.. ppl wanna try jap food leh.. T_T... yup yup.. so we went in.. and we sat at the front.. then SUDDENLY!!! something caught my eyes!! LOL it's a DA SHUAI GE LEH!! XD XD XD XD XD!! no la.. actually he also not tat shuai.. not anyway where to hit Tora and Aoi.. lolx.. he is juz nice looking tat's all.. hahaha.. then bro and sis order lagsanna(i dunno correct a not) and i ordered sauage maine(something like tat.. i really dun recall coz i seldom eat all this.. lolx!)... and bro order some cheesey pizza thingy and his ice moca (sorry again.. =__=""") anyway.. sis food arrived first.. and she told us abt her tution kid thingy.. tat kid WAS HORRI-G-BLE then me sia.. SO RUDE to my sis.. if she is her sis, she will probably give her a slap on her face le.. if it's me.. haha!! i will scold and scold and scold her until her cant defends herelf any longer!! haha.. bad hor? but she is juz too over broad le.. she bluff my sis say she wans holiday.. hey if dun wan tution say la.. you know ppl like me wan tution also cannot affort to go? (actually can.. but using my own money..... NO lolx!) haix.. 生在福中不知福.. XP anyway.. mine came later... it's the guy bring it to me de.. XD XD haha~~ then my bro one came the last... but he is the fist to finish... he cut his lagsanna into 4 pieces and tat's all.. lol.. my sis one arrived first and mine second.. (mine is almost more then hers..) we finished at the same time!! XD XD anyway.. the pizza arrived later... me and my sis one ate half of our first pizza.. bro ate 4 already.. and i got fustrated by the fork and knife and i use hand instead.. lolx... i dun often go to tis type of place so dun blame me.. lolx!! anyway i was making fun of my bro coz he still wans.. and i dun like to eat thos olies(i dunno iszzit like tat spell a not..) so i make fun of him i still got i still have.. lolx!! then i point to the oiles!! lolx!! then we went NTUC buy some stuff for next day's dinner.. curry!! LOL and pancakesss~~ lurve lurve pancakesss~~~~ then we took taxi home.. (our house is so near lor.. so lame to take a taxi home..)
when we got the taxi, the uncle was listening to some stuff of the worldcup.. (sorry i dun like those things..) and later tat taxi driver told us abt the worldcup thingy.. lolx.. england vs who.. but they score 1 goal at 6 mins plus i think.. lolx!! he said, "the person shoot the ball to let the goal keeper catch but he nv catch" **in chinese** lolx.. when we heard tat we all laughed sia.. funny.. lolx

later.. reached home le.. rather tired.. bro bought the mag U for me.. lolx.. then i was looking for the kame news in the mag U actually it was a false alarm la.. yu ar.... hahaa.. kame's really name is Kamenashi Kazuya.. put in jap is 亀梨和也.. as for wad the mag says.. tat guy is Hayami Mokomichi... who is 速水直道

here is a pic of him.. XD look at him carefully YU!!! he appeared in gokusen 2 de!! i think he is one of the best friends of them ba?!! look carefully!! it's not kame ok?? okokok??!! lolx.. anyway.. the pic taken really looks like kame.. lolx.. and yamap is inside too.. toking abt it.. they say he is mouthing the words when singing in Music station.. lolx.. and the pic in mag looks like Kimura Takuya.. also writen as 木村拓哉 haha.. really look a like.. and my sis say their photo shooting sux.. LOL!! anyway.. tat's very idiotic of saying yamap.. go try and dance tat and sing tat at the same time b4 saying other ppl!! tat song is juz new and tat's a new step ok?!! dun anyhow accuse him!! XP XP XP okok... me mayb changing my blog skin again.. lolx.. the kai one doesnt looks nice.. i got a nicer idea... like i say.. my insperation likes to pop out of no where!! LOL okok.. じゃ～お休み～～～

2006-06-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. so sian.. ytd i tot it's the concert.. but it's actually today.. NO MATTER WAD.. i still cant go.. all thanks to my mother of keeping me "SAVE" at home.. geez... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm juz soooo sian at home... how i wish i can go jap now... well.. as i say.. kel is cuting his hair.. hmmm.. i was thinking of cutting the same as him.. but i guess i'm going back to my Ueda.. hur hur~~ lolx! anyway.. i'm changing blog skin soon.. !! lolx.. dun be suprise if i change recently.. XD XD XD my insperation juz came without telling!!! XD XD XD

2006-06-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

AAHHHHH!!!!!!! FREAK!!! ytd i wrote SOOOOO DAMN LONG!!! and this stupid blogger deleted it!!!!!!!!! wadever the case.. i'm writing again!!!!!! well toking abt lucify.. i can go for the beach thingy today.. awww.. sad sad sad... it's starting in 3h time.. XD but forget it... my laogong is going for reservice.. lolx!! yar yar.. my mr xu... as for vics.. i think i should stop thinking of him for some period of time.. argh.. i'm afraid i might seriously fall for him.. juz like i did for jj.. i might go crazy over it one day.. anyway.. i didnt know i like tall and tanned guy.. mayb next time i should go and find a bung-ga-la fer me... lolx! jk.. i dun wan a bung-ga-la.. too dark i will scare.. haha!! hmmm ok.. stop the lucify thingy before i got addicted again..

last last nite.. i dreamt about jj leh.. haha.. i dreamt tat it was my birthday.. and i still get ppl giving me present as usual.. haha.. and i was like attending this maths lesson.. (anyway.. the classroom didnt look like our sch coz it was like kinda old la.. anyway.. half way through the lesson.. i heard ppl singing bday song from outside the classroom!! haha.. at first it thought tat it was some other ppl who happened to share the same birthday as me.. but when my ah bu (jasmine) called my name.. haha.. then i realise it was for me.. XD so happy but shocked more.. and she ran into the class and stuff a piece of chcoclate chesse cake.. XD XD XD XD XD OISHI!!!!!!! i dunno how come i know the taste.. but it taste nice.. really... XD XD then jasmine told me.. the big big cake.. is jj bought for me de.. he bought it for over $100++ la.. pretty shocked.. but when i was to go for the second time.. it actually finished.. lolx.. then later.. skip skip skip until after sch.. i was with a girl.. somehow i dunno hu is she.. but i know tat she often appeared in my dream whenever i dreamt of jj.. XD then jj came with marcus and jj handed me a small chocolate cheese cake.. (me: chocolate AGAIN?) and of coz.. i'm more touched then ever.. but tat friend of mine said we have something important to do.. then we went rushing off.. then i shall skip the wad we are doing part.. lolx.. and when the time i was abt to go home.. i rmb the cake.. and i went rushing to the staircase and i saw jj holding on to the cake and somehow fall asleep.. XD XD XD XD XD and when i came tat time.. he woke up and handed the cake to me.. XP XP and i woke up.. SAD!! lolx but tat was a nice one neh.. i really love tis dream.. though it isnt as realistic as the vics one.. but at least it touched my heart.. =D

then after tat dream.. i went for dnt.. i actually bluffed teacher say i not feeling well.. but actually i wan finish tat dream.. XD the i went there.. it was mrs hong bday tat day.. and she actually treat us bubble tea.. actually its like me martin gordon and jianyu go buy can liao lor.. i dunno why simin was foloing us.. its like she is so extra dere la.. anyway.. inorder to get away from her.. i dragged gordon to another kopi diam to eat.. then mel mel came.. simin was rather irritating la.. is like i was thinking went i first saw her in the workshop until i went home.. "eww! OMG! i dun wan go home with her, i dun wan to eat with her, i dun wan to walk together with her, i dun wish to tok to her, i dun wan her to folo us, cant she let us be alone? cant she juz eat somewhere herself? plz can someone ask her dun folo already?" i was think all this when ever i see simin.. i think i'm simin illfated ar.. everything sure got same as simin de... CCA is the same muscial, then A MATHS and DnT the same.. last time Choo group same.. Kwua group same now Hong group also same.. take the same bus home.. i was like OMG??!!!! why everything must be simin?!!! i wanna move to jap.. i dun care.. i wanna be there.. iDUN BELIEVE she will folo me until there.. anyway.. i went home early ytd.. and played my ff10 at home.. siansss

and today.. i went to sch early too.. XD the finish up my folio.. but of coz.. we cant finish.. lolx!! and we went to play pool.. lolx.. at first i really really dunno how to play.. but jianyu taught me how.. haha.. tat was a nice one.. they say i keep on taiko ball drop into the hole.. haha!! then noko came.. i dun wan tok to him le.. he actually smoke... its not i dun like ppl who smoke.. even if jj smoke i also will hate him.. it's the matter of your age you see... haiz.. nvm abt it.. i juz dun like it.. haix.. forget it lar.. i wont tok to him so recently le.. he really makes me mad.. so today was a boring one.. listening to the Peace and Smile Carnival de raido programme.. Kai was the DJ!! XD XD XD i dunno why but i juz lurve Kai more and more!! thanks to Vics for letting me notice him more then ever.. ^^ ^^ he is really cute already.. i dun find him noisy anymore!!! okok.. i write until here.. ね。。じゃ～待ったよ～～～ヽ（＾∀＾）ゝ

2006-06-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm getting crazy sooner or later.. XE XE XE XE XE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wan go back for dnt!!! I DUN WAN!!!!! I MEAN IT!!!!!!! I HATE TAT ROOM!!! I HATE PPL TO NAG AT ME!!!!!!! I HATE PPL TO PIN-POINT MY WORK!!!!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.. today.. the whole day was doing dnt.. i feel like i'm going to get depression sooner or later.. geezgeez.. feel like crying anytime lor.. freaking mrs hong.. made me do so many thing.. i STOOD infront of the STUPID IDIOT BUFFING MACHINE for almost 1H!!!! and she still said my workpiece not bring enough.. STUPID LOR!!! purposely dun wan me , gordon and martin do together de leh!!! idiot!! idiot!!! T_T................ i really very tired.. really very already... i dunno wad i can do le... Vics is appearing all in my mind.. T_T he made my burned my workpiece.. stupid him.. anyway last nite i dreamt of vics a lil.. and later ALL the rest of my dreams are jj.. =_=... kowaii ne? haha.. worst i dreamt him hugging meee... MORE KOWAII!!!!! LOL anyway.. end here.. ja matta ne~

2006-06-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!! lucify is in!!! XD XD XD i'm super happy now tat i'm crying!!! XD XD XD tears of joy.. xia ri feng finally out.. song yi kou qi.... anyway.. i wrote testimonial to kel and vics.. shinya and kuek probably tml.. and not.. zettai NOT misaki.. XP.. lolx! bad bad.. anyway.. vics broke my heart sia.. T_T... he is married.. sad.. i'm juz sooooo sad... hey!! nv leave a chance for me... i'm so heart broken le.. ma jiam like last time jj got gf also.. wa.. like stab one chopping knife in my heart.. 痛い..ざいったい痛いです.... T_T でも、如何して好き？何でだめきらい？もやめってよ... T_T... anyway.. toking back... shinya smile melted me.. =) yup yup.. kel coolness too.. XD totally melt.. and kuek!! i squek when i saw him.. XD XD XD XD XD XD!!! KAWAII NEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ ^^ ^^

anyway.. toking today.. i was walking to sch.. i saw yu.. XD said halo and bye! lolx! then walking past bball court.. I SAW JJ.. suai suai suai.. later went to canteen with jianyu, jj again.. and i said suai ga ai si ar.. i think he heard it.. =P not on purpose.. but if you dun like me.. stop hanging infront of me.. domo arigatou.. then a maths was suxy.. lolx.. and dnt.. really nth to do.. but almost finished my artefact.. simin was rather a burden.. lolx.. cant be nice to her.. if not she will stick to you.. like going home tat time.. i walked with cho aik they all and she went her own way.. then i took the bus alight one stop later.. then 14 came.. simin came too.. i went up the stairs.. so does she.. and i sit behind and she sat infront.. then i was like listening to my discman and she spoiled my music world AGAIN.... and know wad she say? "tok with me leh.." in chinese.. and so.. she does the toking.. and i was... "hmm" "ar..." de.. firstly.. i dun like ppl to tok to me when i am listening to discman.. this depends on my mood.. if i'm ok.. then tat's fine with me... secondly... i dun like ppl to tok to me abt tis i DUN like.. thirdly.. went i'm tired.. BUZZ OFF... all of this above.. if i'm in a good mood.. then i'm fine with it.. serious and i mean it.. if not see my face.. if it's black or no expression.. BUZZ OFF... totally.. plz..

2006-06-04T10:18:00.000+08:00

ok.. b4 i start.. i wanna say.. this is all a dream ok? dun take it too seriously... XD well wad a nice dream i had ytd... =P

last nite.. i dreamt of some lucify members, some 4/3 ppl.. and 1 lucify's fan.. =P jux to COMFIRM again... i dun OWN anyway in my dream.. (perhaps i do.. my ah bu.. lolx!!) ok.. here goes my dream.. b4 i forget it (i dun think i will)
first let's see.. i was in a room with my ah bu.. she is doing her work and i lie on the sofa (the sofa quite big.. =P) to do my holy shit dnt... lolx.. then some 4/3 ppl, like weichang, marcus came in.. and they somehow took their bags from the sofa.. (some of the conversation i forgot le so ps..) then when jj came in, he was searching for his bag.. and when my ah bu(forgot to say.. she is jasmine.. not my real ah bu) looked at me, i saw a hand from behind came infront of me and took his bag, well of coz tat's jj la.. but when i turn tat time.. i was like accidently touched jj.. XD XD XD XD ok then some parts skip skip skip coz i dunno wad happens.. then it came to last time my tampines house below.. i was with a girl call stefy.. if i'm not wrong.. she is a crazy fan of misaki and shinya.. then i had no idea why i was back in my old flat.. and it seems to be like stefy owns it.. then we stood around.. chit chating.. then later kel pop out of no where and join in the chat (i didnt dreamt of kuek coz he is in yu's dreamland.. lolx!! to yu: you got 1 i got all!! XD XD XD) then misaki and kel left.. and it only left with shinya and vics.. then stefy came along and drag shinya and vics to have a sit.. (well from tis time onwards.. i really really really dun own anyone here ok? =P some parts it's like.. sorry to make the fans angry.. demo gomene..) then i sit beside shinya.. (me, shinya stefy then vics) hmmm... then we were watching tv i guess.. and shinya fall asleep.. lolx.. and i saw asleep too.. (i fall asleep on shinya's shoulder!! lucky me~~~ XD XD) then later for no reason i woke up and i saw stefy cuddling with vics.. but he doesnt seems to like it... and vics shove her off and moved to a corner to sit.. and stefy give me tat "hey, shinya is mine at first ok!" then ok fine.. i left shinya and stefy lied on shinya's shoulder and slp.. (shinya is still slping..) then vics say he wanna go already.. he not waiting for shinya.. (perhaps he was scare of stefy?) then later i told him i go down with him... coz we live at 13th storey.. then when it came to the 10th.. a lady came in.. i actually wanted to tell vics something... (i think i bought my real heart question into my dreams too.. i wanna ask him if he wans me to make wallies for him.. [sorry if this is stupid..] and ask him if he still have gf.. XD) but this lady came in and she was making a fuss of how vics style his hair.. lolx.. and when we got out of the lift, vics sat on somewhere and i stood beside him.. (well he sat on something tat is taller.. not like those normal sit height..) and he start asking me abt stefy.. but i dunno why i know abt her so much.. so i juz pour out to him everything i could... then later.. the most embarrass thing came.. he asked me wad iszzit like to like a person.. and straight.. i dunno why.. the sence of last time the grad nite came again.. tat part where i blushed and looked away from jj went he came to give the card.. lolx! and i told him the same thing too.. erm if i'm not wrong i phrase it in something like in chinese ar.. 'if you like someone, your face will turn red everytime you see him or her, and you tends to feel like running away to hide of something ba?' and he was like still siting there.. until stefy came out of the lift with shinya.. and she gave me the "Hmph" sound and walked away with shinya.. =P then later me and vics went off tat time (to the bus stop) a lil girl ran passed me.. and held my hand.. and a stupid obasan came and hit my hand.. when i was like being hit by her, my hand went up in the air.. and guess wad? vics held my hand!! ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ okok.. tis is a dream tat i dun own... haha.. anyway.. it's kindda real.. coz when i woke up.. i was like.. i still can feel vics the hand still there.. XD XD i guess mayb i think too much abt vics le!! HAHA~~

2006-06-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha~~ actually i really sian.. i'm trying to cut down the times i go to friendster to see kel's, shinya's and vics' profile.. (well i like kuek's walli.. [looks like saga] but his profile nth de.. misaki.. hmm forget it la hor? =P) actually feel kinda miserable to look at their friendster all the time.. >=P anyway.. i change my friendster to view who watched my profile.. and if i watched other ppl profile my name will be seen too.. so... to prevent ppl to see me view their profile too oftenly.. i change it to not to view ppl's profile anonymously.. haha clever me.. anyway.. juz wenta my profile to see hu viewed on me.. i actually changed my walli into Kai's one.. =P kai's photo is getting hotter and hotter!! XD XD XD he actually is look good rite now!! haha~~ i didnt know tat Kai is actually the leader of Gaze.. i always tot it was either Ruki or Urha is the leader.. well Kai is a person who can take on responsiblity.. =) but he always say he didnt do it good.. he said tat Ruki is always pulling Gaze from in front and Kai is pushing them from behind.. hmmm i tot i shouldnt say this.. but this is how i feel.. he is a great leader.. though he dun show the leader strength.. but no matter wad.. i still lurve him as wad he is today.. Kai is Kai... no one can change him... ne? Yukkun~~? =) anyway.. back to where i was juz now.. i was viewing my profile.. and i saw someone who viewed my profile.. damn happy over it... see this!

haha!! yup yup.. i know the first one is candy.. look at tat second one!! XD XD XD it's Vics~~~ でも、ちょっと待ってくらさい... wad am i so happy abt? hmmm if he viewed my profile because of Kai.. i will keep Kai to myself.. XP but! i doubt it is.. =P anyway.. 2 strange strange ppl viewed mt profile too.. no idea who they are.. =P.. anyway.. ytd me and xiujuan was fliping through the mag I... lolx.. and he say Vics look like jj.. lolx!!... well i think he DO look like some how.. tall.. dark.. the face shape.. it's JUZ tat.. he isnt tat tall as jj.. =P.. but Vics has his good point too!! ^^ he knows how to play drum.. unlike jj hu onli knows how to dance para.. LOL!!! anyway!! Vics look much better then him.. ぜったいハンサム!! XD XD XD!!! ok.. i shall write until here now.. じゃ～待ったね！！！（＾▽＾）ゝ

2006-06-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm anyway.. i was thinking i'm not going to post today.. but haha.. since i'm here.. might as well make a fast about wad happen today...

gordon tat idiot.. i'm going to make him pay.. he made me came all the way to sch at 8.. i slpt at 4++ this morning.. and woke up at 6.. (suprisingly.. i woke up myself.. thinking again.. "why didnt mum call me? oh ya.. it's holiday.." i think i have been thinking this all this while in the morning.. LOL) and on the way to sch.. i tot something was not rite.. (my 6th sense again...) i smsed cho aik.. and he tell me the thing starts at 1.30.. =_=''' alrite.. so on the way to sch.. Noko call me.. (gomene..the actual word for cat in jap is Neko.. i heard it wrongly.. [all Tora's fault..] Noko is a saw.. a saw for sawing wood.. saw..) he was on his way to sch.. and i saw many ppl taking phys tys.. and i guess the rest of the moment i have been thinking of wad le rite? lolx.. anyway.. Noko and I rushed to sch.. he didnt slpt last nite coz his working place there.. someone counted wrong sum of $$$... haha.. so he didnt get to slp.. (i was about to give him morning call when he called me..) then papa called me too.. he was on his way to sch.. all gordon fault la!! idiotic.. i'm going to make him vote for lucify this coming monday too.. then E maths was like.. wtf.. xinyi keep asking me question lor.. i feel like i'm doing it for her sia.. f.. i'm not going e math remedia again sia.. idiot.. later before A maths.. i went out with xiaoyin to mama shop.. lolx.. i bought mag I coz inside got superband.. X3 aka lucify~~~~ haha.. anyway.. we met xiujuan on the way.. and we saw nuan nuan at the front gate.. lolx!! then there's bball match.. reminds me of last time sia.. me and my laopo fu er always watch.. lolx!! anyway.. past is past stop thinking over it.. a maths was rather sian too.. spaming all the things i saw last nite to xiujuan.. lolx.. some ppl are jux more crazier then me.. lolx.. posters posters everywhere.. (tat person wenta took a pic of her room.. all posters, cds. photobooks.. anyway she sold many of them.. coz she's moving to tyoko..) later.. mr lee came in and dismiss us.. sian.. then me, gordon, martin, choaik, jianyu and jiao went to 85 to eat our lunch.. the lime water was rather too sour and sort of makes me wanna puke.. lolx!! then we went back tat time.. all are in single line file.. lolx.. all walk back in one row.. lolx!! then at workshop was rather sian sian too.. haha.. i hate mrs hong to nag at me.. i dun like tat.. anyway.. i juz completed 20%++ of my artefact.. mrs hong change my artefact again.. tat's wad i dun like.. i took a long time to understand my previous artefact and now you wan me to think another one? funny sia you.. so i start working on it.. lolx.. then yong xiang was way too far lor.. all his project is jianyu, martin, gordon and I do one sia.. but still most credits goes to jianyu.. and martin.. he is way too far lor.. you N lvl wan us to help you do your paper a not? idiot sia.. then after cho aik left.. jianyu cont to do his artefact.. i was slacking around.. (opps..) gordon and martin go look at Kai's work.. is like he is so freaking stupid!!! we juz left him for a moment.. and he was like sitting there and STARE into space.. then mrs hong scolded him lor!! wait a minute ar.. TAT GUY.. he didnt attend E maths remedia.. he got no freaking A maths.. and mrs hong still say he is tired.. HEY HEY HEY!!! the ppl who are tired is US you know? NOT HIM!!!! i'm SOOOOO fustrated with him... and i ignored wadever he ask me.. he was like asking when is the e maths remedia.. and went he touched my shoulder (he got a habbit of patting ppl's shoulder when toking..) i was like dodge away and say i dunno.. i nv attend.. i know nth.. freaks me off man this type of guy.. next time you do finish your bussiness you ask your wife to wipe your butt for you meh? INDEPENT!!! i'm saying it.. when martin and gordon is getting their project.. they are NOT NOT NOT going to help him anymore.. anyway.. he came for dunno how many days le lor.. idiot... tat's all for today i think.. oh ya.. on the bus.. there are a BUNCH of female monkeys aboard the bus.. i have NO IDEA wad they are trying to do (all younger then me.. so should i say, smaller in size?) they pissed many ppl on the bus lor.. the two old couples dun seems to be bother with them.. anyway.. they are crazy lar.. trying to imagining things.. stupid.... dunno how to behave ar.. monkeys... then we i was about to alight i stood up and 2 of the girl were blocking my way.. and i was already pissed off by them and if they are not letting me cross.. i'm prepared to say SIAM LA to them.. anyway.. i gave a stare to one of the girl and she let me cross.. (all shorter then me.. no need see) then i alight tat time.. i saw my bro.. and the monkeys alight same as me lor.. still laughing and giggling away.. and when i reached home.. i dun care about how my lang sound.. went my bro open the door.. my mother was there and i told her rite into her face in chinese those bunch of girls very xia lan.. my mother hardly heard me use tat xia lan unless they are pissing me off.. anwyay.. they really pissed me off...

ok.. i juz read some new over Gazette.. lolx.. they have this funny interview on letters A - Z .. i'm listing some of the funny things they said.. LOL!!

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A - APPEARANCE: Band formation

REITA
When Uruha and I were in a band together, Ruki was a drummer in another local area (Yokohama).

URUHA
Then, when the band that we were in disbanded, Ruki's band was coincidentally in a bit of trouble, so he got us to join in.

REITA
But that band disbanded too.

URUHA
Ruki and Reita and I were left...

RUKI
That was one band before Gazette. From that band I became a vocalist, but... how many months did it last?

REITA
Three months (laugh).

RUKI
So the three of us were like "so what'll we do?" and started to look for other members.

REITA
We decided that the next band we formed wouldn't disband.

RUKI
And we said, "If this doesn't work out either, it'll be the end of our band!"

MATSUMOTO
And this is where Aoi-kun comes into the picture?

AOI
After I went to Tokyo I formed my second band there, but my drummer stole three of my members away! Obviously that band separated. I was actually uninvited by these guys ^{(referring to other members of Gazette)}! (laugh)

RUKI
That's because at first Reita said 4 members were enough (laugh). But when we have guitar solos it sounds weak without backing. So with that, we had to search alot.

AOI
And there was like a candidacy sign in front of me, right?

RUKI
And then because the world was so small, we got the guitarist from Kai's previous band.

REITA
But eventually we refused that one,

RUKI
So we thought, "Then, wouldn't it be good to get the guitarist from the band of the drummer that we invited?" And we asked Aoi-san. He was the coolest in that band too. So we actually gathered in the studio, and it ended with "Oh! He's good! Join us!"

KAI
As for me, when my previous band had decided on disbanding, I first thought, "What should I do next?" I've never started a band from zero myself, so somewhere in my mind I was thinking "For the next band I'll just join too" (laugh). And then when I saw a Gazette live I thought "how cool~". But they'd already got all their members, so I thought it was impossible for me to join. Then one day I got information that Gazette's drummer was retiring. I exchanged numbers with Ruki from meeting him at a session before, so I gave him a call.

B - BASSIST: Reita

URUHA
His blood type is A, but he's not an A-type person at all. He's kinda like an A-type with a hole?

RUKI
He kinda like has some B-type mixed in him. His obstinacy and proper way of doing things makes him like an A-type, but while he's stubborn he also has that "whatever's okay" feel.

KAI
In a good way, there's a part of him that really treats the "mood" very importantly.

RUKI
With everything he's always going "isn't it fine?" He's not the type to go "what to do..." and think about something forever.

KAI
But I've been saved by that "mood" many times. I'm the type who thinks about things to a difficult level, so he's always telling me "You always think too much about things in a difficult way".

RUKI
Ah, he did say that.

KAI
Also, he stumbles alot when he talks (laugh).

REITA
I just say out whatever comes to mind so it's not stumbling! (laugh)

C - CONTACT (communication)

MATSUMOTO
Between phone calls and e-mail ^{(usually refers to text messages)} , which one's used more often?

RUKI
I guess it's mail. (All but Kai nod)

KAI
I'm lousy at mail. I feel it's faster just saying things, so I just call.

REITA
I'm the opposite; I hate calls. The reception at my place is bad, so if I don't do this (makes like he's pressed against the window) at the window, I don't get any reception, so that's quite tough. (bitter laugh)

AOI
Communication among the members... if it's about anything except a small meeting regarding work, then I guess it's by phone. If the contents are something like "there's too many to remember, right?" then it'll be by mail.

MATSUMOTO
By the way, do you use emoticons and such in your mail?

URUHA
Besides Reita, everyone does. If he uses them, it's like he's forcing himself to use them. (laugh)

D - DRUMMER: Kai

RUKI
He gives the feeling that he's really good at looking after people, but he's a little restless.

REITA
He's really watchful of things around him, but he isn't very watchful of himself, or more like he forgets a lot of things. To the point where I think "Is he sick?!"

AOI
Kai doesn't take care of himself, and even when he's on the phone he gives off the feeling as though he's really in a rush. (laugh)

URUHA
He seems to be constantly using more energy than other people do.

AOI
He makes me think "Relax, relax!" (laugh)

URUHA
He's prone to worrying, so he tends to think negative thoughts.

RUKI
I think it'll be good if he takes things easier. It's like he's going to die early (laugh). But as expected of the leader, he's number one with doing things properly, isn't he.

REITA
He's really responsible. Especially since he's become the leader, I think he's gotten stronger.

G - GUITARIST: Uruha & Aoi

MATSUMOTO
What kind of person is Uruha-kun?

RUKI
A typical O blood-type person. A nonchalant person.

REITA
He seems the type that won't run away even if a big earthquake hit.

URUHA
I'd run too! (laugh)

KAI
He totally doesn't have that disorganised kind of image. He takes things at his pace too much, or something. So much so there are times we think "Hurry up a little, man."

URUHA
You guys rush too excessively!

REITA
It's not like he thinks about his own pace, it's more like it just naturally happens that way.

RUKI
That's why if we see something as relaxed, he probably sees it as being rushed. (laugh)

REITA
But surprisingly he has a passionate side too. When I got injured at a Live at Nagano, he said he'd "go properly notify" my parents.

MATSUMOTO
Well then what about Aoi-kun?

ALL
(saying in unison) He's like an A-type person.

RUKI
He's got the spirit of a true artiste. Like a red-pen teacher? Kinda like "Teacher, I've done it!" "Okay, not good."

ALL
Is that what a red-pen teacher is like!? (laugh)

REITA
Not just with music, but with anything he does, he's always severe or conscientious. For example, if I need help with moving, I'll definitely ask Aoi-san. Because he'll move things so that no one hits the shelf or something.

KAI
I know, I know!

RUKI
He concerns himself with things it's like a "This looks like someone could hit it and get hurt, so I'll paste tape on it", kind of consideration. And when anyone hits the shelf he gets super pissed. (laugh)

AOI
Actually that's exactly why. (laugh) If I'm moving things and someone gets hit I'll go 'What the hell you doin'!

RUKI
He gets angry easily.

MATSUMOTO
Even if it's not your own equipment?

AOI
Ah no, only when it's my own equipment. (laugh)

URUHA
That's why Aoi-kun's equipment all look brand new.

REITA
But his place is totally messy...

AOI
I'm just bad at cleaning up my own room. I've got a lot of laundry, but it's not to the point of how I carry shelves. (bitter laugh)

K - KARMA (fate): Do you believe in a previous life?

RUKI
I don't believe in that.

KAI
I don't believe it either.

AOI
Uhhhm.... I'm also on the non-believer side.

REITA
I definitely believe! I record "Aura Spring" every week.

URUHA
What was your previous life?

REITA
Well... Napoleon... or something?

URUHA
I don't believe in a previous life either, but I'd like to be Oda Nobunaga

ALL
(laugh)

REITA
I think people change by being reborn! That's why one day someone like Spiritual Counsellor Ehara(Hiroyuki)-san will say to me, "YOU were once a bassist in a band called Gazette"!

URUHA
hen wouldn't a person who's changed by a rebirth go "ARE YOU SERIOUS! (CRY)" ?

ALL
(burst out laughing)

REITA
No, such a guy will think it's okay because he's been reborn. Like once in a while we see people on TV who have memories from their previous lives, and I believe everything they say.

RUKI
Seriously!?

REITA
But there are people who can speak some sort of foreign language since childhood, right? You can't not believe that it's because of a previous life.

MATSUMOTO
I wonder what job Ehara-san had in his previous life. He said it was related to what he's doing now, didn't he.

REITA
Yes, yes that's it!

RUKI
As I look on I think it's amazing, but I still don't believe.

REITA
Then I'll set you up to meet Ehara-san.

RUKI
Do you know him personally or something! (laugh)

M - MUSIC: Your first encounter with musical instruments

KAI
I'm not boasting or anything but it's kinda been in me since I was born. My parents were piano teachers, so there was always music in the house.

URUHA
So you're a thoroughbred??

KAI
(laugh) That's why it took time before I woke up to music. It was already natural in my environment, so I didn't think I'd want to do music myself.

MATSUMOTO
So why the drums, then?

KAI
My encounter with drums was fate. I've heard many sounds (from instruments) since I was a kid, but I never really had the opportunity to listen to drums. But when I was in my second year of junior high my mum brought me to a jazz concert, and it was love at first sight with the drums.

AOI
My elder brother played the guitar, and when I watched him I'd think he looked so cool. Right then I'd decided, "Guitar's the only one." The electric guitar's cool, because it can produce so many different sounds.

MATSUMOTO
Your brother likes western-style metal music, right?

AOI
Yes. It's because of that that I'm like that too. Well even now I still like that style, though. (laugh)

RUKI
I guess mine was also because of my older brother. My brother also likes heavy metal... so I remember listening to bands like X, Iron Maiden or Halloween. At that time, the CD jackets were primarily illustrations. A part of me liked that dangerous image. I would take those CDs out of my brother's room without telling him just to listen to them. Somehow my brother had the drumsticks of Higuchi-san (Loudness) and YOSHIKI-san (X JAPAN). I didn't know those things were on sale, so I thought he got them from a Live, and I always borrowed them without permission (laugh), and would get so caught up with playing them while I watched videos in my room. At that time there was a cultural festival at my school, and my friends decided, "Let's do a (SEX) PISTOLS cover", so I lost at janken ^{(rock, paper, scissors)} and had to do drums (laugh). My brother had a guitar too, but I thought it was too difficult and ther was no way I could play it.

REITA
What was I thinking, suddenly in my second year of junior high I thought, "I'd be cool if I could play the guitar". I was without knowledge, so thinking I couldn't play an electric guitar at home, I bought an acoustic. But I didn't know how to play that, and I soon stopped, and bought an electric (laugh). Around that time the friends around me also started to play the guitar, so we exchanged information here and there, but it was so hard, in the end I got sick of it. But about the time I bought the electric guitar, LUNA SEA was on TV and watching them I thought, "I wanna be in a band!" So next I planned on getting a bass. In the past I couldn't even follow the sound of bass on CDs. So I thought "If it's a bass, even if I make mistakes I won't be found out", and with such an impure motive I started the bass. But you could say I woke up when my friends and I first did a cover of a song. Uruha was with me at that time, and I thought "Hey it's actually fun!" From then on I was completely absorbed, and covered many many songs every day.

URUHA
I was also influenced by listening to LUNA SEA in my second year of junior high. But it wasn't because I had no power for action that I decided to buy a guitar. My friends who had guitars let me hold their guitars, and through that I came to think guitars are nice. That's the gist of how it started.

P - PRAYER: What are you wishing for right now?

RUKI
I'm not changing my mind, it's to be continue with the band forever. Also, that relationships won't sour among the band members. And there are those who are changing aren't there. I can only wish for them to not exist... What should I do? It's like my personality's become really bad.

REITA
Eh? Don't concern yourself with that.

ALL
(laugh)

KAI
As long as we five are together, nothing's going to change. For example, if each of us were to be doing our own solo activities and happen to involve others, there'll probably be another side of us surfacing.

RUKI
Recently I've really been worried about what's gonna come in the future. Right now I'm thinking "We only live once, so it's fine as long as we enjoy ourselves". But I'm really thinking "What'll I do without the band..?" It's my last band after all, so I'd want to do this until I become an old man.

REITA
If the band is taken away, there's nothing much we can do.

KAI
I want all our fans to understand our feelings. There's definitely parts that we cannot express enough. I want the fans to understand us, and to become one with us. There are some things that can't be communicated with words, aren't there? That's why it'll be good if we can do that at Japan Budoukan.

AOI
For now, my wish is for the Tour to end with no problems.

REITA
The band is number one to me too, but there a lot of things I want to do. Like riding a Harley. Or like being good at skateboarding.

RUKI
Those are pretty small wishes. (laugh)

REITA
Anyway I'll wish that I want to do all the things I want to do.

URUHA
I... don't want to die.

ALL
!! (laugh)

KAI
That kind of uttering reply is so likey of you. (laugh)

URUHA
But I really think that way. I can't die now. But when I lie down to sleep there are times when I suddenly think, "What'll I do if I die". When I think of that I get scared.

REITA
Are you okay? Should I like... bring you to Disneyland or something? It'll be good to visit the Land of Dreams ^(Disneyland) at least once, right?

ALL
(laugh)

S - SORROW: Something that was sad.

RUKI
The saddest thing recently, was the day before our starting live at Shibuya AX, there was a funeral for the girl who let us use Lo-d. It was so sad my tears couldn't come out. I was shocked, you see...

ALL
(nod in agreement)

RUKI
Somehow, you know. When there's a death of someone close to you, you feel it the most.

ALL
(silent for a while)

REITA
Can I say something deep too? It was received from a friend of a fan: "I have a friend who like Gazette, who really likes Reita so much his picture is on her cell phone display screen...". It seemed that girl was seriously ill, and even though she was in hospital she kept listening to Gazette songs, and when she was discharged I think she wanted to come to a Gazette live, but that girl passed away. It was my first time hearing of any of our fans passing away, so I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I wanted to let the other fans know that "one of our friends is gone", but I didn't know what to write in the diary, so I didn't write anything. So I'd like to take this opportunity to say... even if we're reborn and changed, it'll be nice if everyone remembers Gazette.

V - VOCALIST - Ruki

REITA
You never know what's he's thinking.

KAI
In fact, it's because you never know what he's thinking inside.

RUKI
Are you saying I'm scheming!? Please stop!

KAI
I don't mean that! (laugh) I mean you're a mysterious person.

REITA
It's cheap talk, but he's a guy who joins me when I act like an idiot. That's a lifesaver (laugh). But because of that I always pretend not to hear Uruha when he talks to me. But for an idiot, to react is... what kind of hearing does he have, I wonder. (laugh)

URUHA
The kind that can't hear anything else but funny talk, isn't it. (laugh)

KAI
.... but I think the one who's really pulling Gazette along is Ruki. He's always looking ahead, coming up with plans and stuff. Sometimes he's just one step in front of everyone else. I'm the leader, but it's more like I'm pushing the band from behind, and Ruki's pulling it from the front.

URUHA
Yea. In fact, when we're stuck thinking "what do we do now?" it's Ruki who strikes. And when he does a plan just comes up. Like poof.

RUKI
Like a written oracle. (laugh)

***************
anyway.. the letter S one.. Reita really made me cried.. lolx.. his words touched me a lot.. haix.. i will rmb Gazette forever!! ^^ anyway.. late le.. ja ne!!

2006-06-02T03:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. still not slp yet.. wakka.. thinking abt my stupid dnt.. it's driving me crazy.. i should have choose art.. art no need to study wad.. why didnt i think of tat in the first place? stupid me.. anyway.. was thinking abt my stupid artefact here.. cant get to slp.. not intending to slp either... i hope someone can juz be accompany by myside.. anyone.. keeping me busy.. keeping me awake.. it seems like the coffee isnt doing the magic today.. wherelse the fan is breaking the curse... it's making me more and more tired.. now my bed is filled with PAPERS!!! argh.. it's so dark now.. i dunno where i should slp.. T_T... anyway.. i made my effort to post in SG jrock, Batsu and Occult Proposal.. haha.. from Batsu first.. I found out tat Reita is selling his desgined ring.. it's ￥24,150... convert to sing currency.. it's S$340+... haix.. i wish i could buy it.. it's rather nice la.. but the name is a little strange... =_=.. dunno wad no name coffin.. nice one Reita-sama..

tat's to prove reita did tis.. =P

the front view of the ring...

the left view.. (i dun even know how they know which is left or rite.. funni..)

the rite view of the ring.. (there it goes again..)
adn Reita.. so are SOOO good.. you are making the fans going crazy over the ring you desgin.. nice work.. lolx.. i wish i could get one.. way too ex.. anyway.. i post this is SG jrock too.. i'm advertising for Reita-sama.. so i wish he could give me one too.. haha.. jk.. =P... anyway... at Occult Proposal.. it seems like someone is doing cosplay on Alice Nine's Akatsuki PV de costume.. lolx.. it looks kinda nice.. =P i like Tora one the most.. not becoz it's Tora's but the desgin is reall nice..

look at this.. Tora's and Saga's.. nice iszzit it? =)

this is a bad one.. stupid photographer.. made them squeeze together.. =_='''
haha.. i dun like Hiroto's look kinda plain.. and dun bother metioning Nao's too plain to get ppl to notice it too.. hmmm and later i went to SG jrock forum... =_=.. everyone is kinda dead there.. i was the only one posting.. anyway.. i found all the lucify member de account there.. Shinya was the monderator.. wow.. haha.. and kuek and vics were there posting too.. =) misaki was in too.. but he didnt post.. and naughty kuek went to create a account as kel.. =_=''' lolx.. anyway.. it's juz dead there.. and i manage to use some of my pathetic jap to translate the first para of reita's ring thingy.. no idea wad the hell it's toking.. coz i dun buy rings.. =P so dun ask for details.. haix.. really i'm totally sux at translating things.. well should visit more often on SG jrock.. really dead there... haix~~~~~~ gotta catch up!! i'm laggin behind.. ok.. gotta go.. ja ne...

2006-05-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

hai.. today i woke up by myself.. haha.. i dunno wad happened.. but i cried in my dream last nite.. tat was bad bad.. 2 time this month.. haha.. but i think is something happen in sch?.. lolx.. coz i dreamt of jj.. lolx.. part of my dream was funny.. lolx!! i heard mr teo call jj monkey!! HAHAHA XD XD XD i dunno to laugh or to get angry.. but anyway.. i laguhed in my dreams.. HAHAH!!! anyway.. today i was quite an awful day.. i went to find qianhui.. but she wasnt there.. in stead i saw chen yu.. and me and chenyu went to sch together.. on the way (oh.. forgot to say, i took the same bus as simin), i saw simin sitting there.. chenyu didnt wait for me.. wth... anyway.. it was weekiat who notice her.. but the moment i came he was said so loud, "oh she got ppl to take care le" and juz shove his hands off her!!! any guys out there can be more SENSIBLE!???????? but suprisingly.. johnathan (express) he was much worried abt simin too.. haha.. this is wad i call a true guy.. anyway.. tat inciddent spoiled my music world... i didnt touch my discman for the pass 1 week!! XE... but forget it.. anyway.. when i walk in to the sch tat time.. i KNEW something was not rite.. i saw a bunch of boys sitting outside the canteen.. (somewhere near the put plates there) i was looking and looking and AH-HA! I KNEW IT! my sixth sense told me jj was there and indeed he was.. and staring into space.. the moment i saw him.. i change my view to up stairs.. and i saw lowti.. =P hahah!! and he spoke something to me.. i forgot wad iszzit.. but i laughed.. =) haha~~ then i saw mr lee.. told him wad happen.. lolx.. i feel like i'm a lil retard.. lolx.. mr lee told me 3B.. and i was ABT to go to 4B and i forgot 3B is at second lvl.. silly me.. haha~~ hmmm.. then i drag huikiang with me.. but kpo xiaoyin came along too... later then we help simin flag cab and she went home.. =P later the class was without mr lee.. lolx.. everyone was like slacking.. then qianhui keep pouring me songs from her aunt's mp3.. wad a NICE song man... got DOREMON, KANG KANG, FAYE WONG.. all old songs lor... but old songs are nice sometimes.. lolx!! then mr lee came.. and he made us stay.. haix.. then during the break.. me and xiujuan were like standing at the window.. and we saw tat bitch.. haha.. and she sits down i squat down.. later she came in the class, she sits with martin they all but they nv tok to her.. =P waad a nice one.. then yu came!! she bought me the tora chocolate.. haha.. not tat nice.. but the game is fun.. XD XD XD XD thanks yu!! ^^ ^^ ^^

later me and mel accomany yu to inter.. haha!! we went to buy sushi.. and met hong kee and cai man.. later we went to guradian and bought water.. =P then to NTUC.. to look at wine.. haha.. yu is going to ask her cousin's friend weather the lucify guys got smoke.. nice one sia yu~~ but we already know misaki smoke.. actually i know it long ago.. i heard from ppl blogs.. haha they saw misaki lighting a cigratte.. so wad's the big deal hmm? anyway misaki was a poor thing too.. haix.. went he says he dun have gf.. ppl juz shot him with bad words... and when he says he got gf, ppl tends to be heart broken.. hmmm.. i dunno why ppl juz can appreciate their songs.. they got the talent like gaze and alice.. they got the gut to try jrock.. why not juz give them support? and plz plz plz.. stop all those nonsense for those ppl who dun like lucify.. shoo shoo shoo get off their live pest!!

to yu: i knew it!! misaki sure have gf i think.. but i know mayb it's hard to find misaki post.. so i'm posting it here fer you to read.. wad misaki has said to the 2 idiots who pull lucify down.. XP

copyrite from misaki

to the 1st person, i think u dun like us, no prob, but dun be so stupid...

202.172.242.86

1:Guys...I think you are in for trouble. Though I admired your guts to look gory....you ain't gonna make it far in this show.
The majority of the 'safe' audience out there won't vote for you.
Plus, Christians won't vote for you too when you picked a name that glorified their most hated enemy - SATAN.
Sly was a flop with his anry rebellious image in the end.
Enough already.
LUCIFY will fall.

2:I agreed with The Light.
LUCIFY won't be long to meet the fate of being eliminated soon.
You play with Devil, you die.

to the 2nd person, so who's ur gal fren? u say like as if i know u. lol
hidden gf, kissing, hugging in public? where do u see mi? u are more idiotic than the 1st person u know?

219.74.119.34

1:Lick my boots...lah LUCIFY!
Ugly bunch of people....not man enough and not pretty too.
Guys and gals will despise you all.
Don't ever try to get my gal friend's number ok?
She is not interested in you MISAKI.
Please lor...she already has boyfriend and you still so thick skin and thought all gals would fall for you....

2:Act cool...not cool ok...
Also MISAKI, you don't bluff lah...got girlfriend already and still don't want to keep your hands off other gals....
Go to Hell lah...
Hope, pray and curse LUCIFY OUT FAST FAST tonight!!!

3:Liar - MISAKI!!!
Got girlfreind and still dare to go around chasing after other fox...shame on you.
Ill treat girlfriend like that..she quite pretty and you simply don't care about how she is feeling just because you want other girls to be madly in love with you.

MISAKI- I don't like you as a guy anymore. You cannot be so bad to other people's feeling especially your 'hidden' girlfriend.
You think you could deny everything? Now that you are well known, of course people could recognise you with that gf of yours hugging and kissing in public....

4:...a MAN? OMG....I suspected earlier but now....OMG....

5:LUCIFY still has other guys not attached.
So let's move on and dump this MISAKI who already has a gf....
We have other members of LUCIFy to shower our hopes and loves...
Shame on you, MISAKI!

6:Got gf but pretended to be so 'free and easy'...?

7:...to be eliminated FAST and with one swift blow on their butt.
Dare you use that 'name whom shall not be mentioned'....play with devil...burn by it then...
Ugly bunch of guys...

8:When LUCIFY is eliminated...
Celebrate that finally evil cannot triumph...
LUCIFY...I want to see you SAD, DOWN and OUT tonight...
Even if you still lucky...I won't be disappointed next week...

note:if anyone wants to create trouble, and false rumours, come to me, face to face, dun like mi? approach mi. and u think by posting many diff nick will wreak havoc, everyone shall see. i wont bother to delete anything away for the moment. u have no idea of a thing call ip. wanna play with mi play smart.
p.s:thank those who have defended for us, and mi, really appreciate it. but pls do not spout devils, and do not pull in religious matters in. i bet the 2 person aint from any church or neither are they christian. do not disgrace christianity. do not speak of the devil.

we play music to those who appreciate all kinds of music.

anyway, misaki's smartness did find out the IP for the above 8 are all the same.. i didnt know which idiot did it.. but i'm sure he/she is going to be real dead....

2006-05-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

hai.. here's a new dl of myv on HEY X 3!!! lolx~~ so funny sia.. miyavi got the 6th place on the oricon chart at first appearance.. haha~~~

miyavi comes in..

gives a kiss to the audience.. XD

but was ask to sit down later.. lolx!!

the left is matsumoto and hamada
hamada ask him wad's tat on his lips.. lolx..

and miyavi shove his hands off.. lolx..

i dunno wad he means.. but he is looking down on him while saying Kawanishi city of the Hyougo

and they said his single got 6th.. =)

and of coz.. he said thank you..
and they then tok abt the song.. he wrote. (no pic.. gomene) and he said he wrote it for his friend's wedding.. but he wasnt able to attend it.. =P

then they ask why he wans to be come a musician..

miyavi answered he wans to be famous among girls..
and hamada said tat he's an idiot.. lolx!!
acutally in there written he wans to be a soccer player..

and so they ask why he wanna quit.. and myv siad he broke his bone.. lolx..

and he said tat was one of the reason why he wanna quit.. lolx!!

and when Matsumoto said myv is pissing him off.. myv gave tat laugh. lol

and Matsumoto said again, Myv is pissing him off.. lolx..

and he said, "I'm 42 years old, and it's been a long time since anyone got pissed off at me."

and they start toking abt being famous with girls.. lolx..

and they tok abt something to do with becoming a comedian...

and Myv said, "Well you two and I are in different human classification you know."

and he pissed Hamada off.. lolx!! (look at his FACE!! XD)

and he said, "Now he's pissing me off."

and while the 2 host are toking.. Myv start to rock front and back.. front and back..

and looking else where.. staring into space..

then Hamada saw it and shouted, "MIYAVI!!!"

"We are talking here!!" lolx!!!!!!!!!!

tat miyavi pissing the 2 host off was really funny!! XD XD XD XD XD nice one miyavi!!! XD and he started staring into space tat one too.. hahahahahah~~

ok.. toking abt last nite.. LUCIFY WENT IN!!! SGIH~~~~ let down a BIG BIG relief.. lolx.. i still rmb kel words.. he say he wont let the fans cried again~~ ^^ i know you will keep your promise!! XD anyway.. my sis and i were shock when xia ri feng got in... freak us off sia.. the ye qu was badly sang.. idiot.. spoil jay chou song geez... i hope ppl stop voting them plx..... arigatou.... T_T.....

2006-05-29T16:08:00.000+08:00

awwww... wad a BAD day........
so sian.. cant go out.. no where to go...
=( someone prank called me.. wadever.. it was a witheld..
when it comes to witheld, first person i thought of..
Hei Lip Jin...
then
Cheong ChenYu...
but it didnt seems to be like their voice..
so.. wadever the case.. i'm not going to meet stupid ppl at sentec..
>P zettai DAME!

last nite was my bro bday..
didnt seems to celebrate much..
kinda dull one..
papa bought cheese cake for us..
i couldnt stand the cheese taste any longer...
and it went into papa mouth.. =P
wad a waste... and it cause my stomach to be upset for the whole nite
go in cant come out... it juz rolling and groaning in my stomach...
geezgeez...
anyway.. papa went up to our room..
he played with the guitar...
songs are nice.. but i know none of them...
i actually trie playing the "wo de jia ting"
the one in wang zi bian qing wa de...
and went papa played it..
haha.. embarrass to say.. but i was kinda touch..
nv knew papa knows how to play this song too..
and the way he strum my guitar...
makes me worry too...
sounds like it's going to spoil anytime..

anyway.. bad day...
bad headache...
tonite superband...
rmb to watch...
lucify is back... <3

2006-05-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

ARGH.. stupid mozilla.. idiot.. my post was wasted!!! ARGH!!! anyway.. like i said.. tis is the 400th post!!! XD XD

last nite.. a bitch smsed and threatened me.. and she even threatened mel too.. i told another person abt it.. and he say eveyone wont side tat bitch de.. in my sms.. she said she wanna make him suffer... tat's the prove.. i'm not going to delete it until the thing is resolve... i dun care wad happen.. i juz dun like to see my pet in hurt.. i have lose him once, i wont lose him to the same person another time.. tat's the promise i made to myself.. i wont lose a same thign to the same person anymore.. anyway it seems tat everything is still find until juz now.. cho aik told me tat the bitch is looking for me... well fight on!

anyway... juz now.. i went out to the temple with my mother... then we went OG to shop.. we bought tibbits home =) ... later we went to bugis junction there.. we saw Patrickcia Mok.. lolx.. she is really pretty if you see her in person.. lolx.. but.. she sound kinda noisy.. i cant stand her.. lolx!!! then we went to buy things and went bedok.. i saw jonathan.. tat 4/2 guy... lolx... ya.. then i went to comic collection.. my mother bought me a DeathNote Tie!! ^^ arigatou!! ^^ it was nice one.. i think i will wear it some day~~ =P until more jap clothings are being bought.. =P

and a keychain tat ben bought me last time.. sort of my luck charm to me.. =)

haha.. i dun think there is more things to say... hmmm..ja ne..

2006-05-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

haha~~ juz now after sch me, yu and mel went to parkway.. lolx me and yu went there first.. coz mel wanna go home and bath.. later, we went to the pet shop.. the doggy all so KAWAII!!! X3 X3 then i heard the hamster finghting.. T_T.. i hate the sound of hamster fighting.. sound so cruel.. T_T.. then the guniea pigs all were so cute.. hahah.. then we went to the parkway mall to shop.. then mel came.. he keep calling us where we are.. i told him we are at the first level.. when actually we are at the basement.. =P we didnt realise tat until he came to find us at watson.. lolx.. then we saw the particular actor in mediacrops.. i dunno who he is but yu do.. lolx.. he looked kinda plump now but from tv.. he look kinda strong lor.. then we went to buy drinks.. haha.. and mel treat me dring milk.. =3.. later we went to 7-11.. haha.. we were so stupid finding the micro ovan.. lolx!! then we went to pet shop again.. some of the dogs woke up from their slp.. so cute.. there's one i keep on playing with him.. then no one play with him le he will bark sia.. then we look at guinea pigs.. and yu love a dog.. it seems like crying lor.. sad... T_T.... anyway we went to look around the toys... lolx!!! then we went to parkway again.. to buy yu's lunch.. haha.. smell nice.. but i didnt eat.. lolx.. then we accompany mel back to bedok interchange.. on the way back.. we slpt on each other's shoulder.. lolx.. yu on me, me on mel.. mel on..(he hope for someone.. tat someone is special.. lolx!) haha.. then went we reach.. we waited for the bus to come lor... then mel left and we head to my house..

yu stayed at my house for an hour or so.. lolx.. and i made walli for her.. lolx!! hai!! dousou...

kel

kuek
nice?? i hope it is.. =P haha.. then she went home le.. hope she is doing find!!! ^^

today morning, i didnt do duty.. lolx.. i dun quite like xiaoyin.. she is like always folo wad i do.. like last nite.. i was toking to huiwen and jianzhi they all.. she only knows huiwen only then wanna join in.. jianzhi they all is fine with that then fine lor... then today in the morning.. she still ask me weather i'm doing the duty a not then after the recess she asked me too.. hey.. it's like she is very wad lor.. i dun like ppl asking me to give stupid comments... haix.. it turth lor... i dun like means i dun like la!!! force me to say for wad.. and it's like i dun tell her hor she is like give me tat disgusting sound and call me ahma... i dun like lor.. how possible i will get this kinda friend?!!!! haix... anyway... morning tat time.. i turned around and i saw jj.. he was.. REALLY looking at me lor.. no joking.. haix.. forget it.. =P ok.. gtg..

matta ne...

2006-05-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

hai... me juz came back sia... so tired.. be had fun la.. today after sch.. me and my pet doggy went see mrs hong.. and i think tonite mrs hong is calling lijun.. lolx.. tat's her prob la... anyway... toking back.. he followed me go meet ben.. XD~ heez.. i really like tat clover.. =D didnt you know clover is my lucky charm?? =D for wad i dunno.. but it did brings me luck~~ XD XD XD tok abt tat later... lolx~~ anyway.... toking back.. mel all the way was like toking to himself.. haha.. he got depression sia.. haha.. hmm then went qianhui house.. didnt know tat it actually rains.. haha.. lilo grew a lot.. she got more and more heavy... and more and more smelly... then we stayed for a long time.. haix... then me and mel played english chess.. yeah~~ i won~~ XD haha.. i was prasing my dog in front of lilo.. lolx.. "see my dog so guai.. know how to shake hand.. you dunno ar.." lolx!! as if she understands... lolx! then later we stayed there for a long time and we went down meet chenyu they all... suddenly we saw kaiying.. she can and said in chinese.. "you accompany other ppl nv accompany lijun.." and she ran away.. and i saw lijun and kaiying in the rain sia... haix.. qianhui told me mel cried.. i dunno y too.. but hope he dun fall for the trap again.. haix... later i smsed him to comfort him of coz~~ my pet after all nia~~~and he send back a thanks you are really good... haha.. thanks a lot mel~~ my pet doggy~!! then later i went to jonathan house to get a perfume to spray.. lolx.. tat was nice.. i didnt get allergie.. went back to sch.. and i didnt tok to anyone.. until the thing starts.. haix.. so tired.. the parents came.. and lianne made me say "good evening sir/mdm, welcome to bedok green, tis way to the hall plz.." haix.. i dunno how to tok.. later after the whole thing.. tionghan made me go to 4E to help.. but ms lee rejected me.. makes me feel so hurt.. lolx!! haix.. then for the rest of the time.. i was with lianne... i nearly got depression sia... me nearly cried out becoz it's so hot.. and i'm not hungry and mr teo keep stuff me with food... ='( they force me to eat lor.. and when i tell them to eat and they dun wan.. until i really blow up a little.. then they were like "OK! OK! we take! we take!" like tat... haha...then mr teo keep walking around to stuff us with bread.. haha.. very nice of him.. he toked to me in chinese sia~~ XD XD XD then jianyu found us a piece of cardborad.. was rather nice.. and i ask zhenggang "you dote me a not?" lolx.. coz i wan him help me fan.. later fan ahbu, lianne, tionghan and jianyu.. then jj came.. ahha.. with his mother and bro i think.. lolx.. ANYWAY.. i saw allen's bro.. HE LOOK LIKE KENJI!!! lolx.. look rather shuai.. XP hahha.. jj bro too... but he's way too shorter then him... not my type... hahah~~ then he was so suai lor... last one.. lolx.. anyway.. dun say i bhb lor.. I DID I DID I DID saw him looking into my direction.. reallY!!! not joking.. today after recess too.. i looked up and saw him keep on looking at my direction... WE GOT EYE CONTACT TOO!!!!!! i was like omhs.. lolx.. argh!!! then he was like.. looking.. and looking.. until he went into the class.. he sat there also look... my eyes arent tat bad ok... then we went home at 9++ reached home 10... haix... tired...

then today.. yu told me yuanzhi was jealous i bought her the teppei book.. haha.. actually was trying to give her a clue ytd.. but sad.. i cant find the cam.. yar.. my hp is LOUSY.. i put them in.. sad... hahaha.. anyway... i drew something for yu on my geo paper.. lolx.. i dun quite like Mi.. lolx.. dun say out la.. haha.. obvious.. =P he like quite beng la... juz dun like.. hahaha... anyway.. Vics blog le.. haha.. they did recieve letters XD me wanna send too!!! but my handwriting is horri-g-ble... lolx.. ok la.. me shall stop here.. nice day with the councillot guys.. =P and my pet doggy!!! ^^ p.s. i pass my 2.4 leh!! 16.36!! go buy 4D!!! lolx!! ok.. really going.. slp.. tired like i say.. niteeeexxxx!!! ^^

2006-05-24T17:37:00.000+08:00

WA~~ haha... juz got back from tm.. didnt go to see lloyd.. no time nia.. tml then see.. mayb no too ba.. haix.. wish lloyd is better today~ XD.. anyway.. i went out at 10.30+.. hui called me and say she woke up late.. and her "beautiful" breakfast with "someone" was spoiled.. lolx.. T_T.. it's jap curry.. lolx~~ anyway.. kinda sad for her.. and i went to her house.. called crystal saying tat we will be late.. and told her if she sees tat lijun.. tell her we dunno where we are going... lolx! anyway.. i head to her house.. and she juz bathe finish lor.. and i watched her wore her contact lens and i went to her room.. her bed is so cool man... CAN ROLL ONE... =_=... lolx.. her room still got air-con.. shuang... haha.. and her table was moved to her room.. good sia... then she asked me open the door.. i went out to put on my shoes and i saw her papa.. he ask me why i sit outside.. lolx.. and her pa drove us to inter.. then we went to comic collection.. went to buy smth for yu.. (though not her birthday.. but limited de la.. i dunno she got a not sia.. if got de hua i die le lor..) then we go meet them.. we saw jiao.. athen gordon.. gordon was trying to wave to me bye bye ytd.. but i ignored him.. and today.. he waved to me.. lolx.. and he reminds me of kat-tun.. lolx tat pic was kawaii!!!

haha.. i put them in sitting arrangement.. i should put them in their name arrangement sia.. haix.. anyway.. tat's Nakamaru Yuichi aka Maru, Ueda Tatsuya, Akanishi Jin, Tanaka Koki, Kamenashi Kazuya aka Kame and Taguchi Junnosuke... haha... ok then.. we then head to safra to play bowling.. and cho aik smsed me.. haha.. then jonathan they all came.. (with chenyu and ben) then they watch us play.. the worst time i play sia.. 77.. =P i'm going to hate bowling liao... anyway during the game candy said she dunno how to play.. and i was like pei her walk there and throw the ball.. lolx.. then they play the dart.. haha.. then is like 8 round 3 times.. and 2 credits.. and they have to shoot like.. 48 times??? lolx.. and got once.. i was trying to pluck the darts out.. and suddenly crystal throw... lolx.. she scared me sia... then later we went to the mini arcade play.. so sian sia.. the game me and ben play de.. worst then dynasty warrior.. lolx... then we head to tm.. candy, crystal, chen yu and kelvin(wong) went eat.. then me, hui, jonathan and ben went to the cd shop.. then to yamaha.. kel wasnt there.. (to yu: i dun think he works every wed.. =P) then i told hui abt mel going to buy us the bass guitar and yu's guitar.. lolx.. total cost abt $2000++... lolx.. then we went toy'r'us play... then me and ben purposely act M.I.A and left her with jonathan.. a while later.. we go meet her and i took kel's psp to play.. then as they are walking i was playing.. coz it was rather boring nia.. the things they see(i mean, hui, candy and crystal) are not really those i like to see lor.. then they ask me nice a not i also dunno how to answer.. haix... anyway.. we went to a shop.. then went they came out.. i was still playing la.. lolx.. then crystal suddenly wan to lie on me and i was like "zuo shen me!!!?" and i shouted very loud.. and candy thought i got depression.. she was like say "wa, got depression ar?" and i was pretty angry la.. not with candy nor crystal la.. but i juz dun like ppl to disturb me when i was playing.. and they went to yellow... (at century square le) and they were looking at stuff lar.. and i bought earings.. lolx.. me going to pierce the 4th hole.. next time i wan pierce 4 more one my rite.. lolx.. left like aoi and toshiya, rite like uruha and ruki.. =D.. uruha got 9 piercing sia.. 4left 5 rite... lolx.. aoi got 3left, 1rite, 2mouth, 1stomach.. lolx.. sugoi desu.. lolx... i wan pierce tongue next time i graduate.. or mayb.. if only la.. i request going to jap.. lolx.. me going to pierce my mouth.. like aoi, kel and tora!! XD... ok.. back.. then we went arcade.. lolx.. we play a game dunno call wad sia.. hit until my hand so pain... lolx.. me and hui one group, crystal and candy one group.. lolx.. some games i control 4 buttons.. then some got hui help me... then later me and crystal play the car racing.. she won.. =) then watch chenyu play the initial D one.. then later ben and i found a card he told me very good de.. he gave me.. but i let him keep.. lolx!! like the ring i help him keep =D.. so it's fair now~~~ haha.. later candy and crystal went to church.. and we went to comic collection to but stuff.. ben bought me a hp chain.. =D.. my lucky charm.. it's a clover... haha.. and i hand it on my keychain le.. then i help jonathan to hand his keychain on his hp.. he was like laugh until like a lil child like tat.. so kawaii~~ haha.. then later.. we stood outside for a long time.. then chenyu wan to buy a fen yun sword.. lolx but i tell him dun buy.. coz if you nv keep properly.. the steel will become dull de... i mean.. if expose to too much air.. it will dull.. haha.. anyway.. it's ex lor.. $49.80 haha.. and he was so sad.. and went home.. then we went home too.. we nv go see lloyd... sad... haix... gomene lloyd!!

now a days.. pretty addicited to friendster liao.. haha.. all becox of kel's fault la.. lolx!!! and party mine too.. me too concern abt my walli.. lolx!!! anyway.. me need more time to stop all this nonsense.. XD ja.. matte ru~~~

2006-05-24T09:11:00.000+08:00

haha.. going out later..
to do wad? play lor
seeing lloyd.. and not forgetting buy yu things
going to make her itch over the whole place
hahaha i'm not telling wad iszzit~~
anyway..
went to friendster juz now
saw kel friendster
got my testimonial..
touched~~~~
haha.. ok lar.. i now still half a slp....
**yawn***
ja..matta ne...

2006-05-23T15:15:00.000+08:00

geez... kel hurt me a lot sia.. nv accept my testimonial.. haix.. kana stab one knife in the heart.. i think i'm buying knife from sufian le.. he selling knife at 3 for $10.. lolx.. anyway.. like wad the horo says..

Troubles may arise if Cancer feels unappreciated or ignored by Gemini. Gemini is an Air Sign, and Cancer is a Water Sign, too much Water dampening Gemini's quick wit and enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Air can blow ripples across the Water and leave Cancer tossed and tattered.

see.. dun say i always look on the bad side.. but they says tat i'm pretty friendly with Taurus and Virgo.. well.. i'm suppose tat's hui, nuan and juan ba? lolx~~ anyway.. yar la~ i'm always sticking with nuan nuan.. coz i simply juz love her so much~~ ^^ ^^ ^^ jk~ i'm not a les~~ lolx!!! today with yu was really boring.. i juz simply dunno how to get along well with alicia and crystal.. they are always with qianhui.. haha.. i really dunno wad i should think lor.. anyway.. me tml going to see lloyd.. i quarrelled with my mother sia.. i'm always at home all alone sia.. no where to go.. and they always nv scold sis and bro where they are going sia.. the time has changed le.. think mother!! THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have such an age gap between sis and bro.. at least when last time they were my age.. holidays come.. bro and accompany sis.. and sis did the same thing too.. but wad abt now? i dun think they will stand beside me and pei me lor.. you think i'm wad? princess of the house? tat's only for 1 day lor.. sis always go out and hang out with her friends.. and when bro is back form his camp, he always goes out until late 7 or 8 even 9 then come home lor.. ppl will think i got autism sia.. always stay at home facing the terrible com... i make spoil com then come and scold me.. if scolding me and be change for freedom i rather you scold me more.. so i can do wadever i like... wtf.. no matter wad i'm going out tml.. not to yamaha again.. i dun wan go already.. until he accept my testimonial.. if not i'm not going in for the rest of the months.. and ppl.. stop spoiling my mood.. i'm very depress now.. so leave me alone!!!!!

2006-05-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! LUCIFY IS FINALLY IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD~~~
firstly i wanna thanks cho aik.. for using his sms on lucify sia.. =P
secondly i wan thanks yu.. for accompany me screaming the whole nite out.. lolx.. (hyper mode)
thirdly.. i wanna thanks LUCIFY!!!! thanks for not letting me lossing hopes on you guys.. the performance juz now was really great... love you guys so much~~ ^^ ^^ the way you guys plays the music really rox my world!!! still got some more competition to go on.. hope you all will stay longer!!! i wan watch you guys play gaze song one day.. =P I'm waiting!!! ^^ ^^ ^^

p.s. kel
your that sentense really touched me alot!! ^^ hope tat lucify really does it..!!! I promise i wont cry again!! ^^ ^^ ^^

2006-05-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

kya~~ now superband sia.. but lucify is the last one to perform.. =P so waiting.. haha.. must thanks cho aik trufully!!!! haha.. if lucify didnt in tonite i also must thanks him.. hope tat i will get my own line when they in... XD anyway.. ganbatte for them!!! and **hugg** cho aik~~ ^^ ^^ ^^ ARIGATOU!!~~ XD XD XD

anyway.. today i was accompanying mel and jon at he detention area... mr chai was so naggy sia.. =P haha.. coz they nv do POA and i gana also... stupid... PEI THEM GOT WRONG MEH!!!! lolx.. anyway... today qian came back to sch... still the class with her is always so lively haha.. anyway.. mr lee didnt come today.. sian lor... haix.... then mr lim also nv come... haha.. then free period.. me and yu was talking all the way.. abt lucify i think if i'm not wrong.. and we took a pic.. =P

look closely at the pic.. it was like holy god.. the wall is craking.. lolx.. our sch is collapping soon sia.. lolx.. so many cracks.. freaks me off leh.. anyway.. today was a nice tok with yu.. and i dun think she still know how to help me massege me properly sia.. hit here hit there.. i nearly viomit blood.. lolx..

[9.24 p.m.]
lucify juz finsih performing not long ago.. nice song... but the way misaki and kel sing were very unclear.. haha.. i dun really understand wad they sing.. but tat was high!!! ^^ i sang too.. love rap made by xiaozhu~~ =P anyway.. kuek didnt sing.. sad.. and vic sang too~~ XD he cried last week.. T_T makes me wanna cry again... he is the youngest among all.. =) well good luck for today lucify~~ ^^ ^^

ねえ～じゃないって

2006-05-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

hai.. ytd i went to look up on Hideto-sama.. hie death actually makes me cry when i went to slp.. he sort of died so innocently.. and he is still so young at tat time.. 33.. haix.. anyway.. here's wad the ppl actually said abt Hide death...

Hide passed away on May 2, 1998. A roommate had rested Hide down in bed after a night of drinking, but when she went to check on him an hour later, he was not in his room. Hide was found hanged with a ripped towel in his bathroom apartment, the towel wrapped around (or tied) to the doorknob. He was barely alive when the ambulance arrived, and later died in the hospital. Hide was 33 years old. Fans across Japan grieved his death, and four attempted suicide, two of them succeeding. There is much debate as to the true nature of Hide’s death. Some say it was an accidental death, explaining that he was drunk; Hide left no suicide note. Others cite the suicide of INXS lead singer Michael Hutchence, who was reputed to have died from hanging in an attempt to gratify himself through autoerotic asphyxiation. Hide was known for performing stunts in attempts to scare others, and some suspect his death to be a stunt gone wrong.

Taiji, who played in X Japan with Hide for several years, offered a possible explanation for Hide’s death in his book X no Sei to Shi: Uchuu wo Kaeru Tomo e. He explained that after performing shows, the band members would often tie towels around their shoulders and necks to relieve muscle stress. Taiji implies that Hide had most likely tied a towel on in a manner as such (and one can subsequently assume that he had fallen against the door and was ultimately unable to free himself). Although many fans support Taiji’s suggestion, others have preferred to see Hide’s death as a purposeful incident, not wanting to see Hide’s death as an accident. These fans have speculated that his song "Pink Spider" was a musical suicide note (the song was hide’s final single and music video released before his passing; it features a woman jumping off a building to her death).

Hide’s funeral was held at the Buddhist temple, Tsukiji Hongan-ji, in Tsukiji, Tokyo on May 7th, 1998. Over 25,000 people attended. Streets were closed off, and police had to deploy boats, helicopters, 100 officers, and 170 security guards to the temple to control the emotional crowd. By the end of day, 26 people had been hospitalized for various injuries. Hide's death and funeral was announced by CNN and other TV channels around the world, despite only being a household name within Japan. The remaining members of X Japan performed "Forever Love" at the funeral, and the band leader Yoshiki gave a speech. He was crying and shaking so hard that he was struggling to hold onto the paper he had written the speech on.

Below is an excerpt: "I still can't believe it. His beautiful face is now sleeping. I've tried to wake him up again and again, but still he sleeps... it was Hide who always gave me good advice. Of course, he sometimes lost his way under various pressures — but he always called me anyway. We talked about X, life, fans... sometimes he was like my elder brother, sometimes he was like a little brother... I think all his fans and friends are confused now... I myself cannot express my feelings in words." Hide was known to be upbeat, a joker and party-loving, adding to the confusions as to why such a person would choose to escape his problems through suicide.

this is the notes i found.. but actually it's true.. i rather see Hide die for some reason other then an accidently.. it's like.. why do it have to be him? anyway.. this article i found was from a big fan of his.. hope Hide rest in peace..

2006-05-21T16:10:00.000+08:00

Good-Bye - Matsumoto Hideto
(December 13, 1964 – May 2, 1998 R.I.P)

Say good bye tada Good bye
subete no wazurawashisa ni Good bye
Say good bye tada Good bye
kawaru koto osorezu ni Good bye

Atemonaku tada aruite
tsukareta hibi no takara ni Good bye
susunde yuku michishirube wa
saisho to onaji kaze no mama ni

If you can't find a way
ikutsumono Winding road
sora ni te wo kazashite Round & Round
mada minu tochi ni fuan oboe nagara
chiisana uta ni tazuneru

Please songs tell me true
kimi no [MERODII]
doko ni itemo nari tsuzuketeiru
mata itsuka hitori mayotte mo
kikoeta nara karoyaka ni arukidaseru

Say good bye tada Good bye
kizutsuku no wo osorezu ni Good bye
te no naka no mochi kirenai
omoi wa subete sutete yukou

Please song tell me true
kimi no [MERODII]
doko ni itemo nari tsuzuketeiru
moshi dokoka hitori mayotte mo
utaeta nara shinayaka ni aruki daseru
Good bye

Translation

Say good bye, just good bye
to all your worries, good bye
Say good bye, just good bye
without fear of changing, good bye

Just walk without a path
in the treasure of tired everydays, good bye
keep going, the signpost
is like the first wind

If you can't find a way
in the many Winding roads
raise up your hands to the sky Round & Round
still in unknown lands, feeling anxiety
ask to the small songs.

Please songs tell me true
your melody keeps on playing
everywhere I go.
even if someday I get lost again
if I can hear you, I would walk on lightly.

Say good bye, just good bye
without fear of being hurt, good bye
throw away all the memories
that you can't hold in your hands

Please songs tell me true
your melody keeps on playing
everywhere I go.
Even if someday I, alone, get lost
if you sing, I would walk on elegantly.
Good bye

2006-05-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian
everyday so sian..
dunno wad to do..
hate weekends..
hate ppl who spoil my mood..
cant forget...
wasurenai de..
tatsukete...

2006-05-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

hai.. finally.. the photo is out from the master of vinvin!! lolx.. melmel is my cat.. and vinvin is yu's dog.. so went you add mel and vin together.. it becomes mel cum vin and also equals to melvin! lolx!! okok.. i'm getting on with the photos!!!

me and yu at the toy store.. =P

on the bus.. i look kinda retard.. =.=......

yu is playing with my spot..!!

tat's her hand.. =D

more of spot.. haha

and more!! lolx!!!

and yu took 1 pic of my repaired guitar... =P

haha!! i guess tat's really for today!!! matta ne!!! (my noko knows how to call me to say gudnite!! ^^)

2006-05-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

hai.. today after sch.. me, yu, mel and jonny went to yamaha again.. (but not for jonny..) first jonny's mother brought us to this strange coffee shop... her mother wan us to eat.. i was like O_o.. she sounds MORE like my mother.. my mother wont care if i ate or not.. (only if i came home.. but not meeting me from outside.. or mayb she did.. but it's after a few distance of walking.. then she ask me.. lolx) haha.. so we went to this strange coffee shop and drink only.. coz all of us dun feel like eating.. lolx.. so we drink only.. then his mother came out of the car.. and came and sit beside me and beside jonny too.. (in anticlockwise direction... mel, yu, me, mum, jonny. *i called jonny mother mum.. coz i lazy to type 'his mother') and she tok to yu.. asking her abt her name.. haha.. her name in chinese is pronoun as yi too.. lolx.. but i still prefer to call her yu~ and then mum wan us to get going already.. =P and she made us go to her car again... ahahaha... then jonny said dun tell mum abt his result.. lolx.. but only english, chinese and dnt.. lolx!!!! ok.. anyway... i killed a bee juz now.. gross.. i hate bees

later mum drop us near the tm.. and we had to walk in.. lolx.. we reached yamaha.. but kel freaks me off went he started to say to yu... "wad you wan?" and it really and totally freaks me off.. kao.. i thought he is a nice guy after all.. geezgeez.. but later i spoke to him.. haha.. hey.. my attitude changed when i know the other party has stead.. and tat's kindda an attack saying tat hey-you-better-stay-away-from-me-coz-once-i'm-jealous-i-will-rip-you-into-pieces tat type.. haha.. but he really really... is either we pissed him off.. or he is totally angry... i know neither one of it.. but.. i'm juz not happy.. later i speak up for yu.. and i smiled at him and give him tat look hey-look-we-are-not-going-to-step-into-yamaha-again tat look.. pretty pissed off.. later we went to popular.. to but sweets.. mel pretty sad abt tat _ _ _ s _ _ _ thingy.. lolx.. daijoubu... =P.. then we went to toy'rus (or wadever the sp is..) we played a lot.. ahhaa... yeah!! later we went to play around la.. and we send jonny to mum.. =P and we went home.. but b4 tat.. i went to buy spot stuff.. and then lijun keep on smsing mel.. she is always the one spoiling our outing sia... spoiler... then we went home.. =P ~ and sooooo.. we took a pic on the bus.. haha~~ (later then update..)

once reached my home.. my bro is using the com.. and we went to his room to play PS2.. and tune the guitar.. thanks mel for tat nut thingy!!! your master me will take good good care of you!! ^^ ^^ ^^ haha~ so when my bro went to bath.. i quicky go use the com.. and i made yu create a walli for herself.. but she dun like it.. and later use my idea instead.. haha.. but i dun mind~ as least she learn something.. and, me and mel were playing tat initial D thingy.. stupid sia tat PS2.. dun let me play fatal frame.. IDIOT!!! then we had a lot of fun until 7.30 +++.. (means they juz left not long ago~~~) haha..

and today at sch seems to be nice.. haha... dnt i was slping due to the running ytd... aches me sooo damn much.. and i juz lie DEAD... yup dead.. on the table.. ahah... and thanks to cho aik for being with me all the while (martin and gordon went to cut hair.. and the whole 3-4 period, i was dead beside cho aik.. lolx) later mother tongue.. i help jianbin cut hair.. and i suddenly rmb it is a maths later.. and i was so shock tat went i turn to call xiujuan to stuff everything in my bag, i CUT my hand.. pain pain pain.. and i lost blood.. geez... lolx.. but still ok la.. haha... then a maths wad a nice one.. mr lee sat beside me and start marking the files beside me.. and we went toking to each other in chinese.. hahaha.. and he told us.. next time dun be a teacher.. haha!! dun worry!!! I will not be one!!! XP
kkZ so today story ends here.. mood gana spoiled by 2 ppl.. one lijun one kel.. haix... sad.. nvm.. i will still stay cheerful de.. ねえ～待ったね～

2006-05-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

haha.. today nth much lar... hmmm got back my report slip.. sux lor.. i failed 2.. ENGLISH!!! A MATHS!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARIENE IZUNO!!!!!!! T_T doushite?!!! haha.. but still ok la.. the others were bad.. two 2s, one 3, two U, and the rest 5s... T_T.. so bad sia.. if i pass english i only get 9!!!! TAT'S SOOOO DAMN BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! anyway.. i had fun in sch... haha.. nuan nuan leave me again!! T_T... makes me feel so sad.. haha... and today 2.4 WORST... my leg is aching like hell now lor.. in the end 18 passes only..

and today.. i felt so bad sia.. jianbin gana scold becoz of me... T_T... gomene... hondou ni gome nasai.. T_T... anyway tat forum thanks for shermain help.. haha.. my class is so slacky.. in the end is the councillor help them lor... they dun even appreciate... =P

later me and yu went see hui.. she was better then ytd.. and we sit around to help her fold the paper money... i stay for a long time.. since the forum end early.. haha... and the A maths remedia was cancelled.. me and yu went until 5 then go home.. they made me laugh until cry sia.. haix.. all say wad got despression.. (is Zi Bi call depression? lolx) anyway.. i went to pray for the ah ma.. and i went off le.. =) i feel so good today.. feel like i done some good deed.. =P anyway.. yu smsed me juz now.. =P she said kel was there.. all she does was to look out for kel.. i think TM can be her second home liao... LOLX!!! ok.. stop here... gotta do my A maths inorder to escape from the devil hand of Mr lee.. lolx!!! ok.. がんばってくらさい！！！！じゃ～待ったね！！！

2006-05-17T20:14:00.000+08:00

hai.. today is on shunkashuutou's PV preview.. lolx.. dame kawaii.. nosebleeding already.. all of them in sch uni.. hahaha.. hai.. dousou

A9.. Nao there

Tora and Saga fought in tat Pv.. O_o...

Shou-chan~

everyone is heading to the roof.. hiroto infront.. blocked by saga and shou

hiroto quarrelled with the teacher..

fierce.. sia...

kawaii Nao looking very worried..

Tora-san

Shou and Saga..

and the live on roof top.. =D

GO AWAY!! GET AWAY FROM MY SAGA YOU FANGALS!!! XE XE

This is the 2nd preview

they were punished teacher.. standing outside

starts to fool around...

then starts playing on the floor..

when the teacher came out the stand properly again...

like the previous.. preview.. the heading to the roof.. (saw hiroto?)

they hanging around....

the 3rd one.. bad quality.. gomene..

Tora and Saga looking at Nao

Nao playing bball.. XD

someone shot.. i dunno hu...

really playing bball...

is this NAO????

and charging toward the camera man...

Tora~ <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/8121/583/1600/shun39.jpg">
break during the PV.. they were practicing.. =P

waiting for the last bit... =D

Saga showed a 'ganbatte' sgin

wad's Tora looking at? =O

ok.. end here.. bye bye!!! ^^

2006-05-17T16:43:00.000+08:00

juz now went to hui's ahma funeral.. i was juz starting.. but actually my mother ask me not to go.. but i dun care.. her ahma is a nice person.. my rite tell me tat i should be sending her off for her last journey.. i'm glad tat i did turn up.. but it was kinda scary.. i hope hui dun get so sad over it..

before tat.. i went to sch.. so tired coz tok to jonathan mel and lip last nite.. everyone toking abt girl sia.. ask me call in nth to tok de.. lolx.. anyway.. they use a cruel method to make me talk.. haix.. lip also kana said.. lolx.. went he is not toking.. jonny wanted to see if we are still there.. he will call mel.. he will 'ya..'.. and then lip, he will call 'alicia alicia are you there?' and lip will scold 'kao bea la'... and me.. i dunno how come he know i like jj.. lolx.. but anyway.. he called me 'jj, jj?' and i 'hmmm..' they cant seems to HEAR me.. wth lor.. and i shouted over the phone 'YA LA!' lolx.. coz he will keep on jj here jj there.. toking back abt jj.. i MET him along the way to see hui.. ahh~~ my sixth sense again.. i was toking to crystal then gordon.. abt wad.. i forgot le.. i think asking them to keep quiet.. coz we reaching le.. anyway.. for dunno wad reason.. i turned behind.. and saw tat 'cha si ni' (tat's wad me and xiujuan call him) and jj together.. two so tall hide behind a tree also can see lor.. haha.. they were walking directly behind us.. haha.. ok.. stop tat...

class was boring as usual.. but without hui it's more boring then ever.. anyway.. today got back ss.. haha.. hearing tat PERSON.. toking nonsense thing.. i was so bored and i JUX, JUX ONLY AR.. TURNED my head outside the window.. and there again.. i saw jj ran pass our classroom.. i was like diao....... really so diao...... lolx.. okok... then i saw tat jj friend sapphire house the.. i dunno who he is... but he really look very xl.. i dun like him... when ever i saw him, i knew it.. jj is with him.. and i will turn and tok to the guys.. =P.. haha.. ok.. stop tat also.. hmmm lijun actually ask me to go out with her.. haah.. with yu too... i dunno... but i'm not going.. laogong 再三吩咐我 not to stick so close to lijun.. lolx.. but still ok la.. see how caring is my laogong? actually she is very caring person de.. but the body lang is like.. so lian sia.. haha.. okok.. back back.. and my mother later ask me if i wan a long bang home.. and from hui house there.. i rush back to sch.. haha.. nearly gana spot out sia.. haha.. then ma.. went home le so sian lor.. the 2nd day didnt get to go out freely.. haix.. but friday.. i'm waiting... hoping to see kel's newest hairstyle.. kagoi! o^^o yu was so sad tat he got relationship.. i still ok la.. actually kuek have also.. lolx.. his gf was nice =) haha.. wondering why i dun feel hurt? coz i got more experience already... i got hurt more then ever sia.. so this type of small case only yu dunno how to handle.. lolx.. yu ar... forget it ba... 旧的不去，新的不来～ ok? haha.. 大丈夫。。もう大丈夫です。。。ok?! haha.. ok gotta go le.. じゃ、待ったね。。。

2006-05-16T17:07:00.000+08:00

hai.. a lil video of Peace and Smile backstage vid.. kinda funny.. i'm lazy to lok throught 1 2 and 3 again.. this is the 4th one.. everyone is kawaii.. (backstage vid 3, shin is inside! he is sooo short and soooooo damn K-A-W-A-I-I N-E~~~~~~~~~~)

that was a earlier part.. Aoi thought he was the most handsomeone there.. lolx!

Ruki's hand.. he showed a F there..

when the camera man caught him in action, he hide behind Uruha

Ruki, Uruha and Kai were playing a fool out of themseleves... lolx!

Reita came later.. Uruha hint the fans by placing 3 fingers on his nose

Reita did the same thing when the camera man moved to him.. Ruki was juz resting la.. daijoubu

they were saying their words to fans.. Kai said aishite iru to the fans and he was laughing all the way.. until he lied down on the sofa..

Uruha was very embarrassed by the mushy things he said.. and he couldnt help laughing too..

I had no idea wad Ruki was trying to say.. but he was kawaii

and he couldnt help but to laugh also.. =P only Reita was the normal one.. =D

2006-05-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

haix.. sad.. last nite lucify didnt get in.. i cried for the whole nite.. so does yu.. when i saw kuek hugging vics.. i really have no idea who was crying.. and i shed my tears already.. and i was sick last nite.. a bad flu spoiled my voice.. i was so angry with one of the band.. they should have gone out long time ago lor.. idiot.. i dun like them.. wad's the use of staying them there went their song arent nice?!!! i'm really really angry.. anyway.. they all dun look nice.. all my friends say their singing was awful.. so step out plz.. stop killing good bands...

today in the morning i came into class.. i didnt have the energy to tok.. cried until siao lat nite.. and the moment i step into the class cheehoe asked me y my face is so black.. OF COZ BLACK!!! nvm.. later.. stupid xiaoyin came to me and criticize lucify.. they all are juz trying to blow my anger.. went kenneth was abt to say too i shouted at him.. and xiaoyin.. i'm not toking to her anymore.. READ MY FRIENDSTER IF YOU STILL DUNNO ME.. I DID WRITE A PART SAY "I HATE PPL WHO CRITICIZE MY IDOL" lucify indeed is my idol, so if you say smth bad abt them.. dun blame me for treating you as a different person.. i hate ppl who tell me straight in my face.. regardless boy or girl, if tat person really freaks my anger off, i wont hesitate to give him or her a big tight slap on her face.. if you wan to criticize then THINK about yourself.. DO YOU have the ability to BE BETTER then them? if no, BUZZ OFF.

anyway.. yu was tired in the morning too.. [can tell from your face sia..] bet she cried worst then me.. lolx.. at least yu is a better one [dun say i'm prasing you.. i'm juz taking example..] she dun say bad things abt lucify.. but maybe some hmm still ok de.. but i cannt accept like "they look so ugly", "their song are not nice" unless it's really not nice.. i will let you say until your mouth rot i also dun care.. but lucify's songs are nice lor.. so STOP STOP STOP ALL nonsense abt lucify.. wanna said it? said it FAR away from me.. better go jurong and say, if not let me hear it.. i will not give chances..

today.. we got back our paper.. wad a sad case.. lolx.. 16 more marks to pass.. hopeless sia.. xiujuan got 84 lor.. me 54.. lolx.. wad a big gap.. lolx.. must really thanks her for letting me copy her work[opps] and teaching me Amaths until her dy/dx got bad.. lolx.. anyway.. working harder for my Amaths and Eng.. KA PUI... lolx..

hmm.. bad things happened today.. hui ah ma passed away.. i was kinda sad too.. her ah ma is a very nice person lor.. sometimes i got her house and she will ask me if i have eaten.. juz now at backgate.. hui cried.. and i sent her home after that.. she will not be going to sch for the rest of this week.. she told me tat her ah ma quarrelled wif her aunt last nite.. and her ah ma will be going to taiwan on 1st of June too.. she told me so many things tat makes me very worry.. i hopr she is doing fine.. and hope her ah ma will rest in peace.. [classmates or schmates who read tis.. plz dun ask her abt it.. juz to prevent her from crying.. she needs time to recover.. arigatou..]

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